someone from the u.s. that looks peruvian may be 1 to 5 percent something they are ashamed of and that is why they would never go to peru 

someone from the u.s that looks korean may be 1 to 5 percent something they are ashamed of and that is why they would never go to korea 

someone from the u.s. that looks swedish may be 1 to 5 percent something they are ashamed of and that is why they would never go to sweden

i wouldnt have considered that people in my own family consider themselves native american, but i think they do and that is why they would never live outside of the u.s.    what i am saying is there are maybe millions of people walking around here that look one way or another but they may be a small percentage of something they are ashamed of and that is why they feel they can not live anywhere outside of the u.s. 

because of the heritage i have i sometimes felt stranded to the u.s. because of it.  but i am now wondering if a large population of the u.s. is also ashamed of their heritage and that is why they do not travel to other countries.  for example, i never would have considered that the kardashians consider themselves native american. but it sounds like they are indeed native american. and maybe that is why they would never consider living outside of the u.s. and that is possibly why they even looked cholo living in las angeles. as children in their pictures they look like they could pass as little hispanic children and they dressed like the chicano cholo culture also

my grandfather was still alive at that time so hopefully there was no scam    but my cousin roslyn did call me to sell me drugs then drove all the way from austin to give me the drugs   and i dont think i ever told my grandfather or anyone who did that   i was living with my grandfather when that happened   i didnt even take the drugs.  i just wanted to see my cousin and was alone now at my grandfathers  but she abused that and turned it into selling me drugs    it was her way of being my friend    

like, did they come over to case the house before she died

i dont even know how they knew she had valuable items to be honest. because we didnt ever see any of the family members. but that one time or two times i remember we did get visitors from the aunt becky and aunt katie sides of the family at the place we lived where my mother died. i remember both of thier families came to visit for some reason.   i thought it was my fault they came to visit because i remember telling my mother that i wanted to visit with my cousins.  but then after she died i was hearing that all of her valuable items were missing and they were disappointed by it.  

i also remember hearing that she had an antique store when she was younger and by the time she passed away she still had some of the things from the store. i remember hearing that a lot of her valuable items were missing or stolen they thought by larry.  i am not sure why i was told that when i was younger.  but i dont think the people that took over cared about me at all so they told me wierd things like that.  i probably didnt need to know that her valuable items were missing, or that they suspected larry did something. or the other weird things i heard

i never really thought about it until now, but i started to wonder what happened to the money in my mothers bank accounts if she had any. and i wonder what happened to the money from the sale of the house and her things.