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Healing can feel like a moving target until the day you realize something is different and it stayed different. That’s where we start: the moment I look at my life and see real freedom, not a temporary high, not a good week, but the kind of emotional healing that makes you say, “I’m dangerous now because I healed.”

I walk through my healing journey that truly began in late 2022 after years of anxiety, insecurity, fear, and carrying trauma without knowing how to process it. We talk about how kids pick up what parents never say out loud, how taking on grown-up responsibility early can shape your whole nervous system, and why “quick fixes” never touch the root. I also share the role faith plays for me: realignment, obedience, seeking wise counsel, and learning the difference between being hurt by people and walking away from God.

We get practical about breaking generational cycles and changing coping patterns, including my relationship with food and emotional eating. When healing goes deep, your outlets change, your triggers change, and even your body can respond differently because you are no longer using survival tools for everyday life. If you’re searching for help with trauma healing, spiritual growth, faith-based healing, parenting through healing, or simply learning how to finally get to the root, this conversation gives you language and a starting path.

If it hits home, subscribe, share it with someone who needs hope, and leave a review so more people can find the show. What’s the cycle you’re determined to end?

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Although I lost my initial recording, took a longer break than I wanted, I still felt the pull to come back with something real. On Mother’s Day, I’m back on the mic to reintroduce Be Clay and say out loud what a lot of us live quietly: we ask God for change, then we fight the very process that change requires.

Be Clay started with a prayer in 2020 and a hymn lyric that hit me like a mirror: “Thou art the potter, and I am the clay.” I saw a picture of myself resisting on the potter’s wheel, making a mess while God tried to shape me. That’s where “Be Clay” comes from, and that’s the challenge I’m carrying into this new stretch of the podcast: surrender to God isn’t a vibe, it’s a decision to stop grabbing the wheel back when pressure, tools, and the kiln show up.

We also talk about the words we repeat on autopilot, especially faith language like “I want to be like Christ.” Do we actually understand what we’re asking for? If being Christ-like includes not fitting in, being misunderstood, and paying a real cost, what does that mean for how we handle rejection, discomfort, and our need to be liked? I’m sharing the mindset shift that’s been helping me: define the words, study the life you’re trying to imitate, and be honest enough to pray, “Teach me how.”

If you’re rebuilding consistency, wrestling with control, or trying to grow up spiritually for real, press play. Subscribe, share this with a friend who needs a reset, and leave a review so more people can find Be Clay.

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
                      &
There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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​In this deeply personal season finale—recorded at the close of 2025 and shared now with the perspective of the new year—I’m opening up about the moment everything came to a screeching halt: a serious car accident that totaled my vehicle and shattered my sense of self-reliance.

​Healing isn’t a straight line, and in this episode, I don't skip over the "messy middle." We dive into the raw anger and self-blame that followed the crash, and the uncomfortable reality of being the "strong one" who suddenly has to rely on others for rides, support, and patience. If you have ever felt like an inconvenience or judged yourself for not "bouncing back" fast enough, this conversation is for you.

​Inside this episode:

​The Struggle of Receiving: Why it’s so hard for caregivers and leaders to accept help, and how to stop apologizing for needing it.

​The Spiritual Side of Survival: Finding the moments of undeniable protection even in the wreckage.

​Being Clay: Exploring the perspective that growth often feels like cutting, and why I’m done hiding the "work-in-progress" version of myself.

​Though this story began as we closed out last year, its lessons have defined how I’ve entered 2026. I am stepping forward with "the cap off"—choosing less fighting, more freedom, and a much softer grip on control.

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​What are you finally releasing as we move further into this year? Let’s talk about it in the comments.

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Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

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And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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Ever feel like your life is spinning, but not in a way that’s shaping you? I open up about the moment a simple hymn line—“Thou art the Potter and I am the clay”—turned into a vivid picture of me fighting the wheel instead of trusting the hands that hold me. That image birthed the heartbeat of this show: be clay. Not the planner, not the potter—just willing, soft, and ready to be formed.

From there, we get honest about gratitude. Not the polite list, but the kind that springs from realizing how many second chances we don’t deserve and yet somehow receive. I talk about choosing gratitude as a daily practice, especially in December, and how that choice changes our tone, our pace, and our response to stress. We explore the difference between knowing of God and truly knowing God—time, conversation, and a relationship that naturally shifts what we do and don’t do. If grace met me when I was unlovable by my own standards, then my posture toward others must change. That’s where love stops being theory and starts being practice.

 If you’re ready to trade control for surrender, anxiety for gratitude, and hesitation for action, this conversation will meet you right where you are and nudge you forward.

Subscribe, share this with someone who needs a hopeful push, and leave a review to tell me what you’re choosing—gratitude, surrender, or that first step to unbury a gift. What will you pick today?

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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The mic is back on, the candles are out, and something real has shifted. Turning thirty-nine didn’t just add a number; it lifted a weight. I’m sharing how a quiet weekend in Virginia, a birthday test, and a year of honest work pulled me from disorganized attachment toward secure ground—and what that means for faith, family, and everyday peace.

I open up about living in fight-or-flight for years and finally getting the language to name it. We explore how attachment styles shape our relationships with people and with God, why trust feels hard when your body expects danger, and how quick fixes keep wounds open. This is an unhurried look at healing: slowing the pace, letting God be God, and staying on the table long enough for deep work and full recovery. I talk about the apology I owed my kids, the compassionate truths I told my parents, and the boundaries that protect love instead of punish people.

You’ll hear practical takeaways—recognizing triggers, building secure practices, setting small consistent boundaries, and letting worthiness come from being chosen, not from constant performance. We also cover a few life updates: going back to school at WGU, writing in progress, and a commitment to a real release schedule. If you’ve ever felt stuck between wanting closeness and fearing it, or if faith feels distant because survival is loud, this story will give you language, hope, and next steps.

If this resonates, share it with a friend who’s fighting for healing, subscribe for weekly episodes, and leave a review to help more people find the show. And keep an eye out as I re-upload past episodes to Spotify and Apple under “Rewind”—for now, they’re on YouTube.

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Not just by some,

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We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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Forgiveness is more than just letting go—it's a transformative journey that reshapes our spiritual and everyday lives. In our latest episode of Be Clay, we explore the profound impact of forgiveness through personal stories that mirror the teachings of scripture. We delve into the necessity of forgiveness as a fundamental practice for those in faith, likening it to the commitments we uphold, such as children fulfilling chores for privileges. By embracing the challenging aspects of our beliefs, we find a deeper connection with God.

Navigating the cost of following Jesus requires self-denial, much like carrying one's own cross. Through heartfelt reflections, we discuss the painful yet rewarding path of aligning our lives with spiritual teachings, even when it costs relationships or brings disillusionment with church practices. We reflect on how personal experiences with church hurt can lead to a deeper understanding of the responsibilities of church leaders. By examining scriptural references such as Ezekiel 34, we stress the importance of accountability and the need to trust in God's guidance.

Throughout the episode, we are reminded of the enduring power of unconditional love and forgiveness, which calls us to embody grace in every aspect of our lives. We highlight the transformative impact of releasing negativity and extending kindness beyond measure, drawing parallels to a spiritual "boot camp" that prepares us to be ambassadors for Christ. By fostering a personal relationship with God and understanding love's true meaning, we recognize our eternal worth and the limitless love that surrounds us. Join us as we challenge ourselves and you, our listeners, to embark on this spiritual journey with open hearts and minds.

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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Have you ever questioned whether attending church is necessary to truly connect with God? Join me on a personal journey as I confront this common struggle, opening up about my own experiences with church hurt and the pivotal figure who taught me the essence of faith beyond ritual. We'll unravel the intricate relationship between religion and spirituality, validating the feelings of those who have been wounded by traditional practices, and emphasizing the importance of personal connection with the divine.

Our exploration deepens as we reflect on the life of King David, whose story is both flawed and inspiring. Despite his imperfections, David's unwavering devotion to God demonstrates the power of humility, repentance, and steadfast faith. His ability to maintain a profound connection with God even amidst adversity offers poignant lessons for navigating our own spiritual landscapes today. Through his journey, we uncover the enduring relevance of personal faith and the strength it provides.

In our final discussion, we address the transformative power of forgiveness and healing from past wounds. Inspired by David's remarkable ability to forgive Saul, we draw parallels to our struggles with resentment and emphasize the liberating experience of releasing anger. By trusting in God's grace and mercy, we can move towards inner peace, healing from past relationships, and fostering healthier connections. This episode is an invitation to let go of bitterness and embrace a future enriched by faith and love.

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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Have you ever felt crushed under the weight of family expectations or struggled to find your own path amidst chaos? This week's episode of Be Clay might just resonate with you. We open up about the pivotal role my grandmother played in shaping my spiritual journey, only to realize that her influence, while profound, was never meant to replace my relationship with God. Listen as I recount the turbulent teenage years filled with family and church upheaval, and the pivotal moment when I had to step up as the "man of the house" due to my father's departure. This segment underscores the essential lesson of relying on God for true personal growth and transformation.

Feeling lost and battling depression can be an isolating experience, but what if there was a hidden layer of divine protection guiding you through it? Hear my heartfelt story of rebellion, dark thoughts, and the immense pressure of living up to my family's standards. The emotional turmoil and academic struggles led to a significant turning point on a memorable birthday, shedding light on the complexities of familial relationships and the enduring impact of parental expectations. This part of the episode is a raw and honest reflection on the struggle to find self-worth and identity amidst the chaos.

Imagine secretly reading a Bible for two weeks, grappling with feelings of unworthiness, only to have a prophecy reveal that you are destined to touch millions. I share how this unexpected revelation challenged my self-perception and marked a profound step in my spiritual journey. Drawing inspiration from Saul’s transformation to Paul, I recount my moment of spiritual reconciliation and acceptance of God's unconditional love. Despite my past defiance and rebellion, God's grace and mercy remained steadfast, leading me to fully commit to a life of faith. This episode is a testament to divine intervention and the unwavering strength of God's love, encouraging listeners to embrace their own spiritual journey.

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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What if building a genuine relationship with God could transform your life in ways beyond mere religious practices? In this episode of Be Clay, we challenge you to move beyond the superficial and explore the profound process of spiritual formation. We kick things off by discussing the metaphor of God as the potter and us as the clay, emphasizing how this challenging yet vital process shapes our spiritual journey. We dive into the complexities of human relationships—familial, friendly, and romantic—and how they can deepen our understanding of our connection with God. We also touch on the sensitive topics of church hurt and hypocrisy, sharing valuable insights on how a solid personal relationship with God can help you navigate these common obstacles.

Through my heartfelt narrative of my spiritual reawakening, you’ll learn about the journey of rededicating my life to God. I open up about my daily prayers, the significant purchase of my cherished study Bible, and the conviction to live a life that honors God. My story is a moving testament to the struggle of one-sided relationships and the profound desire to comprehend and reciprocate God's immense love. These reflections provide a roadmap for anyone seeking to build and nurture a relationship with the divine, highlighting the stages of forming meaningful connections both with God and others.

We also examine the essential role of church community in our spiritual lives, emphasizing the necessity of forgiveness and understanding. Drawing parallels between our relationship with God and other relationships, we discuss how mutual care and sincerity are crucial. We delve into the importance of discerning true spiritual guidance and the dangers posed by false preachers, stressing that a genuine relationship with God is key to navigating these complexities. By the end of this episode, you’ll be equipped with the wisdom to embrace and nurture your relationship with God, fostering a deeper, more authentic connection with Him and your spiritual community. Tune in for a thought-provoking discussion that promises to enrich your spiritual journey.

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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Imagine being shaped and molded through life's trials, much like a piece of clay in the hands of a divine potter. In this episode of the Be Clay podcast, we journey through what it truly means to embrace life's highs and lows, using the metaphor of being clay shaped by God. Reflecting on personal experiences and the inspirational process of Olympic athletes, we discuss the importance of transparency and celebrating both struggles and triumphs. Join us as we honor students on their new paths and encourage everyone to witness and appreciate the entire journey, not just the final victory.

Early childhood is a critical period that lays the foundation for future growth and development. I delve into the profound impact of nutrition and environment during a child's first five years, including how a parent's diet and stress levels can shape their child's brain. Drawing parallels between natural and spiritual growth, I share my experiences from childhood. Being deeply rooted in spiritual practices, it demonstrates the lasting influence of consistent prayer and church involvement. This chapter offers invaluable insights into how early experiences shape our overall development and spiritual journey.

Finally, we tackle the complex relationships with faith and family that many of us wrestle with. From the emotional turmoil of parental conflicts to the misrepresentation of faith by church members, we provide a raw and honest look at how these challenges impact mental health and spiritual growth. Amidst these struggles, we highlight the enduring power of unconditional love of Christ. This episode serves as a powerful reminder that, no matter how tough the times, love remains a steadfast source of hope and healing.

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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