i do actually hear that people who are victims of rape often do unintentionally attract the same kind of thing again 

arwyn childs was really in to kanye that i remember. maybe she will hook up with you.  she would say crude things like she would sleep with people who look like you 'bare back' she would probably be a good match for you 

i think kanye west is trying to hook up with me. kind of like he forced taylor swift to do.

kanye west wants to sleep with people like a trophy.

the thing about my father.  in real life or regular life i completely walked away from the situation not really caring too much about it.  what can you do when your father doesnt like you or want to talk to you?  in real life, there is nothing you can do. it is not that big of a deal because you can just separate and go separate ways.   but if he was brought in to this situation involving the media or anything or if he was trolling me with some of you, then i guess it seems like i would like to tell you my impression of him.  its situational really.  in real life i had moved on from the father. 

i remember one time i was at work, and i ordered a pizza for lunch. i didnt have a back up. when i got the pizza i remember offering some to the people around me. what i didnt expect to happen was, that the people were happy to take a slice of pizza but they didnt realize they shouldnt take every slice.  they didnt realize that i wasnt giving the whole pizza away.  but they were about to take every slice. and i had to like struggle a bit to bring the pizza box back and i wound up with one piece.   sometimes people are like this.

i didnt think much about it until recently.  but if he saw himself as a lot more important than me.   its not easy to explain.  but he did have his parents until he was an adult. even though they were separated. he i believe was always in contact with his parents. and um,  like i think he just you know had a decent life. 

my father was only 27 years older when i met him. i think he was younger than 50. to me at the time it seemed like he was really old. but its not. and um. he said a couple of things when i visited that kind of revealed to me that he saw himself as a lot more important than me.  one thing he said was pretty revealing and i remember being confused about how he could see himself like that when i was sitting there.  

i do know why..  but my mother is still white. and my father still lived like he did.   i didnt know him  but i saw pictures of the way he lived one time.  looks like he lived more of a caucasian lifestyle.    i didnt automatically dislike him. i liked him i think because he was my father.  but you could tell he didnt like me. and he didnt take ownership of me for sure.

can you imagine if they are shooting people by firing squad