it’s almost porch stoop sidewalk season again. i remember sometimes i would walk down the sidewalk in isla vista and run into someone i know and stop to talk for 15 minutes and then you cross the street and run into someone else and you talk and that happens over and over again on the nice days. you could never really get to where you’re going. and i loved it. there are some spots around davis that also feel like that. and now that i know more people here i look forward to never getting to where i’m going. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Jeffrey Lewis & The Voltage “Except For The Fact That It Isn’t” Bad Wiring 03:00 Emily Beanblossom “Long Descent” Various / Found / Recorded 05:15 Lake Ruth “Extended Leave” Extended Leave / Strange Interiors 08:49 New Balance “Red Apples” Red Apples / Gift Shop (Duo Version) 12:23 Echo People “Melancholy and Cinnamon” E.P. III 14:57 Spielbergs “This Is Not The End” Running All The Way Home EP 17:53 Wished Bone “Trees We Couldn’t Tell The Size Of” Sap Season 21:17 Babe Corner “Alone At The Party” Alone At The Party 25:32 Katie Mullins “What’s The Sense” Three Songs 27:10 Carinae “Blue House” Carinae 31:57 Sammi Lanzetta “Toothbrush Song” Ceiling Mirror 34:05 Failed Flowers “Faces” Faces 36:17 Rata Negra “Problemas, No” La Hija Del Sepulturero E.P. 39:18 WHOOP-Szo “Gerry” Warrior Down 43:41 Sea Moss “Mammals in Paradise” Bidet Dreaming 46:05 Tyson Bellew “Note To Self” Inaccessible Island 47:29 Ahem “Canopy” Try Again 50:08 Jupie “Brine” Deep in the Seat 51:30 bedside drama “in all honestly tho” nothing is permanent if everything is situational 53:26 Itasca “Voice of the Beloved” Spring

your stories are a gift. your time is a gift. your attention is a gift. and when you share generously with others it can feel like you’re making a connection. but over time, if there isn’t reciprocity, it can start to feel bad and you realize how one sided it’s been. i don’t think that every action requires a response in kind, and we don’t give gifts expecting a return, but when you receive very little it’s hard to keep trying. i’m thinking about where i want to put my energy. and i’m not yet sure how to make that decision, but my energy is limited. and although i feel pulled strongly towards new connections and excited about exploring possibilities, i also want to be better at celebrating my existing connections. particularly the ones that make the effort. and in the same way that i don’t expect every connection i investigate to be mutual, i shouldn’t respond just to respond. i could simply prioritize the ones that i know already feel good and save some energy to continue exploring others. i’m writing this here, and i’m going to try, but damn that allure of potential. perhaps it’s not so simple. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 LOS JAMBOS “Chico formal” Chicos formales 02:12 The Hecks “Flash” My Star 07:00 Options “Easy Try” Pacific Notion II 08:53 ILL “Bus Shelter” We Are ILL 13:34 Simon Joyner “Yellow Jacket” Pocket Moon 17:22 Shana Falana “Who We Are” Darkest Light 20:42 Dogbreth “Took My Time” Ever Loving 23:40 MOURN “Via” Mixtape 28:03 Ex-Void “Only One” Only One 30:37 HOT SHORTS “Don’t Stop Me If You’ve Heard This One Before” I Understand And I Wish To Continue 33:12 The reds, pinks and purples “Anxiety art” Anxiety art 35:21 San Cha “Soy Tuya” La Luz de la Esperanza 40:44 Banana “Tiny Bones” Post-Grunge Revival 44:15 Public Practice “Extra-Ordinary” Disposable & Extra-Ordinary 47:52 Water From Your Eyes “Adeleine” Somebody Else’s Song 52:05 Amaringo “Sacred” I Woke Up This Morning After a Dream 56:46 coastal car “world” are you scared to get happy? 59:34 Snail Polish “best you” im worth somthing 62:54 Allumette “Somnifuge” Soleil du Gouffre 65:56 Cop Circles “Big Business Monkey” Vacation for Hurt 69:33 J Camden “Hold Your Breath” The View from Inside the Sun 72:13 The Gonks “I’m A Leaker” Five Things You Didn’t Know About The Gonks 73:35 Charly Bliss “Supermoon” Supermoon 76:39 Telecult “Two Kinds of Escape” Phases 78:58 Panoramic “Bug Bites” Spiders // Bug Bites 82:27 Mallard “Wubalubadubdub” Believing in Ghosts

i’ve been thinking a lot about storytelling. i feel like i’ve been telling stories in one form or another forever. i mean, we all do. we play make-believe as kids but i do the exact same thing now. maybe we just call it “banter” or something instead. but we riff off each other and create worlds and fantasy. i think that’s so fun, and when you find someone you immediately banter with well, it’s just such a cool connection. or we run through scenarios in our heads but we call it “anxiety” and typically keep these stories to ourselves. so many things to share about storytelling but one thing i think is so interesting is that i think my interest in telling stories has been strengthened and nurtured in therapy. when you talk to your therapist you are telling them your story. and if you’re doing it like me, every small story comes with additional context and tangents and reflection and that’s even before i give them a chance to respond. and then further reflecting on particular moments and themes allows me to connect them to other moments and themes and all of a sudden you find yourself trapped in this spider web of a life story. actually, no - i’m the spider, and i’m not trapped at all. i bounce around carefully from thread to thread, weaving new lines, rewriting old memories, eating flies. and then every time you transition to a new therapist it’s a chance to tell your entire story over again. and you’re so excited about that part of it. maybe too earnest. you weave more bits and pieces of story together and each time you think you have a better understanding of who and why you are. sometimes i’m concerned that i’m overconfident in the work that i’ve done and my ability to communicate it. i’m wondering about the performance of it all. is the story i tell about me actually me right now or a me i aspire to? can it be both? believing that someday i could write a memoir seems laughable but i want to. would you read it? it’ll be so embarrassing but it feels necessary to share it all. i’m just a few weeks into a break from formal therapy right now, but i’m still storytelling. recently it’s been with friends. in the actual real friend world. which i’m enjoying. and opening up in these spaces feels like it means something totally different than it had in therapy. i’m grateful to therapy for helping me explore my own stories but right now i’m more excited about connections and mashups and crossover episodes with friends. excited about friend stories colliding with my own and for the impact to be meaningful for them and for me. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Barry “Posh Club” Barry 02:52 Hectorine “Motel Song” Hectorine 07:21 Screaming Females “Zoo Of Death” Singles Too 10:51 Amy O “Blueberries” Shell 13:35 Empath “Drunken Angel” Drunken Angel / The Other Side 16:25 Anna Meredith “Killjoy” FIBS 20:07 Brave Radar “Face The Light” Brave Radar in… It’s Honey’s World 21:19 Warp “Abracadabra” Traffic Control 23:45 Great Grandpa “English Garden” Four of Arrows 26:22 Black Marble “Shoulder” Bigger Than Life 30:31 Brazilian Wax “Unicorn” Still Rippin’ 33:46 Dress Forms “places” we don’t dig guitars 35:27 Dry Cleaning “Sit Down Meal” Boundary Road Snacks and Drinks EP 39:06 Olivia’s World “SuperValu” Olivia’s World 42:06 Mikal Cronin “Apathy” Mikal Cronin 44:43 tombo crush “gaze aversion” text me when you get home 45:52 Noera “FMLA” Pearls 48:51 Walrus “Cool to Who” Cool to Who 53:08 hanu vu “Order” Nicole Kidman / Anne Hathaway 55:43 TOPS “Echo of Dawn” Echo of Dawn / Seven Minutes 57:53 yipee! “The Mall of America, MN” The Cheese Store, MO/The Mall of America, MN 59:52 Eyelash “Eating Art” Demo 62:10 Macho Blush “Healing Artist” User Guide 64:55 Mikayla McVey “roommates” Desert Companion 67:48 Vagabon “Water Me Down” Vagabon

i haven’t been making it to shows so much recently. i regularly check the listings and add the ones i’m interested in to my calendar and then inevitably remove them. part of the reason has been the cold and rain, the distance to sac, but i think a lot of it is that i’m having a nice time just hanging out with friends. back in santa barbara the friend group was always pretty centered around music, among other activities obv, but shows were paramount. you knew you could show up and everyone would be there. it was the place to be. the group i’ve landed in in davis has not been focused on shows, though we do play music together and there’s always music playing on a speaker somewhere, it’s just different. and while they’ll check out a show with me once in a while, i’ve been going to most shows by myself. i was doing it for three years when i wasn’t living with friends, but now that i’m living with people i like, it’s even harder to leave the house, or leave the group, to do something else. but in any relationship - friend, romantic, otherwise - it feels so important to not stop doing the things you love doing just because you found some new things you like to do. obvious statement of the week but i’m going to keep saying it to myself. hunkering down with the group was essential to my survival through that atmospheric river. but shows are going to be essential to my thriving through the atmospheric river of life, of whatever, lol. and i know that i’ll never be able to be in two places at once, and that friends will hang out without me and i’ll miss out on some things sometimes. it’s so easy to get lost in what i’m missing out on that i don’t get to fully experiencing the thing that i’m doing. a thing that i love doing - a major through-line for me - going to shows. working on releases myself from that fomo mentality!. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Nervous Twitch “Should’ve Come By” Get Back In Line 02:26 Surface to Air Missive “Phases” Surface II Air Missive 05:44 WOLF GIRL “Middlesexy” We Tried 08:38 Program “Program” Show Me 11:41 No Vacation “Out of Place” Phasing 14:59 Docks “Roses” Terracotta Ladder 18:16 Corridor “Junior” Junior 21:13 Black Pus “LAND OF THE LOST” ALL ABOARD THE MAGIC PUS 24:26 Basement Revolver “Romantic At Heart” Wax and Digital EP 27:22 Hovvdy “Cathedral” Heavy Lifter 30:27 Beret “How Many People” Jesus White 33:01 Blacker Face “I Know More Things Than You Do” Distinctive Juju 27:53 Guerilla Toss “Moth Like Me” What Would The Odd Do? 40:55 Foxes in Fiction “Antibody” Trillium Killer 44:11 HXXS “Year Of The Knife” Year Of The Witch 46:37 Emma Russack & Lachlan Denton “Love For Myself” Take The Reigns 49:01 The Kiwi Animal “Flesh And Time” Mercy 51:00 Shelf Life “Avril” Everyone Make Happy 53:04 Barrie “Drag” Happy To Be Here (Ext) 55:13 Lubec “Against Nature” Against Nature

maybe you saw that i was thinking about art the other day but i didn’t say anything about writing. not that i don’t think writing is art, but i maybe haven’t intentionally approached my own writing as art(?). but i do sit here each week and share a few lines and i think that counts as a writing practice. when i have anxiety brain and can’t stop thinking about things (because i don’t want to forget them), i’ll write the thoughts down so i can let my brain rest (or at least make space for other thoughts). and when i send messages to a crush or respond to an email from an old friend i try to be thoughtful and careful. so while maybe they’re not art on their own, i imagine as bits and pieces woven together they could form an art. one large art. a collection of arts. some form that i don’t know yet, but i can picture it printed in booklet form and sitting on your nightstand. you’re about two-thirds of the way through and you’re using a pokemon green energy card as a bookmark. when you finish it let me know if you want to talk. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 DARK THOUGHTS “DO YOU DREAM” DO YOU DREAM b/w IT’S TOO LATE 01:39 Soot Sprite “Bleed” Sharp Tongue 06:23 They are gutting a body of water “eightball” Destiny XL 09:28 Current Affairs “Crimes” Object & Subject 13:04 Dumspell “Slumber Party” s/t 15:02 Van Wah and the One Van Band “Road Stove” In the Giant’s Kitchen 18:27 Palehound “Your Boyfriend’s Gun” Your Boyfriend’s Gun 21:25 Fell “Atom Bomb” For The Pickling EP 24:07 Beige Palace “Mum, Tell Him” Leg 29:52 Bloody Show “Tunnels” Strictly 4 My Enemiez Vol. 1 Split 32:56 Neilson Family “My Apartment” Double Life 36:35 Molly Drag “Not Long Now” Touchstone 40:23 Ben Woods “LOZENGE” PUT 42:18 Julien Baker “Sucker Punch” Tokyo 45:53 GOLD DIME “Goose” My House 50:54 Half Shadow “Moss Tongue” Dream Weather Its Electric Song 54:04 Silicon Heartbeat “Nuclear Tan” Silicon Heartbeat 55:33 BODEGA “Truth” Shiny New Model 59:03 Yairms “Take It” Hope’s Stable 63:06 La Neve “Flash” The Vital Cord

wow i’ve never been such a homebody, but here i am. i mean, the wind and the rain and the cold and the covid make outside pretty unattractive, but is that it? this house has its own gravitational pull, we know, but wait, is that it? i’ve lived in many different homes with people that i’ve loved, but is it that? is it these people? is it me creeping on 40? is it the fact that there’s just less going on in davis right now that feels worth leaving the house for? i suppose it’s a combination of all these things but let’s check back in this spring, okay? DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Patti “Apple T” Good Big 02:38 Daisies Net “Letters” On the Apple Island 05:25 Shake Chain “Big On The Straight” Neil Yonge & Bob Doylan Live At Hyde Park EP 08:07 Full Power Happy Hour “Fun” The Fun EP 10:47 The Lowered “Pleasure Craft” Burgundy Lox and the Life Werse Living 13:46 Mehetable “Duel” Mehetable 17:53 memory boys “Let Me Dance” Form 20:47 Laura Palmer’s DEATH PARADE “Forever Bone” Among Us All 25:10 Rooms “Best part of waking up” Don’t Be Yourself 28:08 Julie Byrne “Holiday” Faster or Greener than Now 30:50 Eiyn Sof “Canticle for the Holy Spear” The Hologlyph 33:10 Kal Marks “Nu Legs” Let the Shit House Burn Down 36:32 UNHAPPY FLY “Boneyard” Unhappy Fly 39:23 Crumb “Locket” Locket 44:41 Jack Washburn “Smother” Two Tickets 46:44 Champion Lawnmower “Daytime Insomniac” Champion Lawnmower 48:52 Eggs On Mars “People Pleasing” It Will Be Like It Was 50:54 ESSi “Marimba” Vital Creatures 53:13 Sensual World “Apocalyptic Faith” Feeling Wild 55:24 Marika Hackman “the one (acoustic)” Any Human Friend (Acoustic EP)

dear vibejournal: 2023 has been a non stop hang out so far. so many movies, meals, walks, games. i’m even doing this yoga 30 day challenge thing that i would never be motivated to do on my own, but this group of friends is so supportive and honeslty it feels great to move with my body. you know that my body and i have had a difficult relationship since birth, so this is *wow* i’m going to keep chasing this feeling. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Boyracer “Bored and Loney” Bored and Lonely 01:39 Fime “Jerk Practice” Sprawl 05:39 Plexi “Let’s Ride” H E A R T B L I P S 07:57 Weeping Icon “Power Trip” Weeping Icon 12:04 Jeremy Waun “INNOCENT SIN” MIRROR FACING DOORWAY 15:18 Freezing Cold “Hand Wringing Hands” Glimmer 19:12 Pickleboy “gold finch season” releasing these voice memos from purgatory out into HELL 21:01 Ana Frango Eletrico “Se no cinema” Little Electric Chicken Heart 24:43 Aviador Dro “El Retorno De Godzilla” Nuclear, Si 27:06 Zurich Cloud Motors “A Hair Raising Memory” Trail of No Return 28:54 Good Morning “Garden” Basketball Breakups 31:14 Heartworms “Matador” heartworms ep 34:20 Lisa Prank “On Time” Perfect Love Song 36:23 Logan Hone “Grey Skies” All-Time Forever Mixtape: a collection of sing songs, jazzy instrumentals, & softer music 40:04 L CON “Everyday” Whatever EP 43:13 Ther “maureen” two more songs 47:27 Dyson Stringer Cloher “Running for the Feeling” Dyson Stringer Cloher 50:19 Special Friend “High Tide” Special Friend 53:30 Stop Clicking “Birdie Goes Cuckcoo” Television 55:20 moron “Baked Beans” demo 57:00 Thigh Master “Entity” Now For Example 59:33 Carla dal Forno “I’m Conscious” Look Up Sharp 63:33 Nick Normal “Room For Improvement” Windows Painted Shut 64:55 UBIK “You Make Me Sick” Next Phase 66:49 Kelli Bobbi “July Rush” Kelli Bobbi 68:41 Zone of thought “Flat Planet” demo part 2 70:16 Apollo Ghosts “Return VHS” Living Memory 72:02 Judy And The Jerks “Goopy” Bone Spur 73:28 Brunch “Fast one” Fast one b/w Slow one 75:13 Pictorial Candi “Anaemic Wishes” Secret Salts

had a nice year! see you next year! DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Vision 3D “Stress” Vision 3D 02:55 Cool Sounds “More To Enjoy” More To Enjoy 07:07 Twen “Damsel” Awestruck 10:09 Liquids “My Room At Night” terminaldiarrhea 12:21 NU NORMAL “don’t cry to me” i 13:40 Mormon Toasterhead “shame, the british cake” two singles 15:03 A Certain Smile “Honey Do” Bae EP 17:29 Operator Music Band “Mondo” Duo Duo 20:47 Like A Villain “I Don’t Wanna Be Here” What Makes Vulnerability Good 24:09 Monster Rally “Sweet Flower” Adventures on the Floating Island 26:40 Sequoyah Murray “I Wonder” Before You Begin 30:22 Joey Nebulous “New Joey” Give Yourself A Kiss For Me 33:15 The Pom Poms “Destination” Jump Over the Void 36:31 Pushflowers “bed song” close for comfort 39:53 the beeps “Crumple” get out of the way 41:38 Brent Penny “Fire” Choose the Right 44:58 Somesurprises “Empty Threat” somesurprises 48:33 Receptacles “Less is More” That Explains Everything 50:49 The Buoys “Inside Outside” Gold / Inside Out 53:19 EyeBawl “No More Bad Nights” Never Again 55:43 Rob Magill “I Wear A Beard” Dedicated To Those Who Recently Lived 58:57 Alpenglow “To Know You” Oceans In Between 63:16 Piccolo Pete “Snaking The Drain” Scuba Divers 66:39 Paperman “vortex to man’s transit” pale sunbathers 68:58 Radioactivity “Fear” Erased 71:41 The Berries “Lowest Form Of Life” Berryland 74:12 Peach Pyramid “Wear Sunscreen” Bright Blue 77:30 Land N Sea “Some Birds” Bummed on Paradise 81:01 She/Her/Hers “Kill The Boy Band” Kill The Boy Band 84:49 Kate Teague “Gilly” Kate Teague

what a lovely birthday! there was squash soup and a scavenger hunt, and bagels, and cave babies played, and there was a.i. songwriting and cupcakes and cookies and accordion and and, and cool sweet angel friends. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Surf Curse “Labyrinth” Heaven Surrounds You 03:28 Amar Lal “stolen time” Gardening 06:32 Bethlehem Steel “Empty Room” Bethlehem Steel 09:18 KNICKERS “A Polite Driver” BORED 12:21 The Paranoyds “Courtney” Carnage Bargain 15:05 blair “day one homies” blair. 17:57 William Austin Clay “Anything” Return to Pop Island 21:08 Jenny Hval “Ashes to Ashes” The Practice of Love 25:21 Spirit Night “Angelica” Two Songs 28:16 Men I Trust “Dorian” Oncle Jazz 31:05 Sneeze “The Northern Lift” Fin 33:21 Queen Jesus “Up the Street” Glass Hat 36:44 Hater “It’s A Mess” Four Tries Down / It’s A Mess 39:11 Long Beard “Snow Globe” Means To Me 44:31 J. Martin “Lost in My Mind” Both of Those Things 46:48 Nag “Patterns” Files 49:02 LIP “Control” Split w/ NAG 50:55 Garbo’s Daughter “Private Party” Goes Pop! 53:18 Alice Hubble “Goddess” Polarlichter

my birth date is tomorrow. i’m no longer in my mid-thirties i guess. i have lots of feelings about this but will just keep chuggin along *doot doot doot* DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 Susan “Now I Know Why” As I Was 02:12 New Balance “Guitar Improvisation #4” 29th Birthday Blues: Solo Guitar Improvisations On My Dad’s Old Guitar 03:51 The Oilies “Anywhere With You” The Oilies 07:14 Gal Gracen “Today or Tomorrow” FANTASY GARDENS 10:31 Sheena, Anika and Augusta “Billboards + Bodies” Simple Pleasures 13:11 Daikon “No One Sees The Wizard” At Least It’s Short 16:56 La Rabbia “Statues in Ash” Shock Tactics 18:47 PROM NITE “No Motivation” Dancing To This Beat… 20:47 EXEK “Commercial Fishing” Some Beautiful Species Left 23:40 Walter Mitty and his Makeshift Orchestra “Funny Faces” Puddles of Alligators 24:47 Maybe Don’t “MK2K3” Maybe Don’t 27:24 Cat Scan “Lysol” In Nature debut 30:02 Bright Ideas “Falling Down” Saturdays and the Turning Tide 32:47 Mermaidens “I Might Disappear” Look Me in the Eye 35:53 Morning Hands “Simple Speak” Morning Hands 39:32 Sonoda “Half-Life” Half-Life / The Mark 42:25 Animal Actor “Not Enough” Not Enough 44:27 Frankie Cosmos “With Great Purpose” Close It Quietly 45:48 SPF “Curb Appeal” Paul’s McCartney 47:59 Haircut “El Tiempo” Sensation 49:20 Secret Shame “Comfort” Dark Synthetics 52:25 Pom Pom Squad “Again” Ow