does anyone realize this song is 37 years old?  https://youtube.com/shorts/KCpED4yZHrg?si=gE52SSvhaaVSOuM3

i was never the most talkative person  and i remember i may have noticed a sign of some mental illness in highschool one time, but i was never detached from reality somewhat until after all of that happened in 2014/2015

i didnt want to tell anyone before  im not sure why   

whoever went in to my room when i was staying at that girls house. who are you?  i was not fully conscious.    it was a dream like state. i was only aware of the situation for a moment.   that was 2014 or 2015 i dont remember the day it took place. 

i became very mentally ill after that 

what was that?

it couldnt have been my father  he is not limber enough to break in to someones house thankfully    but i could see him doing something like that if someone was staying at his house   i once stayed at his house after i first met him when i was 20  but shortly after i went the room i was supposed to sleep in i got a really bad feeling and left   he called me after i left and said that i "scared the shit or something out of him for leaving"  but it was pretty scary staying in his house  there were sounds and wierd feelings  that is probably why he didnt like me after that   but if i stayed who knows what would have happened

what was that?

this is what happened:    

2013, i was in the real estate industry but resigned and then took an english teaching job in china.

2013  i went to china for a half a year or so 

2014  i came back somehow managed to do an audition which wasnt televised. but then  i did a free volunteer thing that was televised. 

2014  after i did the thing that was televised, shortly after that, i think someone could have possibly broken in to the room i was renting and did something when i was not fully conscious, if you know what i am saying. then i lost whatever income/job that i had, and lost my car. 

2015  i became severely homeless 

i actually do not remember the jobs that i had when i came back  but i remember i had enough money or income to rent a room and pay for the car.    but then i lost all of those things and became severely homeless 

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