Ever felt like a total jackass—frustrated with yourself, misunderstood, maybe even yelling at your own thoughts? In this episode, we dive into the raw and absurdly honest Angel Approach “Jackassery” memos—a surreal journey featuring talking donkeys, mercenaries, and even a brain that argues back.

What begins as a wandering rider’s rant turns into a profound exploration of why we blame, resist, and self-sabotage—and how those very flaws might be the doorway to transformation. Along the way, we uncover blockers that keep us from loving like Christ, wrestle with the ugly truths we avoid, and discover why our messy brokenness may actually be the key to redemption.

Part whimsical fable, part spiritual deep dive, this conversation will leave you laughing, unsettled, and—just maybe—seeing your own “jackassery” as the surprising place where God meets you.

Across the memos, the narrator identifies twelve key “blockers” that prevent Christ-like love:

1. Self-reliance and blame – Deflecting responsibility onto the donkey, others, or even God .
2. Blindness to self-deception – Our broken minds actively lie to us, leading us in circles .
3. Idolatry of self-preservation – Prioritizing safety above God’s call, turning survival into an idol .
4. Lack of empathy for internal struggles – Failure to show compassion toward our own inner brokenness .
5. Self-perceived incompetence – Believing oneself too flawed or inadequate to lead or love .
6. Misplaced value – Overvaluing intellect, strategy, or strength above heart and compassion .
7. Fear of the ugly truth – Avoiding hard realities out of cynicism or fear of discomfort .
8. Mistrust of the divine process – Holding back from surrender because we fear God’s path .
9. Holding back our hearts – Believing love means protecting the heart, instead of giving it away .
10. Fear of seeing God and ourselves – Hiding from exposure, judgment, and divine truth .
11. Resentment and self-pity – Even in grace, clinging to “why me?” or “it should’ve been easier” .
12. Narrow view of mission – Expecting only one form of reward or role, missing the wider calling .

What if the journey to real leadership didn’t begin with strength—but with collapse?

 In this episode, we trace the Giddy Path, a startlingly raw story of fear, death, surrender, and resurrection into Christlike authority. From hiding in a basement, to becoming a worm feeding only on Jesus, to leading an army through weakness and song, this is no ordinary leadership playbook. It’s a blueprint for transformation—loosely paralleling the story of Gideon — where victory comes not by power, but by love.

Explore a profound psychological journey from a state of numbness and defensive detachment, seeking control and predictability through intellectual pursuits within a metaphorical castle of wizardry, where the protagonist believes magic is the "foundation of the universe". This controlled world is shattered by the appearance of a dragon, revealing his established defenses and magic to be utterly useless, leaving him exposed and stunned. Told he is "born to be a knight, not a mage," his path shifts, culminating in the shocking truth that the princess needing rescue is the dragon. The heart of this transformation is the courageous embracing of vulnerability: admitting his need and asking for guidance, surrendering intellectual control and submitting to the stranger's will despite the paradoxical plan, consciously choosing physical exposure in the final battle, and enduring agonizing cold and physical peril. This act of vulnerability is the necessary process to break down his internal defenses, resulting in a state of integrated wholeness, no longer numb and now open to genuine connection.

The UNGIVER Saga

Journey into a world of familial betrayal and ancient curses born from past sins. Two brothers, divided by a forgotten crime and bound by a magical vow, reunite with their father, returned from presumed death, to confront their mad mother and the vengeful grandmother who controls her. A quest guided by a mysterious hermit leads them towards a necessary offering. But generational pain demands a sacrifice. Discover if confession, self-sacrifice, and divine intervention can break the spell and restore a broken bloodline.

Are you facing the challenge of healing deep trauma so you can love more deeply and help others do the same? This episode delves into a powerful metaphorical journey chronicled over twelve days, following a "Conqueror" narrative guided by an intimate connection with Jesus.

The journey begins with the narrator feeling empowered and equipped by Jesus to confront "warlike, savage" islands representing brokenness and conflict. This initial appointment sets the stage for a radical transformation. The narrator evolves, becoming a tsunami disrupting false securities, a flood purifying the land and toppling idols, and an inflated cloud pregnant with healing rain released through Jesus's word.

As the narrative unfolds, the process of healing involves releasing judgment and embracing compassion, mirroring the broken heart of Jesus.

The narrator dissolves into disembodied eyes, interceding into the deepest pain where God seems absent. A crucial turning point involves confronting personal fears and the "dark mirror" of one's own sins, understanding betrayal, and embracing darkness.

The journey continues with a radical destruction of the old self in the "wounded hands of Jesus," leading to a reformation where the narrator and others are intentionally fashioned from "mud". Through intense crushing and refining, symbolized by becoming a "tube," "worm," or "rod" with Jesus's tooth, the narrator is bound together with others, focused on a shared purpose of connection and love.

This interconnectedness transforms into a dynamic process of becoming transparent and molten glass, with Jesus as the glass-blower, forming "cables of trust" that bind hearts together. The ultimate stage is a shattering and dissolution, likened to "snow," representing the breaking of hearts and the culmination of the transformative journey.

The episode concludes with the profound realization that intimacy with God and the ability to love deeply arise from conflict and reconciliation, as individuals lay down their lives to love a broken world, guided by Jesus.

Inspired by scriptures from Isaiah 41, this episode explores the challenging yet ultimately fulfilling path of healing trauma and unlocking deep love through a complete surrender and connection to the divine.

Welcome to The Rogue Dialogues: Inner Healing for Leadership, a unique podcast journey into the depths of the subconscious. Join Dr. Ernie as he explores his inner world through a series of raw and revealing stream-of-consciousness narratives, born during a period of unemployment and quarantine.

In this teaser, get a glimpse of the intense and often explicit conversations between the rebellious Rogue and a cast of surprising inner figures, including the war god Ares and the wise goddess Athena. Witness a hairy giant in bronze armor clash with an androgynous youth in black leather. Can they find common ground? When Rogue declares, “We rogues are the only ones who can get anything done anymore,” Ares surprisingly agrees, wanting to make “novel mistakes.”

But this is just the beginning. Follow the Rogue through transformative encounters, becoming an Acolyte learning the secrets of Wisdom, an Adept facing the tensions of reality, a Seer burdened by all-encompassing vision, and the enraged Carnus seeking answers.

Discover profound lessons on leadership, the power of words, the nature of safety, and the courage required to walk your own path. Prepare for unexpected twists, dark secrets, and even moments of shared laughter as the Rogue confronts inner demons and ultimately seeks inner healing.

Are you ready to dive into the unconventional and deeply personal journey of The Rogue Dialogues? Tune in to our first episode and see what happens when the rebellious parts of ourselves finally get a voice.

Introduction:

Have you ever wondered about the daily life of someone married to the divine? This episode explores the unique and often perplexing world of “Mrs. Jesus,” as chronicled in the Radically Happy blog series. We examine the intimate and cosmic dimensions of her marriage, where domesticity intertwines with the creation of the universe.

Core Conflict:

Inspired by the question posed in On Loving Jesus—“What is it like to be in love with Jesus? More importantly: to know that He is in love with you?”—we explore this relationship through Mrs. Jesus’s perspective. Her experiences reveal a love that demands understanding beyond the ordinary, where her husband’s frequent absences are not due to earthly concerns but his ongoing “Father’s work.”

Key Themes and Narrative Threads:

• The 1950s Setting with a Twist – The story begins in a seemingly idyllic suburban home, reminiscent of classic black-and-white sitcoms. However, this normalcy is soon disrupted by the extraordinary nature of her husband’s work and their family life.

• The Burden of Responsibility and the Desire for Connection – Mrs. Jesus struggles with feeling alone and overly responsible for their children during Jesus’s absences. She longs for a deeper connection and understanding of his life beyond their home. Jesus reassures her that the responsibility for their children’s shortcomings lies with him and his mission.

• A Wife’s Journey to Understand Divine Work – In a pivotal moment, Jesus takes Mrs. Jesus to witness his creation, revealing a vast and intricate universe that he is constantly building and maintaining. She realizes that his departures are essential for the creation and future of their family and all existence.

• The Cost of Redemption and the Desire to Participate – Mrs. Jesus expresses a powerful desire not just to be Jesus’s bride but his wife, seeking to understand and even participate in his divine work. She learns that “all of creation starts with my blood, and my Father’s broken body,” emphasizing the immense cost of their shared mission to restore “the power of God back into the world.”

• Embracing Suffering for Deeper Intimacy – In a symbolic and painful act, Mrs. Jesus undergoes a process involving nails, signifying her willingness to endure suffering to know Jesus more fully. Her motivation is clear: “All that matters is whether it brings me closer to you.”

• The Dark Night of the Soul – The story explores themes of abandonment and despair when Jesus is absent, mirroring the solemnity of Holy Saturday. Mrs. Jesus experiences profound loneliness and questions her very existence without him.

• The True Meaning of “Living” – The finale introduces a temptation reminiscent of the Garden of Eden, where a snake offers an easier path to “live” by ignoring the world’s pain. However, Mrs. Jesus ultimately chooses to partake of the “other” tree with bitter fruit, symbolizing the suffering and sacrifice necessary for true life and union with Jesus. She understands that only by experiencing the bitterness can she truly appreciate and partake in the other fruit without being destroyed by it.

Symbolic Elements:

The episode explores rich symbolism, including the cozy 1950s house, the arduous journey through the mountains, the “tree of all creation,” and the contrasting imagery of the two trees in the final installment.

Emotional Arc:

The story traces Mrs. Jesus’s emotional journey from confusion and loneliness to a deeper understanding of her husband’s divine purpose and her own role within it. It follows her commitment to a love that demands sacrifice, understanding, and a willingness to embrace both joy and profound sorrow.

Concluding Question:

Ultimately, this episode invites us to reflect: What does it truly mean to love and be loved by someone whose work transcends the earthly realm? And what are the radical implications of such a profound and all-encompassing love?

Briefing Document: Radically Happy - Sex 408-411 Analysis

Date: November 30, 2024 Prepared For: [Intended Audience - e.g., Readers, Discussion Group] Subject: Analysis of Main Themes and Important Ideas in 

• "Sex 408: Geni-All-OG," 
• "Sex 409: Bar-Bie-Barians," 
• "Sex 410: Dis-Engaged,"
• "Sex 411: Shylock’s Home"

This briefing document summarizes the key plot points, emerging themes, and significant character developments across the provided excerpts from Dr. Ernie's "Sex 400" level series, specifically focusing on the narrative arc involving Earnest, Reflection, Klein, Tube, and the two witches in their quest related to the "Geni" and the subsequent search for Shylock.

Main Themes:

• The Importance of the Journey and Internal Transformation: Sweetums explicitly states that the journey is crucial for the characters' development. He tells Earnest, "Ah, but then you would have missed the whole reason for the journey. You would have stayed heartless and gutless, and never known which is which." This suggests a central theme of self-discovery and overcoming internal limitations through experience.
• Challenging Perceptions and Assumptions: The narrative frequently subverts initial impressions. 'Nother Witch is presented as an evil being, but is revealed to be lonely and seeking connection. Klein is initially portrayed as heartless but is shown to have an arranged engagement and is part of the final "contraption." The very nature of the "Geni" is questioned, moving from a powerful figure ("Geni-Oz") to a potential state of "Geni-Us" achieved through internal wholeness.
• The Power of Connection and Interdependence: The shapes, initially defined by their individual limitations ("heartless and gutless"), find strength and purpose in working together. Reflection emphasizes this when explaining their roles: "In fact, each of you have a role. But then… what is mine? ... Your role is to listen. To all of us." Ultimately, it is through their combined form that they can receive Shylock's message.
• Overcoming Isolation and Finding Empathy: 'Nother Witch's isolation due to her power is highlighted by Earnest: "Power corrupts, and isolates. ... There’s nobody else in this castle, is there? All those servants were you?" The reconciliation between the two sisters, Which and 'Nother, underscores the importance of overcoming estrangement and finding familial connection.
• The Nature of "Geni-Us": The initial quest for the "Geni-Oz" shifts towards a realization of "Geni-Us" as an internal state or a product of their collective wholeness. Reflection's deduction about Klein needing to be a "whole person" before meeting Nother supports this idea. The final configuration of the shapes as Ego, Empathy, Intimacy, and Passion further suggests that "Geni-Us" is achieved through the integration of these aspects.

Most Important Ideas and Facts:

• The Quest for the Broomstick: The initial goal set by Ang is to retrieve the broomstick of power from 'Nother Witch. This quest leads the group to her mansion and the subsequent revelations about her and Klein.
• Ang's instruction: "Geni left instructions. You must go to ‘Nother Witch. Bring back her broomstick."
• Klein and 'Nother Witch's Arranged Engagement: A significant plot twist is the reveal that Klein and 'Nother Witch are engaged. This pre-existing connection becomes a key element in understanding why they were sent to her.
• 'Nother's revelation: "'You might say that. He is my fiancée!' ... Klein: 'Not true!' ... 'Well, technically true.' ... 'It was… arranged.'"
• The Transformation of 'Nother Witch: Upon recognizing Klein, 'Nother Witch's demeanor and surroundings dramatically change, suggesting her initial "evil" persona was a facade or a consequence of her isolation.
• Narrative description: "Instantly, the chamber is transformed into a throne room, the angry furnace becoming a cheery fireplace. Her black robes become a pink ball gown."
• The Purpose of the Journey to 'Nother Witch: Reflection theorizes that the encounter was designed for Klein's personal growth.
• Reflection's deduction: "Klein was meant for Nother, but he wasn’t a whole person. He needed the Geni-US so he — we — could meet her as an equal."
• The Reconciliation of the Witches: The sisters, Which and 'Nother, experience a moment of emotional reconciliation, symbolized by their embrace.
• Narrative description: "Which gathers her sister in a fierce embrace. They both cry. Everybody cries."
• The Emergence of Individual Roles: In the Great Hall, Reflection identifies specific roles for Earnest (Listener/Ego) and himself (Empathy), hinting at a deeper understanding of their collective dynamic.
• Reflection's explanation: "Your role is to listen. To all of us. ... My dear friend Empathy, that reflects the hopes and fears of all around you."
• The Formation of the "Contraption": Which Witch guides the shapes into a specific configuration, assigning them symbolic roles: Ego (Earnest), Empathy (Reflection), Intimacy (Klein), and Passion (Tube).
• Which Witch's guidance: "You are the Ego. ... My dear friend Empathy. ... I must confess, at first I too thought you heartless when you abandoned my sister. But then I realized a naked heart has no other way to survive in this world. It is only as true Intimacy ... And the last piece, Passion..."
• The Discovery of Shylock: The combined shapes receive a message from Shylock, revealing he is alive and in need of help. This becomes the new focus of their quest.
• Small Voice: "'Help me. Help me.' ... Contraption: 'We know that voice.' ... Which: 'The missing piece. We have found the home of your younger brother Shylock.'"
• Nother's Impulsive Departure: Upon hearing Shylock's voice, Nother immediately sets off to find him, disappearing into the labyrinthine city.
• Narrative description: "Nother: '(rising and beginning to run) Shylock, my love, I am coming for you!' Then she disappears without a trace into the endless maze of impossibly shifting alleys and buildings."

Quotes Highlighting Key Ideas:

• On the importance of the journey: "Ah, but then you would have missed the whole reason for the journey. You would have stayed heartless and gutless, and never known which is which." - Sweetums
• On challenging perceptions: "My evil sister! A being so twisted and devious, brave men faint in her presence. You are marching to your doom!" - Which Witch (contrasted with 'Nother's actual state)
• On the arranged engagement: "'You might say that. He is my fiancée!' ... Klein: 'Not true!' ... 'Well, technically true.' ... 'It was… arranged.'" - Nother Witch and Klein
• On the purpose of their encounter with 'Nother Witch: "Klein was meant for Nother, but he wasn’t a whole person. He needed the Geni-US so he — we — could meet her as an equal." - Reflection
• On the isolating nature of power: "Power corrupts, and isolates." - Earnest

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NotebookLM Prompt:

Join us for a review of Season 4 of Sex In The Psyche. This season follows The Earnest Redeemer on a philosophical journey to understand sex, love, and war. He interacts with various allegorical characters, including representations of Love, War, Time, Mother Nature, and various gods and mythical beings. Santa even shows up!

• The Earnest Redeemer's journey takes him to a variety of settings, from a monastery to a bee-filled meadow and a fantastical land resembling Oz.
• Throughout his journey, he grapples with existential questions about the purpose of life and the nature of reality.
• He is accompanied by a growing cast of companions, including Reflection, his inner self, and figures like Tube and Klein Bottle, who represent different aspects of the human psyche.
• The Earnest Redeemer's quest is presented as a search for a missing piece of himself, symbolized by his "little brother" Trauma.
• The summaries hint at a larger narrative arc involving the Earnest Redeemer's confrontation with his past and his journey toward wholeness.

It uses humor, allegory, and philosophical dialogue to explore complex themes related to identity, human relationships, societal structures, and the search for meaning.