Anxiety in Me

I was only 15 years old when I lost my mother. I suddenly had to face various difficulties and grief that I have never experienced in the past. I was in really dark place that I even had a suicidal thought. Sure, the friends were really nice to me but you cannot really understand grief if you don't experience it. I took this opportunity to appreciate my mom, and to show you one example of grief. Last but not least, I hope my mom is proud of me. 

When I tell you it was hard for me to experience sexual identity crisis in Japan, I mean it. Maybe it is not easy to be gay in anywhere around the world (sadly), but being bi in Japan meant you have no information or role model. I basically talked about how I use to think about myself, from the moment I realized I am gay to today. As growing up, I had no one to talk or hear about these things, so I hope this episode can help those who need support. We are all valid.

"I can still handle this by myself." "I'm fine." "There is nothing to worry about". I kept telling those things to myself, when I knew I was at my lowest point. Why? Because I was too scared to open up to people, even to my own parent. But I slowly started to realize that I have to, otherwise I will break myself. This is the story about how I overcame my trust issue. And lastly, Happy Pride Month !!

SPOILER ALERT !!(Obviously) I think most of the fandom have been waiting for a really long time to watch this movie. All though this movie was a bit differ from what we've expected, it gave us a new type of MCU movie. In this episode, I talked about my opinions for each characters (including new guys), and how I thought after finished watching it. And damn I seriously do hope there is at least ONE universe where I can talk to boys without constantly traumatizing myself lmao.

Don't Say Gay bill really made me realize the importance of LGBTQ education. In this episode, I looked back my own life to acknowledge the necessity of it. Trust me, you have no idea how ignorant I was and how much I regret it. Last but not least, SAY GAY.  

Trouble don't last always is the title of Euphoria's special episode. Ever since I watched that episode, this word stuck inside of my head. Last week, I experienced something that completely changed the aspect of my life. And when I was in my lowest point, this word appeared in my head again. Is it really true that trouble don't last always or time can fix everything? Let's find out 

SPOILER ALERT!! It's never too late talk about this amazing movie. Even though I accidentally saw the spoiler before I watch it, watching no way home was one of the most fantastic experiences I've ever had in the theater. Let me share my first memory of Spiderman to how I thought of this movie ;)

Welcome to Anxiety in Me !! I can't believe this is really happening. I'm so excited!! In this episode, I introduced myself and explained why I decided to start podcast. I hope this will be a good fresh start.