In this episode of "Winter Ain't Dead," Winter Violet reads from one of her many old and unfinished notebooks. Down below are the things she read in this episode.
****** My Paper World - Podcast ******
What if we all just lived in a paper world? A world filled with purely our thoughts, emotions and imaginations? Will it ever be the same again? Or, will it crash and burn, and all we can do is sit and watch? What if we all lived in a paper world? Will it slowly get lost in the wind? Or, will it turn into something more? Something bigger? Something better? Or, will it spiral out of control?
****** Friends ******
You always waste my time. You always make plans and never follow through. You know what you're doing, but why are you doing this to me? I thought that we were friends. So, why do you set me up like this?
You've done this before. You've done this multiple times. It's as if you have me wrapped around your little fingers, and you know that I can't escape cause you're holding my secret, and you said you'll release it to the world, and I'll be in more pain, to begin with.
****** My Paper World ******
My outlook on the world.
My longer poems.
****** My Life ******
My world is just slowly falling apart. At this point, I've just learned to sit and watch cause there's nothing else to do.
I wish I could change it.
I wish I could change it all,
but I am not in control.
I'm not in control of my life anymore, and I haven't been in control for years.
My world... my life is already apart.
I can't eat,
I can't sleep,
and sometimes, I feel as if I can't breathe.
People don't get it.
People don't understand.
They say I have nothing to be depressed over,
but that's the thing.
Depression doesn't care.
They don't care if you have something to be depressed over.
People don't care cause they don't want their loved ones to have it.
****** Happier ******
Truly I am fine. No lies. No, "I will be fines."
I truly am fine
No deaths
No mess
No breakups
or intense makeups
The sun is shining; the birds are chirping. It feels as if there's no rainy days.
It feels as if all I can see is sun. The bright, shining sun
Nothing dull or grey stained
I truly am fine
I am happy. Yes, I said it. I am happy. Genuinely happy
I feel unstoppable and on top of the world.
I feel like me again. I never truly knew who "me" was until now.
I thought the sad and lonely girl was me.
The depressed and hopeless teen was me. But I was wrong.
I am happy and me again.
****** Tick Tock ******
Another day. Another day in my life. Another moment to suffer. Another painful breath to breathe. That's life, though. Isn't it? To live a painful life. To suffer with every breath. To suffer with everyone else.
To be...
To be...
To be someone who isn't someone.
Another day. Another day, minute, second. Another day to suffer. Another day to suffer in this world.
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