Addict's Messy Marriage

Sometimes as an addict I speed right by the things I do wrong and try to move directly to the fixing phase. Walk with me as I explore some new revelations about myself from a book I'm reading and some changes my wife and I have made.

I have spent 20 years wanting to change and though I have made progress in some areas, wanting to change has held me back from actually changing. Walk with me as I explore I method I have started to use to help me change long entrenched behaviors.

Walk with me as I explore some research about the brain I discovered and how it is helping to change my life and the way I deal with difficult situations.

Walk with me as I explore how my childhood contributed to me making unilateral decisions with my time and the lessons I'm learning.

What comes out of you when things get hard? Is it positive, negative or both? Walk with me as I examine what came out of me as things got tough the last couple of weeks.

Have you ever thought you knew a topic really well but learned something that made you realized you missed the most basic premise? That is how I felt this week coming to a realization about emotions and my choices. Walk with me as I explore these thoughts and apply them to my life.

Have you lost someone close to you? Have you had to watch someone close to you grieve? Walk with me as I explore grieving and watching my wife and kids grieve when we recently lost my father-in-law.

Walk with me as I walk through some childhood lessons I am learning right now. I have found it is important for me to recognize these childhood lessons, not to use as an excuse, but to help me recognize that these lessons are still achievable as an adult. I might have been taught as a child that it was easier to give up but as an adult I can choose to never give up and learn these lessons.

Even after I gain sobriety, selfishness continues to be a nagging issue. I also know the type of selfishness I do is not good for me either since it is helping no one. Walk with me as I explore selfishness in my life.

I realized after the last podcast on fear that something was missing, the consequences of giving into fear. The consequence of giving into fear is regret. Walk with me as I talk about past regrets that came from fear and the process of preventing future regret and overcoming fear.