do you remember how i told you i think they assault me with technology. i think they assault me with technology. is it possible? i think they would tell you no. that it is crazy.  but i think they do that.  but do not admit it is possible.

i do think i am in a trafficking ring. no one will admit it. to me it is the only thing that makes sense.

i met a guy recently that said he was trafficked but that the traffickers kept their distance. i didnt understand what he meant completely. but he suggested they trafficked him for photos videos and things like that to sell. 

i remember when i did the volunteer thing. everything was fine. then shortly after i woke up to what i thought was some kind of supernatural fornication experience. but actually, it may have been being drugged and waking up to rape then not being able to stay awake and passing out again.  i was disappointed this happened and it is one of the main reasons i disappeared. it is kind of like i am still there in the bed that it happened.

something that is alarming to me. i didnt put those things together until a day or so ago, but i remember kelly told me she went out with someone and woke up to being raped on a date.  then this later happened to me. was she suggesting it would happen to me? and maybe it didnt actually happen to her?

i had never been through anything like that.   but after meeting kelly, strange things happened.  she seemed like a perfect person.  but are these people actually traffickers or something pretending to be something else?  or is it problems because of people she knows? 

to rubio. i am not asking this as criticism. but i am asking seriously. did you say this. did you know the word audacious can be taken 2 different ways. were you saying it is audacious to consider a ufc fight in the sense that it is a bold risk, or audacious that is a lack of respect.   i dont think a fight is as inspiring as a moon walk. so when i saw this i thought i was not sure. it is not meant to be a criticism. but my real question is, do we live on a flat earth and are we not able to escape. is that something you know, and is everything really that depressing.  if we live on a flat earth, you should tell everyon.  i do not understand what you mean about a fight being as inspiring as a moon mission. i am not trying to be mean in any way. i just think maybe something really depressing is going on and you cant tell anyone. https://www.msn.com/en-us/sports/mma_ufc/rubio-ufc-fight-on-wh-lawn-is-audacious-like-when-kennedy-announced-we-re-going-to-put-a-man-on-the-moon/ar-AA25tTs1?ocid=msedgntp&pc=U531&cvid=6a2cf394a41540548a391ee7673fbc2e&cvpid=6a2cf9662b3a41c58f1ac3a468512581&ei=78

or am i the only one that can see that and am on internet 2 again 

i do feel very bad kai. seems like i have to apologize for everything. no one else apologizes for anything. i think kai you are stuck in a dangerous situation. one year ago in high school you looked like a unbothered highschooler. now it looks like you have been through something. maybe you can go to college outside of the u.s. who knows. but i am just trying to get away from association with your family or something. im not interested in laughing with other people about demeaning kai.   if i demeaned you, i apologize. 

maybe presidents and stuff can hire their own security after they leave office. like every time you say something some other thing comes up. but if you run for president are you stuck with government security forever or something? do they not tell you that up front and then after you run for office you find out you will never escape kind of like you are a prisoner? i am just now thinking, beware of running for president because they may not tell you you become a prisoner. 

 because i know the way the internet works now, i apologize to you too don jr.  about kai. you seem like a nice person. 

i am sorry for your family in general including your brother father etc.  sorry to eric. i apologize. 

you would be surprised. because i do not know about your family. i think i am a stranger. 

but i would like to say i hope people will not be concerned about me and texas anymore. i may go back to visit texas sometime. i left mostly because of the abortion ban.  but you can live in texas. i may also be in texas too. i guess i am saying i may go to texas sometime. but you can be there also. or you may be there also.  if you are there. i may also be there. or not. i am just saying that inter state travel is still legal so i may be in texas sometimes. 

it is kind of interesting to think of trump as a stern german pushing all the mixed americans around. i didnt think about it that way until today.   but hopefully he doesnt use throwing 1000 dollars at people as a plan to stay in office illegally.     you see a money and forget everything else i guess. for the first time, i kind of saw trump as a rowdy kid he may have been as a younger person. 

i kind of see it like they killed me to give everyone that killed me 1000 bucks and an inheritance. like the same people that did it will get an inheritance.     i think it took them 12 years to get to this point.  to make me infertile and stuff.   im not sure why they picked me.  the only thing i can think is they thought i should never have dared to put my face on t.v.   

i notice i tried to say something nice to mark levin,  and the next thing they do is tell me i am not equal  with the   patronizing foster account things,  deporting iranian women to african countries ,  continuing to attack bill gates in washington.   you guys are "experts" i shudder to say the word but you guys are experts at putting someone down to raise others up at the same time   .  i accidently went to idaho. because i deal with mental illness.  but its like you guys dont even want me to have fond memories of idaho. it is all territorial with you guys. even melania who is not a u.s. citizen. it is territorial for her i guess or they are asking her to do things she doesnt understand.  she does not speak very clear english.  i am aware you steal the moment.    i should have taken elon musks offer in 2024  or even jeff bezos.   i am pretty sure melania knows i dont like her. hello.

the saddest part is you are so territorial you dont want me to have a fond memory of idaho.   its either because i was against oman   or it is because of justin beiber. 

are you going to be territorial with washington next?  i already told you it is illegal to chase people around,  to make them stateless.   but i think you are beasts. 

i hear donald trump is not doing that well so i keep wondering who is in charge.  

giving people money is nice and everything but who are you going to make stateless next.  is it me?  or bill gates.

you guys didnt give me any money. i know that isnt the point. but i didnt get any money.  the stuff i am dealing with today is 3 years of going through the system to try to get assistance.  from 2022-2024 i had a job and paid for most things by myself.  so you cant take credit for the assistance. you cant be the one saying you gave me money. 

if you will stop making people stateless, that would be a good start. 

i deal with issues, it is the only reason i wound up in idaho. i had an apartment with keys when i went to idaho.  but it seems like you all are scared that i liked idaho.  i am kind of tired of this immature type of thinking.  you are scared that i liked idaho then you went to politics to run me out of idaho?  that seems illegal.  

it kind of seems impossible for trump to be antichrist because he is not physically well. because he falls asleep. the sleeping antichrist. seems impossible.

if anything, they were attacking my job in 2022 to 2024.    i didnt know at the time but famous people were suing the company i worked for, putting pressure on them. etc. i did not know. and also, they went through some kind of restructuring when i worked there and i basically nearly lost the job and almost didnt have a title for several months. that means for a long time, i logged in, with no actual assignment. but i got paid for logging in. i barely kept the job for about a year or more. 

they want me to say i went to idaho by mistake.   they dont want me to like idaho. that is the point today.

ok ok i went to idaho by mistake. ok ok.

at this point i am starting to wonder if trump and melania are going to move to idaho themselves.  that is what im saying, it is territorial.  you could have moved there  and not run me out also.   maybe we could have both moved there.    

melania, you are much older now. i am not sure if you are aware that you dont look like you did when you were 20. 

one thing i kind of wonder about is stephen colbert saying trumps father was not born in germany. was stephen colbert implying his father maybe did not have pure german ancestry? if so, what was his father mixed with and is trump actually american mix breed.  i do wonder. 

i am not interested in actual politics. so i am not sure why you are using politics against me. i am a homeless  person who is registered for mental health services. i dont take regular showers? i literally go months without a shower sometimes? 

if i had the job you do or the salary , i wouldnt be worried about homeless people like that.  dont you have better things to do? 

i think your question is relevant to the united states also. even though isreal is more homogenous.  we also deal with displacement in the united states. and i guess it has something to do with the way the united states was formed.  right now tribes are fighting in the u.s. but it also is relelvant to israel.  i think of myself as similar to israelis, as someone who feels stateless in a sense. i think there is probably some kind of ownership issue right now though and to be honest i htink it has to do with the origin of the united states, that being the struggle of indigenous and migrated slaves , and they i believe are claiming their ownership of the united states right now. that means, they feel more entitled to the physical land that the other people.  even though i have some heritage like that, i am not part of the group that "feels" or "is" entitled to the land.  unfortunatley, harry from england is kind of playing in to the whole issue. he i think kind of saw a lost opportunity in england to be king and instead traveled to the u.s. to try to be kind of a major leader here or something, because he i guess saw an opportunity to kind of play in to the problems here. that is my theory anyway.  but that is why i say they are bigger than israel.  but anyway, i dont think they have ownership of the physical land here even though their heritage is real.    it is one of those things where i think everyone is kind of confused. like for instance, maybe "england" thinks it has ownership of the united states because people speak english here.  but like, i am definitely not an expert or very knowledgable on language, but i think even england my not be able to claim the entire language of english.  like migration and language is like a bunch of things.  it evolves with people.   the english they speak in other parts of europe are probably just as distinct as the english people speak in the united states.   https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/mark-levin-asks-what-israelis-are-supposed-to-do-when-theyre-surrounded-by-enemies/vi-AA250pwK?ocid=socialshare

but like at the end of the day, even though people are fighting over ownership of the u.s. , i feel stateless just like others probably as they fight for the land or whatever.    i am someone from the u.s. who felt they could travel freely but i think there are people born in the u.s. who do not think they can travel outside of the u.s. freely.   i am someone that felt i could travel freely though.  if you want to make a comparison.  

these people are fighting to be recognized as the true descendants of the united states. in that process people are starting to feel displaced or actually be displaced.   but in my opinion indigenous and migrant slave thing  are not even the only owners of the u.s.   to me i think i kind of see it like that everyone has moved past that, and its just like everyone is part owner now. kind of . i didnt think about it very long.

its kind of scary though because when they challenge everyones citizenship   people could possibly become stateless    

and that is basically overthrowing the government in my opinion

if you want to make another comparison, i am not someone that would have challeneged someones citizenship.   i was even kind of 50/50 on illegal migration.  like it is inevitable but you should control illegal migration if it becomes dangerous. 

today i was wondering if people who human traffick. if they mock everything. and if they mock food in a way where instead of using regular animal meat, they use people. but they keep the recipes the same. imagine any recipe but instead they just switch the meat but keep everything the same. that is mocking. but it is also sad.     that would be sad if they say they want to order anything you could imagine but switch the meat.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

i wonder if you are going to make a deal about what i said about women who are trafficked and how if they are aggressively trafficked, i can see how they would reach out for other people to replace them. other women and even children. i am not supporting trafficking. but i am saying that i can see how if someone is suffering and the suffering keeps getting worse, i can see how people in that situation may consider trying to get someone else to replace them.   i have already thought about that many times but never said it.    but i would hope if someone is in that situation that they would not go to get someone else.  but i can see that some people have probably been in that situation.  it makes me think about that one time that lady left me in the middle of the woods one time and i somehow found a fence and got out of the woods. i remember she saw me and it was like we were reunited. but when we were reunited, i will be honest, it seemed like she was mad about the fact that we were reunited. and i did wonder if she tried to leave me there on purpose. but from what i remember, i was reunited with them and we left. i dont remember where we went next or who she was but she was someone we knew sort of.  so there is a trafficker that keeps trafficking agressively.  so why is there a trafficker like that. 

maybe all of you are playing stupid because you dont want to talk about religion.  i dont want to talk about religion either.  so maybe you all should back off from doing that   if you want to talk about religion you should  instead of playing dumb  then tricking other people to take the burden of talking about religion for you     every time you play dumb i think people want to hit your head open with a bat   i dont think you understand who you are dealing with doing that to people