This live was cut short due to a phone call that I received at the end of it that I needed to take. I continued this live in the next episode.

When you finally get to the point of just going after what you want to do. After months of overthinking, over analyzing, second-guessing yourself, etc etc about making the decision on doing something, and you finally just say fuck it I'm doing this!

This is not what you think it is. This is more rambling, and technically I'm stalling in talking about this subject. I do get to the meat and potatoes eventually lol

It's your time.

The only person who is holding you back from what you want is you.

Live life one day at a time.

I am so excited and happy to have finally figured out what is my why!

It was a really rough day, I did a live tonight that was very hard to do and got pretty emotional through it.

BUT I got through by doing one simple little thing!!!

Reaching out to the pack and having her help me fight this battle that I was losing by myself.

Spoiler alert: WE WON! FUCK those demons and FUCK therapy Thursdays! (said sarcastically)

Also please understand why I did this episode, it was for you to understand that you are not alone. Yes, I'm going through it right now. But more than anything I want you to know that just reaching out in times like this really can help save your life. I am good by the way, bouncing back and not letting this stop me. this breakdown turned into a BREAKTHROUGH!!

Thank you to all the pack members that reached out and checked on me, it really does mean a lot and I truly appreciate you all.

Sometimes it comes out of nowhere, and its exactly what you need when you need to hear it the most

Different topics while I was driving yesterday.

No rhyme or reason to this one, just what ever came to my mind and came out my mouth.

Apologize for not getting this one out yesterday. I had alot going on. thanks for understanding

Remember "The 5-S's"

Start simple. Start Slow.

Don't beat yourself up for not being able to do something great when you first start something new. "Of course, you don't know how to do it because you never did it before!" From Eric Thomas.

It doesn't matter that you arent good at it, it only matters that you start!

Practice makes Perfect.