Musings from my porch in Chicago that ask: am I good at hosting happiness? Am I the right shape to hold onto the life that I want? What noise do I make when I get knocked around?

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Jazz of the episode:

Why, Buzzardman, Why? x Alabaster Plume

The Jordan River Song x Emahoy Tsege Mariam Gebru

Lena’s Song x The Sweet Enoughs

You Go To My Head x Billie Holiday

Exit x Sebastian Mikael

Still thinking of Jordan Neely.

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