Unfolding Light

Sitting through a chemo drip,
you wonder.
With the news,
the marriage, the child, the job,
even just this ordinary day,
you wonder.
Where is this going? 


Cities have maps, but not so with friendships,
or prayer, or aging, or the world
There are no signs, few landmarks;
even the goal might be vague.
Nevertheless we go,
under a different kind of guidance.
We do not know what something within us—
within us being among us—
knows.


But it knows.


The poet begins, and only gradually
does the poem reveal what it wants to say.

The tree reaches down its roots, blind.
The stormy petrel takes off for shores unseen.
Under the frozen river,
the water knows the way.






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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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          “If you were blind, you would not have sin.
          But now that you say, ‘We see,’ your sin remains.”
                       —John 9.41

In the ninth chapter of his gospel
John tells a hilarious story
full of slapstick comedy
and subtle and not-so-subtle irony—
a sort of Jesus and the Three Stooges—
that on Sunday thousands of preachers
will read with a perfectly straight face.
In the story people whose eyes work fine
ask a man who was blind
to describe what he saw.
He sees clearly, though they do not.
They contort themselves
and trip all over themselves
with comic awkwardness
to avoid seeing what they see.
Despite the storyteller’s straight face,
intoning this tale as if it’s
a recipe for fish stew,
we’re supposed to laugh out loud,
first at those goofy Pharisees
and then even more seriously
at ourselves, since the real joke is on us,
because we too keep putting bags on our heads
and stumbling over God’s grace,
avoiding seeing what we see.
We don’t want to see grace
where we don’t want to see it.
We don’t want to see God
in people we judge.
‘Till we open the eyes of our hearts
the angels will just keep laughing at us.
But Jesus will sit down on the curb
with those who have been rejected
for seeing what they see,
and day after day work with us
to open our eyes.


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Click here a script for a four-scene dramatic reading of John 9.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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          God said to Moses,
          “I will be standing there in front of you
          on the rock at Horeb.
          Strike the rock, and water will come out of it,
          so that the people may drink.”
                       —Exodus 17.6

Unexpected refreshment
flows from an act of service,
a mystery hidden
in an ordinary deed.
Acting in trust
for the sake of life and healing
releases the infinite grace
already present
in even the most unpromising situation.
Faith is not knowing,
but striking the rock.

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Weather Report

Blessing,
impossible to forecast.
Clear, empty skies
may offer renewing rain.
Chance of precipitation 100%,
though unlikely.
Strike the rock.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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          “The water that I will give
          will become in you a spring of water
          gushing up to eternal life.”
                                 —John 4.14

Maybe faith is something you “have”
as a river “has” water:
for a river is not just some water,
but a flowing,
releasing as it receives.
The unkillable life God gives you
is not for you alone,
not for you to keep, but to pass on.
Faith is the flowing of love
from the spring of God
through you
into the world,
freely flowing,
the receiving-and-giving,
the passing-on,
one fluid motion.
You are the riverbank
through which God
never stops gushing.

Breath prayer:
                       Receiving . . . releasing

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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          Then the woman left her water jar
          and went back to the city.
                       —John 4.28

She came to the well at noon,
at the end of the line, a nobody.
But Jesus saw in her something else,
something more. Sure enough,
after their conversation (the Bible’s longest!)
when she departed she left her jar—
because she knew she was coming back.
She had a mission, to bring others to him.
She who once was a pariah
had become an effective evangelist.

When you attend
to your deep spiritual thirst,
Jesus meets you there,
and touches your deep spiritual gifts.

And that in turn nourishes Jesus:
after meeting with the woman
Jesus said to his disciples,
“I have food you don’t know about.”
It turns out our deepest hunger and thirst
is also Jesus’.
Only when we are hungry and thirsty
do we join in the feast.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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        Those who drink of the water
        that I will give them
        will never be thirsty.
                       —John 4.14

Of course I will thirst again.
I breathe deeply,
yet want one more breath, and another…
God, I will always thirst for your grace,
but never be unsatisfied.
The thirst itself, for nothing less than you,
renews me, nourishes me;
for by your grace there is no difference
between my desire for you
and your desire for me.

Breath prayer:
                           Thirsty . . . for each other

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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      “Sir, give me this water.”
                          —John 4.15

You are thirsty.
Thirsty with a thirst deeper
than mere desire or even need,
something deeper,
more life-giving.
This thirst at times disturbs you:
you spend energy,
often digging in dry wells,
often chugging a substitute.
But still you thirst.
Give thanks that your soul
knows what it needs.
It craves the grace that is life.
Blessed are you who thirst
for closeness with God.

Breath prayer:
                        You, my thirst . . . you, my satisfaction

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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The patient is dull, listless, not fully awake—
yet restless:
classic signs of defiance,
self-anesthetization.

Still, your surgery is sure.
Every layer of tissue that is cut hurts,
every tumor exposed resists,
each suture a stitch of pain.

Such prayer will need to be followed up
by much rest,
the miracle of the Body healing itself,
the hand of the Healer touching me
with such gentle regard.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Precious one, the great web of life
has prepared you for ages
and now brings you to us,
radiant with the love
at the heart of all that is.
A river flows through you.
By your very being, past all doing,
into a world both broken and beautiful
you bring hope and loveliness.
You are a thread of the whole weave of life,
and the whole is present in you.
The gifts you have will flourish
out of the gift you are.
In your blossoming is grace to save us.
In your knowing and not knowing,
even now, is wisdom to guide us.
Though you come into a precarious world,
you are what the world offers
for its own mending.
The purity of your being
draws from us our wonder, and our love.
You give us courage
to make this world worthy of you.
Child, Beloved, source of delight,
may you be newborn again and again
as we walk with you
into the great, hopeful unknown.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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God, sometimes I want you to save me
            from your will.

I pray, “Don’t ask me to follow
            into uncomfortable situations.”

I settle for small pleasures
            instead of great joy.

Sometimes what is most powerful
           is most fraught.

Sometimes the call
            is to the path of most resistance.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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