xaalice episodes:

• March 28, 2022sick, sad, & sore (shinju + charge)

  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZNHRGiaWNo

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/sick-sad--sore

  (prod. @sshinju + @chargebeats)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself, and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  hey girl i do not know where ur coming from

  only thing i asked for was a fucking hug

  fuk this shit im done ive had enough can i just take some drugs ?

  same shit different day im so damn sick of fuking feeling stuck :/

  i dont know where u think u is going bitch you can take the bus

  i dont wanna be the one you rely on..

  feel my life standing still like a tripod

  uuhhh

  see me in the back off some mollyyy

  still nothing to do other than looking at u

  yeah i dont know what to say so im sorryyy

  i jus want the truth

  bby jus give me the truth

  yeah

  my heart it got attached

  than u made me feel like trash

  never been so fuked up

  cant even tell where im at

  no i cant do this no more

  i feel so sick, sad, & sore

  uuuhhhhh

  i-i-i dont rly feel like doing anything not anymore :(

  i said fuk it packed up all my shit walked out the door..

  saw u in the club with him doing drugs on the dance floor

  it feels like someone stabbed my heart cuz my chest feels so damn sore

  ate so many shrooms i broke free from the simulation

  evryday ending my life is my contemplation

  i dont know who he is at all but i fuking hate him

  i fuking hate him

  bitch i fuking hate when u try to talk to me, yeah

  y the fuck did u have to mislead me, yuh

  i b feeling so incomplete.. :(

  fuk u treating ur luv like a dog treat yeah

  the second that i wake up i wish i could fall asleep, uh

  i aint going to accept no fucking fake apology, yeah

  bby u kno me

  ima real og, yuh

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• March 05, 2022is there no way out!? (odece + shinju)

  https://youtu.be/EVNJxSWhVvo

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/is-there-no-way-out

  (prod. @odece x @sshinju)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself, and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  wut else is darkness? but hate and rage

  im asking you, as a friend

  just put an end to me...

  pop 3 xans i cant see you now

  walk behind me i can feel you now

  wanna bring you shopping at hot topic

  the come up always got me feeling nauseous

  3 tabs you a shining star so bright

  club lights too bright i might lose my sight

  alcohol poison it so toxic

  i cant find my mind i think i lost it

  saw you you were sipping on a truly

  everything was fake when i thought that you knew me

  yuh

  always treat me like shit why you do that to me

  its hard to admit it i cant stand ur beauty

  led me on why you have to use me? :(

  wuz there any reason that you happened to choose me?

  i dont wanna be here.

  i dont wanna do this.

  wake up on a bright day

  but im feeling gloomy :(

  where you going?

  im keeping you here tonight.

  its too damn cold outside

  uh

  cuz it snowing

  kush pack blowing

  i dont sip wok i sip robitussin

  shawty like an angel with the way that she glowing

  luv so cold that it got my heart frozen

  uh

  moonlight

  rather see the sunshine

  goodnight

  last time saying goodbye

  dont cry

  bby ur the spotlight

  tonight

  lets all have a good time

  dont wanna have to be the one to have to ask you to leave

  but bbygirl u were the one who ruined my fantasy

  everyday i wake up wonder if it all make believe

  rly fucking hate this girl she luvs torturing me

  luvs torturing me

  luvs torturing me

  luvs luvs luvs torturing me

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• February 17, 2022reach 4 the st@rs! (Buhguul)

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/reach-4-the-strs

  (prod. Buhguul)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself, and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  bbygirl why u running away?

  feel so sad i got nothing to say

  now ur far gone way to ruin my day

  trapped in this game that i cant escape

  bbygirl why u running away?

  feel sad i got nothing to say

  u be down bad two faced ruin my day

  u cant fuck up like i do

  u cant fuck up just like me

  yeah i will lay beside you

  but will you lay beside me?

  wish i could re@ch 4 the stars!

  i hate this life kill myself and restart

  just wanna talk to her cause i miss her so much

  but i do not know what im supposed to do

  yeah im wasting my time again yeah

  im wasting my time again yeah

  im wasting my time again yeah tonight uh

  yeah im wasting my time again yeah

  im wasting my time again yeah

  im wasting my time again yeah tonight uh

  making bad choices i dont notice it

  u tell me that you love me but you full of shit

  popped an addy so much going on i cant focus

  shes a monster she tore my heart open

  shes taking control of me

  shes got a real tight hold of me

  but yet i still feel oh so lonely

  surrounded by rich fake fucks who are all phonies

  bbygirl why u running away?

  feel so sad i got nothing to say

  now ur far gone way to ruin my day

  trapped in this game that i can't escape

  bbygirl why you running away?

  feel sad i got nothing to say

  u be down bad two faced ruin my day

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• January 21, 2022nuisance.

  https://youtu.be/OiF8zUrxKPw

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/nuisance

  (prod. ermashov)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself, and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  yuh, yuh

  yung xaal on the track yeah les go

  yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh

  huh what the fuck you listening to

  yuh

  all these fucking dirty hoes always asking if i wanna fuck

  rather sit at home and eat some shrooms then roll myself a blunt

  bullets flying through the window they cant hit you if you duck

  i got me an emo bitch coke ain't the only thing she cut

  i wont pass you the blunt if you cant act like you been high before

  i can clearly see you ain't no stoner what you lying for

  one puff give your ass anxiety like what you crying for

  i ain't talking Minecraft but i still got me some diamond ore

  i cant grow old

  that shit it wont be good for my sanity

  imma punk

  set some shit on fire cause some anarchy

  i wish that i could blow up the world cause fuck humanity

  6 feet down thats the only place i plan to be

  stupid groupie bitches following me around i'm getting pissed off

  i had to go to my crib just to lock em out

  if you tryna start some shit i'll make sure you get pistol whipped

  had to hit your dumb ass bitch before i knocked you out

  aaaaahhhhh imma nuisance

  i think i ate too many shrooms i feel like i mite lose it

  surrounded by some angels and my body be translucent

  pop another perc my brother tells me i abuse it

  yuh yuh yuh yuh

  why am i so upset

  yuh yuh yuh yuh

  hang myself from the neck

  all these fucking dirty hoes always asking if i wanna fuck

  rather sit at home and eat some shrooms then roll myself a blunt

  bullets flying through the window they cant hit you if you duck

  i got me an Emo bitch coke ain't the only thing she cut

  x2

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• October 08, 2021u ruined me☹️... (michael warren)

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/u-ruined-me-2

  (prod. @prodmichael)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  cannot keep her out my fucking dreams every single night

  i tried taking every pill but i didn't die

  i lied to myself saying that i was over her

  now i'm looking at her pic's to feel close to her

  no matter how hard i try i wont be enough

  when i see her my heart beating fast my face heating up

  is this a waste of my time sitting on the sidelines

  i just wanna be your's

  girl be mine

  doing this

  doing this

  i don't feel like doing this

  wake up every morning just to feel like fucking shit

  i cant find the point of this

  makes me just hate everything

  wish i had a single friend

  don't wanna wake up again

  teardrops falling in the wind

  why the fuck you even ask when you can clearly see i'm not okay

  every single day wanna fucking blow my brains

  i can never see you when i want to baby thats a shame

  time to throw myself right in front of a moving subway train

  when the fuck will this pain stop

  imma jump right off this building and fall like a raindrop

  i be posted up selling drugs right outside GameStop

  contemplating if i should kill myself

  im not good for anything else

  cannot keep her out my fucking dreams every single night

  i tried taking every pill but didn't die

  i lied to myself saying that I was over her

  now i'm looking at her pic's just to feel close to her

  no matter how hard i try i wont be enough

  when i see her my heart beating fast my face heating up

  is this a waste of my time sitting on the sidelines

  i just wanna be your's, girl be mine

  girl be mine

  girl be mine

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• May 11, 2021this world dont need me :/ (deadat18)

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/this-world-dont-need-me-

  (prod. @deadat18)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  uh-uh-uh no i dont know who u are-are-are

  y u leave me in the dark

  yeah u broke my heart-heart-heart-heart

  pain is the name of the game

  feel like shit evryday :(

  wen i see u cant find shit to say

  makes me want to fly away-ay-ay-ay-ay

  how u expect me not to worry about u

  rly want u jus cant have u

  i jus want u to want me 2

  wanna take u to a movie u say u dont like that

  i jus wanna take u out i jus wanna make u smile

  wut u gonna say now?

  its the old me ill carry u throughout this battleground

  she say that she see through me

  wonder what she can see that i cant see

  emptiness filling inside me

  im pathetic this world dont even need me-me-me me-me-me

  me-me-me me dont even need me-me-me me-me-me-me-me

  me dont even need me-me me-me-me-me dont dont-dont even need

  dont dont dont dont-dont even need dont dont-dont dont even need me :/

  cant find clarity even when its in front of me

  need u here with me fighting demons in my sleep

  yuh

  off the shrooms no pills i dont need anything that will hurt me

  still suffering

  but evrything that u do seems to help me

  wanna have her pull up jus to have her come kiss me

  do u-do u do-u do u even miss me?

  uh, idgaf

  see me in the club lighting up this big blunt

  uh, yuh

  makin big cash

  gotta big bag

  and u know that my bitch bad

  yuh, idc

  plz jus get me out this fucking nightmare

  yuh, yuh, uh yuh, uh, uh, uh yeah

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• October 03, 2020i fee l weird.♡ (abelskittles)

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/i-fee-l-weird

  (prod. @abelskittles)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  i am way 2 scared to evr leave my room

  takin very high doses of potent shrooms

  watching things melt away

  like every single day

  ill never be the same

  disrupting me when im just tryna get some quiet

  i just wanna be alone to enjoy the silence

  but i cant feel shit like i used to

  jus to let you know i never used u

  need to figure shit out like in blues clues

  yeah i dont wanna be here anymore

  get me out this fukin mental hell

  feel stuck like a turtle in its shell

  no matter where im at im in a prison cell

  x2

  evrybody think that im okay

  well im not no im not

  my head on loop stuck with my thoughts

  jus wanna be with her but dont have a shot :(

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• April 20, 2020panik (perish)

  https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xaalice/panik

  (prod. perish)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself and i)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  evrytime that u walk by i jus have a panik attack

  dont know y im still tryin to win her back

  yeah tonight feel so bad imma drop 3 tabs

  laugh it off much better but next day still feel trapped :/

  x2

  yuh

  makin me feel useless

  2 much that im thinkin bout feel like im boutta lose it

  i dont wanna do this

  benzos in my pockets they xanax and i abuse it

  kill myself imma perish

  i aint fucking with marriage

  but dont leave me abandoned

  drugs got me off this planet

  and i dont understand it

  fuk i am boutta panic

  woah

  taking it slow

  i feel so cold

  pull me in close

  floating alone

  like imma ghost

  but i dont know

  where to go

  evrytime that u walk by i jus have a panik attack

  dont know y im still tryin to win her back

  yeah tonight feel so bad imma drop 3 tabs

  laugh it off much better but next day still feel trapped :/

  x2

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• March 30, 2020kill U like TED BUNDY (KZBSMIKO)

  https://www.gate.fm/0vhbpiH

  (PROD. @nejiro-tenshi)

  (WRITTEN, RECORDED, MIXED BY ME, MYSELF, AND I)

  ↓ lyrics ↓

  xaalice popped a xanny than i gave one to a bitch

  and now she taking off her pantie that bitch she really wanna fuk

  i jus wanna leave this planet cuz i always feel like shit

  yeah think i am about to panic roll a wood imma spark it up

  i jus wanna die..

  and rip my guts out

  reloaded the shotgun time to put it on my tongue now

  im way 2 impatient u at gunpoint during rush hour

  she a little hoe when i see her she stick her butt out

  jus hit me a lick now i sit back while i smoke on the pack

  popped 2 many xans now i think my body is bout to collapse

  feel like Escobar with the way that i be counting my cash

  ridin in nascar u kno xaalice never come in last

  well im feeling quite amazing dropped three tabs of lsd

  government, laws, feds, they is all suppressing me

  feel like im in GTA i gotta get rid of this heat

  imma throw u to the curb and stomp ur head in with some cleats

  i jus wanna die..

  and rip my guts out

  reloaded the shotgun time to put it on my tongue now

  im way 2 impatient u at gunpoint during rush hour

  she a little hoe when i see her she stick her butt out

  (end)

  ...more

  

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• December 06, 2019stay away (dead spyro + remghost)

  https://www.gate.fm/ghGxiMzYk

  (prod. @deadspyro x @remghost)

  (written, recorded, mixed by me, myself and i)

  ...more

  

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