Sometimes we just miss our addiction.  We know that the relationships we had and the behaviors we engaged in are unhealthy and they aren't serving us.  However, they did serve a purpose in our life.  They helped us escape and numb out from the chaos and unmanageability of our lives.  Sometimes as we go through withdrawal and start to feel rather than escape, we miss those old relationships and behaviors.  Prompted by a conversation with a friend in recovery, I wanted to share one of the things I did to get past a particularly difficult relationship.  

Homework:  Identify one thing you need to get past in your life.  Maybe it is a relationship and maybe it is a behavior.  Start thinking about the positive and negative aspects of the relationship.  Write a letter you'll never send to help you complete that emotional connection and move past it.

Continuing this series from Episode 078, Megan and I finish our discussion about our Help Wanted ads. Moving Megan across the country was a jumbled bag of emotions. It was so fun to spend that time with her, Scott and Bronx. It was so fun to be on the road and drive and see new places! It was so hard to leave her there and fly home alone. In this continuation of our interview, we discuss what makes our relationship work including, our likes and dislikes, our confidence in meeting our own needs, and in our relationship skills.

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I just celebrated by 41st birthday!! During the day, three seemingly small things added up to an amazing day! As I was reflecting on these things, I wanted to share them with you. I hope you can build the hope that I did from these events. It is definitely the small things in recovery that give us the greatest results!!

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Continuing our discussion on being ALL IN, I share with you my big three distrator behaviors! These are behaviors that prevent me (and probably you) from being ALL IN in our recovery journeys. These behaviors sneak into our lives, they aren't always exactly apparent. They are hard to see and sometimes the behavior itself prevents us from getting the true reflection of what we are doing. If we aren't making the progress we want in recovery - if we aren't getting the traction we need - we have some distractor behaviors going on in our lives! Let's figure it out!

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In this episode I share with you a recent revelation I have had about my life. I'm holding back. I'm not ALL IN! Of course, this isn't the case in all areas of my life - but it is in some significant places. This recent realization drove me to consider the areas of my life where I am ALL IN. One of those areas is my recovery. I am ALL IN with my recovery! Are you? Are the 1 in 18 that will stay long term in recovery?

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With all the recent media coverage on rape and rape culture, Amy explores the idea of consent with CSAT therapist Jackie Pack.  Jackie will be speaking and sharing her expertise at "Engaged In The Struggle," the upcoming Worth Recovery event in January.  Listen to this great interview about what consent really means and how we get it all wrong.  

As we continue to get healthier and upgrade our lives in recovery, it is essential that we upgrade our relationships along with it.  Otherwise, we get stuck.  While Amy helped moved her friend across the country, they discussed their relationship and what makes it work.  Listen to them discuss the help wanted ads they are going to place!

In this preview episode, Amy interviews Lu Duke, one of the presenters at the upcoming Worth Recovery Event: Engaged in the Struggle.  Lu is not only a CSAT therapist, but a Daring Way Facilitator - Consultant, trained in the work of Brene Brown.  In this episode she discusses core and aspirational values and how they play a role in our recovery. 

To celebrate her 4 year sobriety anniversary, Amy shares her own Spiritual Awakening. Knowing that addiction is an "illness that only a spiritual experience will conquer", Amy shares some of the major spiritual experiences that have contributed to her spiritual awakening.

1. You have the sense that something is different.