Addict's Messy Marriage

I just went to the funeral of a neighbor who died at the age of 47 which is only five years older than me. What if I was in her shoes? How would I live differently now? Walk with me as I explore what is important in life.

Have you noticed that when you make a mistake or receive feedback from someone, the first response is being angry or defensive? Walk with me as I describe my learnings and our choices in these situations. Am I going to choose humility or humiliation?

Loss happens to us all the time and grieving loss is an essential part of life. This is not just loss of a love one, but loss of a childhood, loss of a relationship or loss due to failing to be the parent I should have been. Walk with me as I continue to learn the power of grieving well to live well.

Why do I neglect to think about or plan for the drop off after a stressful or enjoyable situation? How many times have I been blind sided by what happens after those experiences? Walk with me as I explore the drop off and what I can do better in the future.

Self-reflection can be a powerful tool in recovery and life. Walk with me as I reflect on the good and bad of the last three weeks. Remembering it is always progress over perfection.

Why is it always about me? It was about me during my addiction and some how I still making it about myself in recovery too. Walk with me as I explore this pattern and what I'm learning to combat this tendency.

What are you willing to give up to stay sober? What if you gave up something you never thought you would give up and found it not only helped you stay sober but be more engaged in life and connected to your family. Walk with me as I discuss changes in my life that have benefited me greatly.

After 18 years of marriage, I continue to find ways to take productive conversations down a triggering path. Walk with me as I explore using words to correct my faulty assumptions and be there for my wife.

What lies underneath everything? I found out recently for me that it was a feeling of worthlessness. Walk with me as I explore my feeling of worthlessness and the image I use to cover it up.

It is amazing how much of my life I have spent escaping reality. I will expand on some topics touched upon last time so, walk with me as I explore living consciously and how it is changing the way I live my life.