Yesterday we looked at the role that our thinking plays in letting go of our past: our hurt, our wounds, sin, choices or relationships that have gone south. You know that it is painful to hang on to stuff that we cannot change, but for some strange reasons we find it equally painful to let go - as if by running it through our mind time and time again that somehow it will magically change. Of course, in our clearer moments we know that you cannot re-saw sawdust but we do a marvelous job trying to do so.
The renewing of our minds is fundamental to this process of letting go. We have seen how Scripture is key to understanding how God sees us, our situation and how He wants to free us for His use. But somehow, the truths that we put in our minds need to get to our heart, because until the truth of our situation and the truth of God’s word can move from our minds to our hearts, we will not be able to let go.
I am convinced that David teaches us the key to engaging our hearts in the Psalms. The Psalms come out of David’s deep meditation around God, His word and his (David’s) own life. It was as he soaked himself in God’s presence that he was able to see his own issues clearly, the truths of God’s word and then allow the Holy Spirit to speak to him with clarity about what he needed to do. It is in God’s presence that His truth moves from our heads to our hearts and we experience God’s presence most fully and His direction most clearly.
No Psalm more epitomizes this process than Psalm 51, where David is brought to repentance for his adultery with Bathsheba. Read this slowly and allow your own heart to be touched as David’s was as he wrote this:
“Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
and my mouth will declare your praise.
You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.”
There is nothing theoretical here. There is no defensiveness or justification. There is simply deep contrition coming out of David’s time with God. The truth that Nathan had delivered to David had moved from his mind to his heart and now he was willing to deal with the truth of his sin and in doing so, be forgiven, let go and move on. The more we take time to meditate on God’s word, the clearer will be our path forward and the more free we will become.
Father, would You teach me to soak in Your presence and meditate on Your word. Help me see myself clearly, my situation with clarity and my path forward with confidence. As David said, “My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart.” Amen.