In this episode, I speak to Los Angeles-based Natasha Rudenko about her upcoming solo exhibition: Be/longing conceptual photography at El Nido art space presented by VC Projects, located in East Hollywood, from February 19th – March 24, 2022.
This is an enlightening conversation not only about belonging but also about the concept of home. We could have talked for hours! We touch on how the series came about as well as the technical aspects of composing the shot. I ask, “Was this an intuitive process?” Rudenko’s answers reveal a great deal of depth.
Be/longingLonging to belong or to simply be present, seen. What is longing? Defined as a “yearning desire” it leaves out both a nature of the object of that desire and the reasons behind it. The object of longing seems irrelevant and the yearning - directionless. We say: longing for home, for love, for acceptance, for recognition, for friendship. The concepts that through their platitude deceive you into familiarity but that in fact persist in their ambiguity.
Susan Stewart in her book On Longing quotes the 1748’s Anson's Voyage Around the World: “Our native country, for which many of us by this time has begun to have great longings” and thus places the narrative of the “yearning desire” into the narrative of homesickness; and socially and colloquially the two experiences are still connected.
For an immigrant, and I, myself, am one, defining home becomes a task of a lifetime. But for me, the longing for home started long before I left what now official documents call a “country of origin”. My being originated there, but what does it really mean? What non-severable ties did that event create in the process? Has it so happened that I am destined to long for home or rather for that sense of belonging with the unquenchable thirst of a traveler stranded on a raft in the middle of the shoreless ocean? How the relationship with a place is created to form a bond that would make one say “I belong here”?
In this project, I am not so much as looking for answers to these questions but rather reflecting on them and the experiences that posed them. The angst of presence, of “being seen” is resolved through creating photographic self-portraits, that loop the “looking” and the “being looked at” in a perpetual echo while the act of photographing turns them into the evidence of presence. - Natasha Rudenko
Natasha Rudenko was born in Moscow and received honors in Photography from the British Higher School of Art and Design, She holds a Bachelor of Arts degree from State University – Higher School of Economics, Moscow, and a Master of Fine Arts in Photography at New York Film Academy, Los Angeles. Since 2013, Rudenko has been exhibiting her work in various group shows in New York, Los Angeles, Athens, Tempe, Moscow, and Budapest. Her work has been found in a number of annual publications of feminist and queer art, including Issues II and Femme Fatale Volume III Analog and Femme Fatale Volume IV Leafless. Rudenko is also an educator of Fine Art Photography at the New York Film Academy, Los Angeles, and UCLA Extension. She currently makes Los Angeles her home.
Visit: www.vcprojects.art to learn more about the exhibition. Visit the artist’s website at: www.natasharudenko.com