the internet says that mexico was colonized by spain.  it says the u.s. colonies were colonized by English, Spanish, and Dutch

i was just thinking about why it is so different in the u.s. vs mexico     i think it is because of the settler story etc     you know, mexico was somehow not colonized by the settlers like the u.s. so even though there are people there that are similar to the people in the u.s.   it is different there      i am just saying.     i am still scared to go to mexico 

i am not able to tell you if the stories are true or not, but i remember hearing that my father tried to shoot my mother with a gun one time and she was able to escape and i think that is why there was some kind of restraining order    i remember he called her one time to tell her his mother died, but other than that he wasnt allowed over in person   

all these people, my mother, that guy ,my father would be 70 and 80 years old now 

i didnt disagree with my grandmother either because i was like yea my mother would have had blonde hair children  and maybe i would have been one of them or not i dont know how that works 

i remember my grandmother (remember she didnt like me much)  but she told that my mother used to be engaged to a man that was blonde   and she wished my mother would have married that guy and had children with him   if that guy is still alive he may get in trouble because they will find him 

my mother was not a slave but she may have become a slave by having children/marrying my father    

that is if you think he is able to do that kind of thing, because it is his 'birthright' . because of his ethnicity or the way he looks.

if my father was able to troll me  or kill my mother because of his ethnicity, then that means my mother kind of became a slave by marrying him/having children.

what would be the point of someone killing someones white daughter to stay in touch with her family.   if he didnt have anything to do with my mothers death then, why would he want to stay in touch with my family?   but like   i do not know how the meeting was arranged for me to meet him , why my grandmother had his information.