Virtual Pause

November 24, 2025

Through some recent experiences, I have realized that there is a fire inside of me that desires to express truth, creativity, passion, and sight. But there has been a blanket ofcompliance that has shoved that fire down over the years, for fear it will kick me out of situations and leave me abandoned. But what happens when you don’t let fire out? You eat it, and eventually it eats you or blows up you and those around you. Today we will stir that fire up a bit through breath, try to identify its source and gifts by connecting it with holy fire, and let go of that which may be holding it back.

I will be quoting an excerpt from Every Moment Holy:

“Breathe out sorrow,

Breathe in joy.

Breathe out lament,

Breathe in hope.

Breathe out pain,

Breathe in comfort.

Breathe out sorrow,

Breathe in joy.

Breathe out joy.”

(Adapted) A Liturgy for Embracing both Joy and Sorrow, Every Moment Holy V. II, Douglas McKelvey, 2021

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November 3, 2025

Yesterday was All Saints Day, or All Soul’s Day, and in Mexico, The Day of the Dead. Sometimes we forget how our ancestors have shaped us. What positive attributes have we acquired?What has been passed down to us that we may not even recognize? In today’s episode we will root ourselves into our lineage – noticing the beautiful gifts we have been given that make us who we are, and the challenges, generational trauma, or fears that have been passed down that we need to tend to.

October 27, 2025

Today’s episode is a simple grounding practice using imagery and sound. Sometimes (like always) we just need to get out of our heads and back into our bodies and souls. We will assess where we are on the continuum of groundedness. Our reading for today is an excerpt from the poem Remember fromJoy Harjo, a Native American U.S. Poet Laureate from the Muscogee Nation.

Remember, Joy Harjo

Remember the sky that you were born under, know each of the star’s stories.Remember the moon, know who she is.Remember the sun’s birth at dawn, that is the strongest point of time. Remember sundownand the giving away to night.Remember your birth, how your mother struggledto give you form and breath. You are evidence ofher life, and her mother’s, and hers.
Remember your father. He is your life, also.
Remember the earth whose skin you are:
red earth, black earth, yellow earth, white earth
brown earth, we are earth.
Remember the plants, trees, animal life who all have their
tribes, their families, their histories, too. Talk to them,
listen to them. They are alive poems.
Remember the wind. Remember her voice. She knows the
origin of this universe.
Remember you are all people and all people are you.
Remember you are this universe and this universe is you.
Remember all is in motion, is growing, is you.
Remember language comes from this.
Remember the dance language is, that life is.
Remember.

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October 20, 2025

Sometimes we know where we are headed and can actively prepare for it. But more often than not we end up going somewhere we had no idea about, and we are being preparedwithout even noticing it.

Let’s get curious about how we are being prepared, not what we are being prepared for. Today we will get grounded and curious about what we have had to let go of, to heal, a new skill we have acquired or strengthened, etc. Our listening portion today is a beautiful one…

Above all,trust in the slow work of God.

We are quitenaturally impatient in everything to reach the end without delay.

We shouldlike to skip the intermediate stages.

We areimpatient of being on the way to something unknown, something new.

And yet itis the law of all progress

That is madeby passing through some stages of instability –

And that itmay take a very long time.

And so Ithink it is with you;

your ideasmature gradually- let them grow, let them shape themselves, without unduehaste.

Don’t try toforce them on,

as thoughyou could be today what time

(that is tosay, grace and circumstances acting on your own good will)

will make ofyou tomorrow.

Only Godcould say what this new spirit gradually forming within you will be.

Give our Godthe benefit of believing

that God’shand is leading you,

and acceptthe anxiety of feeling yourself

in suspenseand incomplete.

-PierreTeilhard de Chardin, SJ

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October 6, 2025

Angels don’t fly around light and easy. They have heavy wings that require strength and power to move and go where they are directed. In this episode I will share about a terrifying hike, and then we will look at where we have gone and where we may be being beckoned to go, and what is required of us to do so.

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August 25, 2025

We have been remodeling a house and it has been ripped apart and gutted. I have found that I have also felt gutted over the past few years. But what happens when we gothrough times that challenge our very being? What is that process? What do we do with it? And what is on the other side? This is what we will pause through on today’s episode.

Our listening portion is from Nan Merrill’s Mandalas and Meditations:  Simple Songs for the Spiritual Life

May we slow down

And learn once again

The wisdom of silence

The efficacy of simplicity

The renewal of solitude

That we might be co-partners with you

In healing and re-creating the Earth

July 28, 2025

We will have a dash on our tombstones - the time between birth and death. But what if we saw it as a plus? Where our life is about contribution?

Yet the only way to do this with real impact and integrity is following that vertical line - grounding in humanity, being awake in reality, with all of its beauty and challenges, and connecting to the divine so we can be reminded who we are.

Today we will experience a way to ground ourselves into humanity, into the earth, and connecting our soul to our creator.

July 28, 2025

"Note from Nature

Do not try to save

the whole word

or do anything grandiose.

instead, create

a clearing

in the dense forest

of your life

and wait there patiently,

until the song

that is your life

falls into your won cupped hands

and you recognize and greet it.

only then will you know

how to give yourself

to this world

so worthy of rescue.

"A Clearing" by Martha Poslewaite

Our dense forest is our illusions - of control, of perfection, of acceptance, of security. If we move in the world without seeing and clearing these things, we will only be able to walk around in our small forest, where we cannot see and is full of darkness. Yet if we clear these things away, the sunlight can come in and new life can happen. Then, we can hear when we are being beckoned to participate in positive ways in this world.

May 19, 2025

Gratitude works. It changes our body – our physiology. Itchanges our mind - our approach and attitude. It changes our heart – from onethat is closed to one that is open. It taps into our souls and transcendsnegativity, division, and isolation. Today we will slowly walk through eachstake of our tent, giving gratitude for all parts of ourselves and gratitudefor all parts of life itself.

One day in summer

When everything

Has already been more than enough

The wild beds start

Exploding open along the berm

Of the sea; day after day

You sit near them; day after day

The honey keeps on coming

In the red cups and the bees

Like amber drops roll

In the petals; there is no end,

Believe me! To the inventions of summer

To the happiness your body

Is willing to bear

The Roses, Mary Oliver

May 12, 2025

I am frustrated and fascinated by how my ego, my false self,is dealing with the major transitions I am facing right now in my life. I am continuingto learn, through a translation of the Psalms by Nan Merrill, through MichaelSinger, and many other spiritual and psychological teachers, that when the egois uncomfortable, it builds walls of illusion. The ego is driven strictly by fearof not being ok, not being in control, loved, or safe, so it builds stories ofhow it can be okay. We build a house of illusions, and, as Michael Singerstates, it’s a house of horrors.

Today we will hopefully experience a moment where our trueselves can be at peace and commune with God, with love. Then we will see whathappens as we allow a thought or fear to surface, and how we end up back in ourhouse of illusions once again. We will settle and let go so that we can takethis thought or fear back out of the house and into the open air.

For our listening portion today, I pulled together a few phrasesfrom various Psalms as translated by Nan Merrill in the book, Psalms forPraying,

“Distracted by greed and arrogance

we do not hear the Beloved’s Voice

whispering in the silence:

‘Awaken all of you living in darkness!

We are all One in Love Consciousness.

You live in my Heart even as I dwell in yours.’”– Psalm 2

“Now, I shall forgive all illusions that my ego tries tobuild.”

“Rise up, Love! Set me Free!”- Psalm 3The Michael Singer podcast I quote:  https://open.spotify.com/episode/0qqZhl8ALcFVdpxLDctIFP

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