do i understand how they did that? no.  but i would bet that even you can see that they did that to me.  

it is not easy to explain.  but if they can get me caught in an n word dilemma. then i think they successfully transferred the stigma from themselves to me. 

but i think i feel like i personally understand something about the stigmas. i personally feel like the stigma can get transferred to other people. and this seems to be something that the african american community seems to understand. that they can get rid of their stigma , if they can trap other people.   like, they did trap me  in an  n word     dilemma         every day , when i see african american celebrities. they look more and more like latino people communicating with one another  instead of people with african ancestry.  and i think they are trying to get rid of all the stigmas  

i feel bad for selena and everyone really.   i am not sure but it just seem like people have been black fishing me. looking for proof that i have african ancestry and it has gotten me in to a lot of trouble. 

he even showed me family pictures. but there were no pictures of anyone with african ancestry.

it was also the time that i explained in more detail what i was saying about not knowing if i have african ancestry. 10 years ago when i made a twitter account i said, i dont think so, if i do it would be from way back.  i dont know if anyone noticed that, but i never explained it back then. but now since i came back online, i talked about it because i imagined hearing something that probably didnt happen, and then i was talking about what my father said when i met him 20 years ago. he said, pretty much what i said 10 years ago , he said we may have (i think he used a spanish word for african ancestry).    but  i do not know much about the personality of my father, so he just said that and then didnt explain what he was talking about. then i asked a sister about our ancestry and she didnt mention anything about african ancestry but said a different ancestry confidently.  so, i really am not sure what he meant.  i am wondering if he was talking about the olmec because there is a conspiracy about that they may have traveled from africa.  if that was the case, then i am not sure why he didnt just talk about the olmec because probably all indigenous people in that area probably are related to the olmec.  

me talking about the n word online and the entire situation involving it is one of those things where i wish i could be like sinbad and use para military services to delete it from the internet and then pretend it never happened 

may want to make some marriage laws to protect people that might be more vulnerable you know.  cross cultural marriage laws that like say like people dont become slaves

i get a feeling the u.s. colonies were colonized more by british irish that kind of thing

thats why they are different.  i am not trying to go back thousands of years or anything. just the colonies