Trigger Warning: There is discussion around suicide & suicidal thoughts, if you are currently struggling with thoughts or are triggered by this discussion in this episode - Please contact the following: Suicide Prevention UK Help & Support: 0800 587 0800 Samaritans - https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/: 116 123 ----more----A deep insight into Christian Music Artist, Imrhan, formerly Ash from the Lotto Boyzz, on Putting Up A Mask whilst in Lotto Boyzz, Feeling Depressed, Lonely & Suicidal whilst in Lotto Boyz, God Saving him from Taking His Life, Unlearning Toxic Masculinity in Marriage & more.----more----Imrhan really opened about things & matters he hasn't discussed before, I know it will bless others who feel they are on a similar path. ----more----

Chapters: 00:00: Opening 00:46: Introduction of Imrhan 01:34: Time in Childhood That Shows Who Imrhan Is Today 03:08: Some of the Key Things His Parents Instilled In Him 03:53: Where Does Imrhan First Practice Discipline. 05:10: What was the Youth Group Like (Where Lotto Boyzz Started) 06:50: What Imrhan wanted to be when He was Younger & What his Parents Said 07:58: Imrhan's Acting Journey at University 10:55: Imrhan leaving University. 12:00: Juggling Lotto Boyzz Whilst at University 13:29: Persona put on in Lotto Boyzz due to Acting Experience 15:52: When Does Lotto Ash Become Imrhan whilst in the Duo? 20:04: Why did Imrhan not go home? 21:58: Did He Ever Feel Like Leaving Lotto Boyzz Before He Did? 22:46: Subtle Highs & Lows of Being in Lotto Boyzz 23:46: Feeling Alone Whilst in Lotto Boyzz 25:02: How Imrhan went from The Highs to feeling Depressed, Panic Attacks & Suicidal Thoughts 27:22: How Imrhan's Life Turned Around After A Moment on a Bridge 33:34: Knowing God For Himself & Devoting Himself to God 37:15: Imrhan Thought Marriage Was Like Disney 39:40: Removing the 'Happy Ever After...' 41:14: What The Bible Says About Marriage 43:27: Advice to someone seeking the Fame 45:10: Final Question & Self Encouragement