Surrendering to the Black Dragon
Holy lesson in trust as I work toward this gold deadline! Each edition brings its excitement and challenges and it was silly of me to think that Gold would be any different. Many of the writers for this edition are going to speak to you about stepping into your power, embracing your I Am’ness and the alchemy that comes with Gold. I am going to write about another aspect of Gold, trusting and surrendering into what is. I had no idea how much of a control freak I actually was until I was put to the trust test this month.
For the last few years, I have taken part in a predictions program put on by my mentor Moira Bush. At the beginning of the year, we pull 12 cards from her Colour Mirrors Oracle Card deck. One card for each month.
As I absorbed my spread for the year, I found myself feeling a bit nervous with the amount of black cards, particularly the ‘Black Dragon’ card for March. When you read the message of the Black Dragon (below) you’ll understand why I was a bit skittish about that particular card turning up. (In my Birthday month of all months!).
Black Dragon represents death and rebirth. He relates to the phoenix which is always reborn more beautiful and more powerful than before. This dragon reminds you that the journey is an endless series of deaths and births - and that is OK. He is black with silver sparkles, indicating that in the darkness there is always light. His gift is bringing light into the darkness and a reminder that there is a bigger picture. Endings are always beginnings and every step along the way is for our highest good. Black Dragon helps us release our judgments around death and darkness and what we have considered evil.
When I picked the card in January, I had no understanding of how impactful and bang on this card would be! What stuck out for me in the description about the Black Dragon was the bit about ‘endings’. I’ve never been good with goodbyes or endings so I entered into March, with much trepidation, I was actually relieved to see that no major upheavals were on the horizon and I started to relax. That is until my King and I had the brilliant idea that now was the perfect time to sell our home and kick-start our dream of owning a retreat centre. Exciting... Right?!
With no idea where we would end up I went to visit my Real Estate Agent to find out the state of the market. When I asked her when a good time to put the house on the market would be... Her answer was ... yesterday!
Because I love the story that numbers and colours tell and for shits and giggles I calculated the date I went to see my agent, which was the date I signed the paperwork to list the house.
09.03.2022 = 18 (1+8=9) Nine is an ending number, which I thought was pretty neat. I was ending a cycle on a date that was a nine. Cool huh? But wait, it gets cooler!
When this house closes (in June) I will have been here for exactly 9 years! And...
I just turned 54 this year, ALSO A NINE! (5+4=9) And...
The closing date that works best for our family is 24.06.2022 WHICH IS ALSO A NINE!!!
Did I need any more conformation from the universe that I was heading in the right direction?! With all those beautiful nines you’d think that surrendering to what is should be easy... Right? I wish!
I went into full panic mode! Where would I put the bunnies while we had the house on the market? How was I going to paint the entire house in a week? How were we going to clear out the garage that had become the storage unit for family members? There was decluttering, fixing, raking, dumping and right... A magazine to get out by April 1!
Suddenly the relaxation of nothing on the horizon turned into chaos and mayhem! I can’t tell you how many times I sat in the middle of the floor and ... visit www.unitedcoloursofdesingmag.com to read the rest of the article.