i dont remember everything that happened at oracle, but i do remember some stuff. 

it would be different to try to go somewhere right now or like since 2018 maybe.  but i am talking about i wish when i left in 2013 that i had not come back and that i was just somewhere else and had lived there for 12 years and was looking at the u.s. from there right now

i think some how they will find a way to blame the mario thing on me   i had nothing to do with that

i think i am similar to the people that get kidnapped on the street then forced in to a van.  in this situation

i also wonder if elon musk didnt want to be forced to be the mario characters and that is one reason he and grimes broke up.  you still see mario characters coming out seems like instead of the game it is about elon musk and grimes when they did a skit on snl.  maybe that is why she had a panic attack, becuase she knew the mario thing was going to break her relationship  

i think i got abducted 10 years ago. now that i think about it, maybe it is a snow white and seven dwardfs situation. they abducted me, i am snow white to the seven dwarfs   thedwarfs are whoever the traffickers are who thought they needed to abduct me to make themselves look better

i dont go right back to normal, but the crushing pain stops  so it is like normal

i didnt see the pictures of donald trump dancing with the glasses until today.  he was wearing glasses to copy elon musk. and he was dancing in them.  i didnt know donald trump was a popular boy like that.   he wants to be popular.  he is not interested in being a grandfather president like joe biden was.

i am not blonde hair blue eyes but for some reason , i may be whiter than some of the blonde americans because they strongly identify with native americanism even though they dont look native american.   i can think of a couple of people who may be really gung ho native american but they are blonde with blue eyes. and they see themselves as the rightful owners of native americanism. i think a lot of white people in the u.s. are struggling with that.  they know they are native american. but they also are not darker skin with brown hair