Underneath the Underneath

In this week’s episode of Underneath the Underneath on Parshat Vaetchanan, we step into the space after Tisha B’Av—the aftermath of grief—and ask: What is comfort, really?

We meet Moshe on the mountain, retelling his impassioned prayer and God’s response: Rav lach—“enough.” Through this sacred moment, we explore three layers of prayer, Rav Kook’s radical view of suffering, and how real comfort doesn’t come from fixing pain but from having enough space to hold it. We explore the difference between collapse and widening, between resisting life and bowing before mystery.

This episode weaves together Kabbalah, trauma healing, and the tender terrain of mature prayer—where even a Divine “No” becomes a sacred space for co-creation. For anyone navigating longing, disappointment, or the ache for more, this class offers a map for sacred spaciousness.

Ohmek Session dated August 5, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

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In this week’s Underneath the Underneath, we enter the month of Av — a time when the Torah invites us into the depth of loss, not to avoid it, but to be transformed by it. Drawing from classical and contemporary sources — the Talmud, Psalms, the Piaseczner Rebbe, Francis Weller — we explore grief not as weakness, but as gateway.

What if the tears themselves are a kind of prayer?

What if the ruins are not a failure, but an initiation?

From the Five Gates of Grief to the gates of tears that remain open even when all else closes, we ask: how do we meet our sorrow with presence? How do we make space for the losses of our lives — personal, ancestral, collective — and emerge not diminished, but more whole?

This episode offers Torah for anyone who is ready to feel, to release, and to walk the sacred ground of grief with integrity and courage.

Ohmek Session dated July 29, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

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In this week’s Underneath the Underneath, we enter the territory of vows — the inner narratives, soul contracts, and unconscious promises that shape our lives.

We explore the Torah’s invitation to practice hatarat nedarim — the loosening of vows — and how, through awareness and presence, old bindings can begin to soften. Rooted in the word matir (to untie), this is the spiritual art of becoming unbound, of allowing ourselves to change.

But not all structures dissolve gently. Some must burn.

Together, we reflect on the altars we’ve built to false gods — the rigid scaffolding of identity and belief that no longer serve — and the sacred courage it takes to let them fall.

This episode is a meditation on grief, inner loosening, and the holy fire that clears space for becoming.

Ohmek Session dated July 22, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

https://www.patreon.com/ohmek/membership

In this week’s session of Underneath the Underneath, we enter the quiet ache of Parshat Pinchas — a portion filled with transition, legacy, and the tender moment where Moshe sees the Land he cannot enter, calls for new leadership, and blesses Yehoshua.

Drawing on a mystical teaching from the Sfat Emet, we explore Moshe as the masculine Sun, Yehoshua as feminine Moon what it means to pass the torch — to love deeply enough to let go, and to meet the vulnerability of endings with sacred presence. We touch the Bnot Tzlafchad, the movement toward embodied feminine Torah, and allow the transmission to arise — not from certainty, but from the threshold.

This is a session of softened edges and soul listening. Of presence in the places we don’t get to stay. Of leadership as blessing, not arrival.

Ohmek Session dated July 15, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

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In this live transmission of Underneath the Underneath, we meet an unexpected guide: Bilam’s female donkey.

Through her mysterious three stops along the way and Bilam’s reaction to her, we uncover a profound map for attuning to embodied wisdom, nervous system healing, and the sacred art of halting before collapse. This class explores how the donkey’s three stops mirror the stages of nervous system defense, and how feminine wisdom teaches us to pause, to sense, and to refuse the familiar impulse to override what we know. Together, we reflect on how often we strike down or bypass our own knowing, both personally and collectively, and what it takes to listen instead. Rooted in the energy of Tammuz, we explore the connection between internal heat, compression, and the sacred medicine of slowing down.

This is a deeply embodied mystical class, weaving Torah, trauma wisdom, and personal healing into a transmission on the sacred halt that can save us—if we listen.

Ohmek Session dated July 8, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

https://www.patreon.com/ohmek/membership

In this week’s episode of Underneath the Underneath, we explore Parshat Chukat as a mystical map of healing. Drawing from the figures of Moshe, Miriam, the Waters, the Snake, and the Staff, we uncover four archetypes of the healing journey: the guide, the midwife, the shadow, and the witness.

We ask what it means to feel another without getting enmeshed. We touch the grief that arises when the well dries up. We ask what it means to hold space beside the rock without forcing it open. We examine Moshe’s seeming bypass, the danger of urgency, and the sacred pause that invites water to flow. We look at the snake — not as threat, but as mirror. And we consider how power can be wielded not to strike, but to invite.

This class unfolded as a live mystical transmission — part teaching, part field-based listening — drawing from embodied presence, Torah, and the unseen.

Ohmek Session dated July 1, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

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In this week’s Underneath the Underneath, we meet the mystery of Korach—not just as rebellion, but as collapse. What does it mean to be swallowed by the earth and not die, but disappear? What if becoming means letting old identities fall away in the dark, trusting that something in us is still ripening?

We journey from the belly of the void to the blossoming of the staff—a sacred pause between ambition and emergence. This is a teaching on the mercy of hiddenness, the holiness of not-yet, and the quiet authority that flowers when the soul stops striving to prove itself.

Ohmek Session dated June 25, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

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What if the very thing you long for is also the thing you fear?

In this week’s session of Underneath the Underneath, we journey into the Torah portion of Sh’lach, exploring the mystical dimensions of longing, readiness, and the ache of the fruit—the vision that overwhelms the vessel.

Through Hasidic and Kabbalistic sources, we ask:

What happens when the promise appears too early, too bright, too close?

Can wandering be a form of sacred preparation?

And is the “no” we sometimes receive not punishment—but a pause that ripens us to receive?

We meet the spies, the fruit, the land, and our own trembling hearts—stretching toward the mystery of Divine timing, inner expansion, and the slow becoming of the soul.

Ohmek Session dated June 18, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

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Not all distance is exile. Sometimes it is the voice of the soul, aching its way back in.

In this episode of Underneath the Underneath, we enter this weeks Torah portion and the field of Pesach Sheni, the “Second Passover”—a sacred doorway opened not by perfect timing, but by honest yearning. We explore the mystical function of restoration, the difference between complaint and desire, and the profound offering that emerges when we presence what was missed.

What if what you couldn’t do the first time… still has a place?

What if your ache is not failure, but prayer?

Ohmek Session dated June 11, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

https://www.patreon.com/ohmek/membership

In this episode of Underneath the Underneath, we explore the inner preparation and energetic alignment that makes revelation possible. As we enter the month of Sivan and approach Shavuot, we turn to the Baal Shem Tov’s teaching that the voice of Sinai never stopped — it’s still speaking, waiting for us to become still enough to hear.

We dive into themes of readiness, emptiness, and the sacred unknown. The Torah was not given in a city, nor on a mountaintop of clarity — but in the wilderness. The desert becomes a holy container precisely because it is empty, uncertain, and wild. It’s there — in the place without maps — that we encounter the Divine.

What does it mean to prepare ourselves to hear what’s already being spoken? How do the spiritual frequencies of this month invite us into alignment, humility, and holy listening? And how might these teachings reveal the subtle invitation of Sinai — not just as a historical moment, but as a present-moment possibility?

Ohmek Session dated May 28, 2025

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More on Yocheved Sidof:

Yocheved Sidof is a mystic, teacher, trauma-informed spiritual guide and leader of Ohmek, a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of Being.

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Deepen with Ohmek:

Ohmek is a community of women and men pursuing deeper ways of being.

It is the space that holds all, yet remains empty, the void that allows healing and transformation to take place, take shape, belong, integrate and disperse.

It is an invitation inward, into a space and community, as well as one’s own inner world. A place to be stretched and to come together, to feel at home in exploration, with room to be and to breathe.

At our upstate retreat center and Brooklyn locations, in our sacred gatherings, healing containers and embodied mysticism classes, we invite you into spiritual experiences and sacred spaces that allow us — collectively and individually — to explore our own depths, underneath the underneath.

Website: www.ohmekliving.com

Instagram: @ohmek.living

To support these sessions and our offerings, strengthen our community, and enhance your engagement we welcome you to join MAAGAL, our founding membership circle

https://www.patreon.com/ohmek/membership