I miss my childhood in the 80s. Too many times in my adult life, nostalgia has really gotten to me in dark and depressing ways. I talk about my old friends, the trailer park I used to live in, and the elementary school I attended and love; I talk about the beloved 80s kid lunchboxes, so much so I had to buy a couple on eBay to satiate my painful need to relive my past.

#generationX #GenX #1980s

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I’ve wanted to write this book (or some variation of it) for a  long time. In 2018 it was going to be my rags-to-riches story, but it  never went beyond an idea. In 2019 it was meant to be a feminist,  motivational book using my life-changing experiences as a backdrop. In  2020, the idea shifted to a memoir, heavily detailing my life, the many obstacles I’ve faced, and how I overcame them. Then, in 2021... 

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Life can be beautiful, yes, when you know where to look and how to enjoy it. In the same way that a rose is beautiful, so long as you don't hold the stem the wrong way. Deep down, no matter what you want to believe, how many encouraging quotes you read, or who in your life somehow makes life look beautiful, you know that at its core, "beautiful" is not quite the word for it.

#evilworld #darkworld #sinful

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I've never had much interest in writing a memoir to show people my life,  as wild and strange and interesting as it may be (or not) so far. But there has always been one aspect of my life I've felt compelled to share with others for as long as I can remember. And since it is woven into every part of my past and present, a memoir was inevitable.

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I talk about why I don't record many episodes (or do much of anything, really), because I'm too busy being traumatized in Mexico. From having Covid twice to suffering two concussions to emergency surgery. I don't know how much more I can take.

#Mexicoliving #covid #cursed

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I talk about my hypochondria. This is, in my opinion, the black sheep of mental health disorders. It doesn't get enough attention and doesn't go to family reunions with depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, PTSD, anorexia, bulimia, or even the one that always shows up but everybody else is afraid to sit by -  schizophrenia. Hypochondria is a debilitating mental health disorder - and it's the root cause of at least 90% of the depression I've suffered from most of my adult life. 

#hypochondria #mentalhealth #depression

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I talk about when I started writing and how I made $1.4 million dollars in one year by quitting my job to do what I love most. I talk about agent rejections (about 300 total that I didn't actually say in the episode - but it was 300 rejections!), to my struggle with never having time to write because I worked long hours and was raising three small children on my own. I did the unthinkable! I took a huge risk that could have so easily gone the wrong way - but if I didn't take that risk, I likely never would have seen the success that I've had.

#personaljourney #writing #self-publishing

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This is not an *episode*, but one of my book note voice memos, so if you're a  listener uninterested in my books, characters,  and storylines, feel free to skip it. If you want more details about  what my "book note voice memos" are, you can find the info. here.

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This was recorded while writing book 7, SPIDERS IN THE GROVE. It's one of the ideas I decided not to use - and you can hear me getting frustrated because I couldn't figure everything out. Ultimately, I thought the whole thing was stupid (and *not* a soap opera, even though I ended up going the soap opera route later with somebody else, anyway, lol). The character that took place of Izabel's sister in the scene ended up being Lysandra.

This is not an *episode*, but one of my book note voice memos, so if you're a  listener uninterested in my books, characters, and storylines, feel free to skip it. If you want more details about what my "book note voice memos" are, you can find it here.

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This voiced book note was recorded during the writing process of THE BLACK WOLF, the 5th book in my series, In the Company of Killers. You will hear me talking about what Victor thinks about Nora - and Izabel! I talk about the supposed death of a particular character, and I ponder the idea of just who in the hell is Vonnegut going to be. Because I'll be honest with you all: I never knew myself who Vonnegut was until the final book, THE DARKEST HALF. All throughout the series, I had a few ideas about who I wanted him to be, but as the storylines unfolded, I kept changing my mind. In this voice memo, I also talk about how I planned to manipulate you, the reader! 👿

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Be warned, this audio file contains a lot of vulgar language because I've always been somewhat of a potty mouth - I make no apologies! 💀

Also, be warned - If you haven't read the final book in the series, THE DARKEST HALF, it's perfectly OK to listen to this file, but I don't recommend reading any of the comments posted regarding the file because there will likely be spoilers!

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THE BLACK WOLF was published on June 30, 2015. The voiced book note here had to have been recorded in 2015 as well, but the properties of the file have different, conflicting dates that don't make any sense, as you can see in the screenshot attached. It wasn't recorded in 2020 and definitely wasn't modified in 2012 because the series didn't even exist. So, the only thing I can assume is that during one of the numerous times I've moved these files to different PCs and such, somehow, the dates got screwy. Likely, all of my voiced book notes will have weird dates like this one, but I'll do my best to give the most accurate date possible for when each file was recorded.

This is not an *episode*, but one of my book note voice memos, so if you're a  listener uninterested in my books, characters, and storylines, feel free to skip it. If you want more details about what my "book note voice memos" are, you can find it here.

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This voice note was recorded while writing THE BLACK WOLF. The book was published in 2015, so the recording has to be from that year. It's just more proof that I had certain *intentions* with these characters (Niklas and Izzy) from the very beginning. Enjoy! 🥰P.S. I'm getting close to finishing up the short story about Izabel and Niklas.