I test drove cars today: an SUV, a coupe, and sat in the SL63 AMG. It reminded me that I don’t have to figure out the how or when of my dreams. I just need to say what I want, believe it’s mine, and enjoy the ride.

I let myself dream today l, not just little dreams, but the big ones. A penthouse tour, a perfect chair, and the perfume “A Thousand Wishes” reminded me that I live in a land where my wishes are granted. I’m already the woman I want to become. She just has a bit more money and confidence. Everything else? Already here. Even Boggles snoring next to me feels like part of the wish.

Today I followed a nudge and stumbled upon two open houses: one that was just okay and another that felt like home. I didn’t have the money, but I walked through it anyway and let myself feel what it would be like to live there. It reminded me why I’m doing all of this, for freedom, joy, peace, and a closet full of clothes I actually love. I talked through the details, what wealth would allow, and why I’m proud of myself for showing up. Even if that’s not the house, it reminded me that a house is coming

I talked to my mentor and a podcast host today and realized how much I overthink doing things “right.” I started an experiment that runs until July 31, 2025, focusing on feeling freedom and safety rather than chasing checklists. I reflected on manifesting, gratitude, and how my dream job is to host a meaningful talk show where people feel seen. Right now, I’m soaking in small joys such as my amazing bed, comfy sweats, and the freedom to build my life. The goal? Start each day with, “Today was so easy.

Today I talked about all the changes happening in my life: internally, relationally, spiritually. I’m realizing how much I need safety in my body to grow, and how often I treat myself like I’ve already failed. I’m learning grace, rest, and asking better questions

Today’s episode isn’t polished, it’s real. I talk about feeling worn down by stress, school, money stuff, and survival mode. I applied to one job today, and that was enough. I’m trying to build something, but I’m also exhausted. I’m asking big questions like: “How do you feel safe in a body that’s never known safety?” and “What really recharges you when everything drains you?” No answers yet but I showed up. That counts

Today I treated my inner child to ice cream, a fountain Dr. Pepper, popcorn, Disney movies. I needed the comfort, and I gave it to myself without guilt… until I came home and was immediately shamed for it. I was told to “be quiet,” “be logical,” “stop being emotional.” But I’m done pretending I’m a robot to make others comfortable.

This episode is real, raw, and full of what happens when you try to bring softness into a hard world.

🎙️Thank you for listening. I love you. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.