One part of yourself is telling you to do one thing and the other part is telling you not to or thinking negatively about the decision you ended up making … it’s definitely always an internal struggle unless I have a gut feeling about a decision I have to make, that to me makes it easy. But without the gut decision and the anxiety and depression pulling me in multiple directions sometimes I don’t know what’s the right one!

Just keep an open mind with everyone as you don’t know what anyone is going through !

Often times I either have no feelings or don’t know what I’m feeling and other times I have all the feelings in the world and can’t handle it! This is just a little bit about that because I’m sure there are others with similar feelings !

Putting those pressures on yourself to figure out what you want to do in life and at so young of an age, and the feeling when you don’t hit those points !

I started on touching base with Gains and Losses from my previous podcast … however it went into my worries and wedding things, so enjoy this episode as it’s a little bit of everything… haha!

Today the episode is about gaining back my Dad after he got sober but then I had more losses along the way that shattered me. I got through it, and all you have to tell yourself is “Everything is going to be okay”

This is an episode that was somewhat of a struggle to make but I talk about childhood and more of the negative memories that I have or the things that I went through that stuck with me until teen years and until now.

Talk about the thoughts and feelings that I have towards myself whether it is positive or negative, I’m working on loving myself but right now that’s not how it is.

Waking up after a crazy dream or with a gut wrenching feeling is one of my least favourite things, especially if the dreams or feeling is awful! I also provide self help things and options that I use to get through the day after !

Look at the good things that happened as a child and try to let those overpower the negatives. When looking at all the negatives you start to forget the happy memories !