Two Moms with Two Dead Kids: When Your Child Dies From a Drug Overdose

One of us has a kid in a bag. The other has hers in a box. We start a conversation about what we've done with the ashes of our children after they've died. Is there a right answer? How do we relate to what remains? Literally. 

Following up on the previous episode, The Mind-Body Connection, we explore the effects of "cracking open" and allowing ourselves to soften in our grief. What happens when we lower our protective barriers and explore what we find there? We look at other avenues of connection and think about what we're willing and able to do in this present moment.

We also explore what it means to have an exaggerated sense of responsibility in the face of the drug overdose deaths of our children. In the shock of it, our perspectives have become wildly skewed. How do we get back to center? 

Today we explore the mind-body connection and what that means for us. Neither of us had ever explored this before our children died. What is it? How does it work? How does it help? Can we use the mind-body connection to connect to our children in a way that's meaningful?

We spent the first six episodes lightly touching on the details of our children's deaths. In this episode we ask, why did we do that? What is the benefit of sharing the particulars? What does it mean to have to work through the details of that day? As it says in the title, we're in it now. We are diving in. 

How do you share the news of what happened to your child? What happens when you share a deep loss with others? Here's a first look. Our stories might change over time. 

Weirdly, we sometimes find ourselves still trying to meet social expectations even after the worst has just happened. Why do we do this and what have we learned? 

In the lead up to talking about the day Garrett died, we chat about how we sometimes start our day. The shower sets the tone. 

We explore the immediate aftermath of Nicholas' death. How do you navigate the world when this happens?

How do you know when things got started? How do you know when there's a problem?

We introduce ourselves and start talking about our kids, and how this kind of death explodes your world.