My sensitivity was both a blessing and a curse and still is. I felt into the life of the squirrel whose life I saw taken that day alongside my friends who experienced the same thing.

Growing up in the 1980s was a magical experience in so many ways, but the darkness had ways of creeping into my existence. There was a component of 'aloneness' to all of it that became more and more prevalent as I grew as a child in a very privileged town known as Glen Ellyn.

This episode deals with my love of water which prevailed despite my defeats on the swim team.

https://www.youtube.com/@samvaknin

A bit on snapshotting, introjecting, my blanket, and the safe world I created inside of myself. Also, a bit on the Kevin and Jim chapter.

A talk about the introjects I created and then interacted with on my insides. There is a bit of schizoid/borderline personality disorder that is somewhat hinted at here.

Addiction is a generational phenomenon. This episode gets at the origin of it all.

This episode gets to the origins of the emotional intoxication I began experiencing at a very early age. I've included a link to a video my a prominent professor and psychotherapist.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1t4CZMUqak&t=1411s

This episode addresses the partially answerable but also somewhat unanswerable questions regarding addiction.

The situation in Japan was an existential nightmare to say the very least. This episode just compliments the chapter and subchapter in the book to paint a fuller picture of what was happening as it unfolded.