Ok, here I go with my oversized headphones for my little top knot head.

If you haven't tuned in before, welcome.

All episodes to date were deep, raw, and heartfelt.

Typical Tash really.

The thing is though, when I started I was disguising to myself and the world that I was suffering deeply in an domestic violent relationship with a narcissist.

AKA: NARCombie the word I created to explain this pandemic of soulless creatures roaming Earth disguised as humans.

The episode from Dec 2019 to my last recording 6 months ago we're my transition out on the other side dealing with the aftermath and all that came in addition to it.

I started the podcast as Tash Talks.

And boy, did she.

I didn't know when I came up with the name the depth of what it meant.

It served me for a time.

I am no longer that woman though.

So, it seemed only fitting to turn that into the season of hell, lessons and recovery it was and start afresh with a new season for 2021.

God Made Me Do it, is my day to day life adventure series.

I am the real-life storytelling healer and much of what I have shared and the original concept of Tash Talks will still remain, it's just delivered from an upgraded version of self.

Tash Talks was a place where I heart rambled on all things love, life, spirituality, and relationships.

It's raw, it's real, it's playful and sexy.

Sometimes it's confronting and a little bit naughty - it's life.

It's still all that, it's still Tash talking.

It's now also Tash sharing how I surrendered my life to the Divine | God, and how it led me to soul, to live a soul led life and soul-driven business.

Daily I say "God made me do it" because that's the truth.

From this world, on the other side of all the crap, all the internal and external demon-slaying, life is a daily foundation of choosing LOVE over fear.

It's faith.

And, it's simply DIVINE a

If you listen to some old episodes, I pre-warn that some are very sensitive and triggering as I speak of levels of the abuse I experienced.

I've chosen to no longer speak about that on my podcast, but there will be a book coming and I will be sharing more content on domestic violence and narcissism on my page Natasha Divine so stay tuned and follow there for that kind of info which will begin rolling out over the next month. I will speak of NARCombies from time to time, but not from my own personal pain.

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One month ago I awoke lost, fearful and even through I knew it wouldn't last, I had tuned into a different station and couldn't hear or see my new found spiritual and galactic friends and connection.

On top of all that, I couldn't see my future anymore!

I panicked, I got scared, it was dark, I pushed through it and then I cried. I had my first new breath of fresh air.

The immersive journey RE BIRTH was birthed.

My full purpose that my soul knew, my head had been told, my heart had felt for 6 months was birthed, but it took this complete shedding and crowning for my crown to actually be unblocked and the channel to a brand new station be felt and activated.

Now, I am back, re building from a new and magical foundation of love, light and faith fulled by my awareness and experience of dancing in the dark with shadows.

I've transmuted the depth of pain in the deepest darkness of night into my positive light source and power.

This is unlocked my passion and ability to embody my purpose.

I emerged as a Warrior Goddess.

I am here the God of Surrender here to activate and guide emerging and existing leaders ready to burn it all down and surrender in order to up level.

This is my greatest comeback, this is a new level of self unseen.

In today's episode, I go 100 miles per hour trying to update ya'll on all the mind BLOWING things that have been happening in Tash Land since the last episode!

This was a huge kick in the ass, as to why I am now committing to being back recording regularly, so you can be kept up to speed in more real-time. Cause I am warning you, the stuff that's going down is NEXT LEVEL and may be a lot to take in all at once hehe

If you haven't listened to my Podcast before be sure to go back a select one that speaks to you, as each episode tells a story on from the previous one. You can subscribe via your favourite music or podcast app to receive notifications.

Oh and hey, if you love what you hear or are inspired by something be sure to leave me a review on Itunes. #pleaseandthankyou #loveYOU #lovenotes

If you want up to date info on all things Mamma Divine, be sure to follow me or add me as a friend on Facebook as my wall in my home, it is my daily playground.

So come on over and let's get freqy baby!

Over there and here on my Podcast really is the place where we really get down and dirty with all things, Love, Life, Spirituality, and Relationships.

Are you ready to come play with me?

This is for me, it's not about him.

This is for YOU, anyone who needs to finally let go of any past hurt and or abuse.

Our power is in our pain, our power is in our choice to choose LOVE over fear.

Our power is in using our voice and standing up for what is right and what is wrong.

You deserve to feel safe, to be heard, to be treated with kindness and respected.

I highly recommend if you have some buried pain, write a letter to them, not to send to them, not for them, for YOU, because in order to heal, we need to get real so we can feel.

Forgiveness is one of the hardest things to do but forgiveness and speaking the truth is what will set you FREE.

I tried to speak open, loud and true to prevent the same thing from happening to you.

I tried to educate what would be your impending fate if you didn't tune into the knowing within that whispered for you to run, that told you my words were true, so raw, so deep.

Now here you are discarded, used, abused, your head spinning, dazed and confused, you're left in a heap.

You are now just another one of those "crazies" who did something wrong as he lays there on Tinder that very same day crying his sob story to anyone who will listen with his self-created crocodile tears all night long.

I hope it didn't become worse for you, as he had gotten with me, progressively worse than the beautiful souls before me.

I truly hope you awoke and escaped before the true entrapment set in. Before he could suck the love and light right out of the depths of your soul like he has done with us all.

There are many of us.

You're not alone.

If you're feeling to blame, any shame, please reach out, I know your name.

I await for you with loving arms.

I'll nurture you back to self, you'll rise and roar stronger and brighter than ever before.

I'll help you see again, now with a clear lense.

I wanted to reach you right from the beginning, just as those before me wanted to do for me, but all afraid that it was too late, already in his web of lies and manipulation, unable to think and see straight, he would turn it around, that we are they crazy ones.

So I showed up everyday, even when I had nothing left to give. When speaking the truth put a focus on me, when I wanted to hide from the world and bury my pain, when I was too tired to fight, to stand up for myself let alone others for another day.

I created this digital footprint, a trail of breadcrumbs for you to find when on your own you became to awaken and see.

His mask falls off, this is when I began to look but there was no traces before me.

So I lay it all out bare, day in day out for all to see, in hope that I am not too late.

I hope his anger and rage doesn't seal your fate.

I pray for you and can only hope this reaches you soon or just in time at the very least.

From one beautiful heart and soul to another with an army of others before me. We are survivors turned warriors powered by the dark to shine and guide others to the light , together we await.

Yours sincerely, the one who escaped, stood up against him, rose and now roars for us all <3

I have been holding onto a piece of information about my piece of shit ex abusing narcissist for a few weeks now.

It actually guttered me to the floor. Just when I thought his actions and behaviours couldn't shock me more, there it was.

I knew he was already on Tinder the day I left him and he assaulted me as a result, seeking new supply, but this was next level. I think it was also the fact that, there he was prancing around like King dick in the home I had been paying for that he should've left as he was SUPPOSED to have been arrested and a intervention order put in place that day, but due to the police messing up, it was I who left, which left him there to commit disgraceful acts.

In this particular story I share, he was denied by her, however, it was a week before he was arrested and charged, therefore, he may have found some other poor sucker to play into his ill and disgusting hands.

I have a lot more to share on this particular scenario, what it showcases as a human, a narcissist, sexual and emotional abuse. I think this may be the start of a series. A series of empowerment and awareness. Stay tuned.

I am BACK in a whole new light!

i have risen, I am roaring and I am speaking unfiltered like never before.

After a 4 week lost soul, fighter survivor, WTF is my life, I am transforming into a hermit hiatus, she is finally back on the mic! And by she, I mean me, not sure why I am speaking in the third person. It kinda makes me seem cooler yeah?

Today's episode is a bit of what's been happening in dribs and drabs kind of thing. Healing, the realities of it, the truth behind it and the importance of it being the main focus.

As you guys hear me say like I am some kind of broken record:

"you gotta get real, to feel in order to heal" and I am now adding as of this episode: "if we do not heal our wounds, as we lay more on top of them with temporarily feel good fixes, we add toxicity to the wounds, which is pure poison, on an open wound! DUDE, what do we think is going to happen here??"

The moral of my consistent story is, we need to get down and dirty, heal properly so our wounds can scar over and become our POWER!

There is one teeny sound glitch which you probably wouldn't have noticed had I not pointed it out, due to the fact I ever so not skillfully had to edit out his name as it slipped.

Can't have his name exposed until proven guilty by the court of law. I don't play games, I just play fair. Sometimes I am human and I mess up. I happily own my mistakes and endeavor to always be improving on them.

This is my story, my truth, The truth as it unfolds.

Thank you to all for following along and supporting my journey.

To all experiencing Domestic Violence and the wrath of a narcissist | psychopath, I send you so much love, light and passionate soul fire.

You're not alone, and TOGETHER we RISE and MF ROAR.

Please reach out if you require further support.

#TangentTash