You don’t have to adapt to a life you don’t like simply because it’s what you’ve always done. Next year is going to happen whether you’re happy or not. Whether your living life on your terms or not. So why not go for it. Stop acting and start living the life you know deep down you’re meant to live. Most people have adapted to mediocrity because that’s the norm. But your not normal. You’re not average. Stop acting like you are.
You deserve to be happy and you deserve to live life on your terms. Society will tell you it’s selfish, but society will criticize you for everything so you may as well do what’s right for you and you’re the only one that knows what that means, not your mom, not your professor, not your friends, YOU.