Today's devotional will be good for my prayer life. It is important not to let my emotions get in the way of God's plan. I need to get out of God's way and sync up with the spirit to broadcast what is necessary to make a difference. I have already seen the fruit of spending more time with God daily. I am also realizing how my weakness has been hindering me from being more effective because I don't allow Jesus to work through my weakness all the time. 

Where is your identification? 

I CAN NOT BE PERFECT

Wow, I never felt this in my heart. I always thought I can figure out my life and avoid mistakes and wrong decisions. 

WALK BY FAITH

When I have a thought poke at me out of the blue that is asking me to take action and love someone in some way, I usually ignore it. I will have this idea cross my mind and feel compelled to act out kindness but I will wait it out until it passes. 

Time to take action! No more premeditated love, time to allow the Spirit to make it spontaneous!

Leave the whole thing to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come. Remain loyal to Him.

Is there anything you find yourself planning to the best of YOUR ability? 

It feels scary and sometimes foolish to be uncertain about my next step but, I am a follower of Jesus. For me to do this according to my own plan would be to deny Him. I would rather be a fool in the eyes of man than be judged a fool by God. I sure hope I have some good news to share in the coming weeks about how things are going!

Are you prepared to let God take you into union with Himself, and pay no attention to what you call the great things? Are you prepared to abandon entirely and let go?

Character determines how a man interprets God's will.

Honestly, I have felt like a devotee of my convictions. I have fallen into a pit of despair and even though I do these episodes most days, I am not walking out what I am saying. I have been doing my best to take each day at a time. Each step at a time. It is helpful to focus on today and If I keep doing that, the future will take care of itself. God has certainly been breaking me from the traditions that misrepresent Him and it feels like I am being broken in the process because of my stubbornness. Thought it is hard I have hope that I will be better because of it all. 

How is God purifying your faith in this season in life?

April is wrapping up and I can feel the intensity. Oswald is bringing it and of course, it matches up with my circumstances. I love how God can work through us to touch countless people through books and other media. That is my hope for this podcast. I may not be as inspirational as I am in the season of my life but, I am still echoing Oswald's words with each episode and honestly sharing my life. Right now that is what I can do. God is good. 

"Our work as His disciples is to disciple lives until they are wholly yielded to God. One life wholly devoted to God is of more value to God than one hundred lives simply awakened by His Spirit. As workers for God we must reproduce our own kind spiritually, and that will be God's witness to us as workers. God brings us to a standard of life by His grace, and we are responsible for reproducing that standard in others."

This is my last week of working full-time at my Job. Next week I will officially begin this journey that God planted in me to work with Him. Oswald says that a lack of concentration on God when working will lead to the work on the neck which leads to being spent out and crushed. I do not want this to happen. I hear it all the time and It is at the forefront of my mind as I start this process. Money and recognition are not my aims. I want to please God and feed His sheep.

I want to ask you this - How can you plug in a controller for God to start controlling your life? 

What I hate is how I can be a hypocrite. I will say in this episode one thing to my wife and kids another thing. Jesus does not like hypocrites and I don't feel good when I take out my frustrations on my family. 

I find myself displacing my frustrations with work and other stressors onto my wife and kids. I have been extremely tired of doing this. My family is being misled by me when I get stuck in this cycle. 

The reason I mention this is because I do not want to be a light that fails from my family's point of view. I really need to work on loving my wife and kids every day. This is a front where I need reinforcements to win the battle. 

So remember, just as lights in our life can fail, we can fail others and fade out of their trusted circle. The battle to say engaged with the family is one where the enemy is relentless so I must also be unfailing in this area.