Comedian, Margaux Hamilton, has always had a dad that shows up to every game and swim meet. But when it comes to putting her first, its Margaux vs the girlfriend. And the girlfriend always wins. Margaux has gone through many stepmoms and every time she has struggled with not being a priority in her dads life. He's there physically but not mentally. Just recently Margaux had to step up to the plate when her dad had a heart attack and was in a coma. While battling if to pull the plug she also had to take on her dads girlfriend who wasn't making things any easier. Since then, Margaux has had to to step back from her relationship with her dad in order to stop dating guys like her dad. 

It's been about two months since we have spoken and now Bobby's back! Just in time for my birthday episode.  I will give a rundown of what happened when we finally spoke after our fight and what happened when we made up but before my dad logs on to record.  I think it's too soon and he isn't ready to talk about it on the podcast. But we will get there!  So instead, we try to pick up where we left off and test my dad to see what he would do if he was around for my birthday when I was a kid. His party ideas are surprisingly better than what my mom did. It's all fun and games until he gets into my birth story. Consider yourself warned. 

We continue the conversation with Emily and her dad's secret. Emily had to cut him off when she realized that her toxic relationships with men were a result of her relationship with her dad. Duh. That's normally the way. It's what brought her to this point in time, that is compelling.  I dunno which part of this episode is more interesting, that she was in a Christian cult or here dads reaction to the final conversation. 

Growing up in a heavy Christian household, Emily never expected to watch her dad, a Pastor, get arrested when she was 13. Emily's dad has a secret and she has finally decided to cut off all communication in order to have a healthier relationship with men and herself. Wanna know what he did? You'll have to listen to find out. Emily's story and who she has grown to be today is mind blowing. Did I mention she almost joined a Christian Cult? 

While I wait to talk to my dad, the show must go on. And now I'm talking to people with daddy issues of all different kinds. Hilarious comic and good pal Matt Lockwood talks about the effects of growing up with a dad who was physically there but not emotionally. He has lived through one of my biggest fears, stepparents breaking up your family and being forgotten about. Would you rather a parent who isn't there physically or emotionally? Either way, we both have the same insecurities.

My dad and I aren't speaking right now. So this one hurts. It's been three weeks since we last spoke and since I don't know when the next time will be, I am doing this episode alone to explain what happened and where we are at.  We got into a little argument, which I will explain on this episode, and now I am waiting for him to call me when he's ready to talk. Until then, I figured it's only fair, to share what happened since it's a part of our journey. But I sure do hate being this vulnerable. I'm not sure if this is a break or what will happen next but please stick with us as we figure out the ups and downs of building a relationship. 

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There's been a lot of things to confront my dad about lately. Like why doesn't he call me back? His aloof texts. If he's ever going to book a flight to visit me?! And his answers aren't exactly what I was looking for.

My boyfriend and I got into a fight over the holidays so I bring the issue to my dad to see if he has any fatherly input. Believe it or not, he really puts things into perspective and gives some sound advice. While highlighting my faults. Ouch. 

For the second year in a row my dad reads the 'The Night Before Christmas' which officially makes this our holiday tradition. However, the holiday spirit is almost lost when he tells me he didn't get me a Christmas present and I experience an embarrassing bout of food poisoning. Happy holidays! 

My dad has gone back to his old ways of texting me things that trigger my abandonment issues and it's time to bring it up. I hate this part. My hair is falling out because I had the delta variant and my dad doesn't make me feel better when he tells me he can see my bald spots. After this episode it feels the only progress we have made is apparently he has cut back on Nicorette now that he is breathing through his nose? We will see about that.