Martha Adam was raped. For a week afterwards, she couldn’t even say the word. Couldn’t tell her parents what had happened to her.

But she did report the assault - and faced hours of courtroom questioning that both embellished and undermined her trauma.

In this wide-ranging conversation with Olly, Martha explains how these events restricted her lifestyle, affected her relationships, and made her question her own sanity. It’s what nobody tells you about rape.

Elsewhere, for this week's Zeitgeist, Ollie Peart heads to Rotterdam to investigate the burgeoning trend for pod hotels - and learns exactly how many records you need to sell to be a Christmas No.1.

Meanwhile, down the Foxhole, Alix Fox smells fondants in the bedroom (all a result of synesthesia, not gluttony), and advises a listener seeking out eco-friendly menstrual aids.

And our record of the week is ‘Swim’, the debut single from Ontario quartet, Dizzy - and it's out now.

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If you’ve been affected by the issues raised in today’s interview, Martha recommends the following organisations:

Rape Crisis offers online resources and has a network of centres where survivors can access support: https://rapecrisis.org.uk/

My Body Back Project run clinics giving access to sexual health services for survivors. http://www.mybodybackproject.com/

Presenter: Olly Mann. Producer: Matt Hill. Contributors: Ollie Peart, Alix Fox, Martha Adam, Dizzy. Theme Music: Django Django. Graphics: Jenny Mann Design. Copyright Rethink Audio / Olly Mann 2018 (edited)

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