It mattered when you chose abortion 
and it matters now. 

What you want will always matter.

Even when you don’t listen to it—
it matters.

There have been
and will be
times when what you want gets swept away in other people’s dreams
other people’s fears
other people’s beliefs
but that does not mean anything about you.

Be in a relationship with your own desire:
get to know her
play with her
dance with her
honor her.

Communicate with your wants 
as you would a child in your care. 

Listen.
Negotiate.
Collaborate.
And eventually see that she is her own energy.

You’ve been called here— 
not to manipulate and manage your desire
but to allow it
nurture it

and hold space for it to come to life.