Bipolar, Grief, & God

I've been OBSESSED with Reality TV for as long as I can remember ... I wanted to be ON it with all of my heart ... then the twist was I ended up WORKING in it .... but then the massive clincher was during a manic episode of my bipolar disorder later in the life.... I was convinced I was LIVING in it ....

This story has a lot of turns that all lead to one thing ... life sometimes can give you breadcrumbs ... little moments or thoughts that make you think you know where things will end up ... but then it becomes clear that GOD and THE REAL WORLD ... gives you the unexpected ... and sometimes, what they give you, is a life lesson, or a true love, or a heartbreaking loss, that is never where you thought the breadcrumbs would lead you ... but somehow, you end up exactly where you are meant to be.

Thank you for Listening,

Alana

FLASHBACK! Okay ... not to be annoying, but when I revisit an episode from my previous podcast H.O.P.E - I can't help but say FLASHBACK!

So this will be the first time that I will be doing something that I will be calling "refurbishing" ...please take a listen (and a little ride) through this episode ... as you will hear a present day commentary before it truly begins .... and I hope you like it, as it is something that I created, yes, while my mind had gone a little "rogue" ... but I am so damn proud of it. SO ... please, take your ticket, and "come on ride the train!"

Take a listen for a quick bit on what this podcast is all about ... and how it came to be! I am so excited for this adventure ... I hope you will take this train ride with me!

Love, Alana.

This idea of "Praying for Peace... Piece by Piece" came out in my Winter 2026 Quiet Hypomanic Episode of my Bipolar Disorder ... as I reflect back on so many things that emerged from my "brain that had gone rogue" as I call it, I see so much of it through a different lens.... and I realize, even thought I felt it was making sense and applied to that time of my life (and in some ways it did) ... it is even more prominent in my life right now.

I share bits and pieces of how hyper-spending and hyper-journaling were a big part of this last episode of my illness ... but somehow ... they both ended up being major parts of the story I am able to tell now ... So, I hope you find something in this episode that you can take with you .... because after all, I am here sharing my story ... to change yours.

Thanks for Listening.

Alana

Guys! Welcome to Bipolar, Grief & God. I cannot even tell you how excited I am... because this idea literally came to me last night out of nowhere (as they usually do).

I won't bore you with the entire story... but if you are brand new here, just read the "About" section of this podcast, and then by listening to this QUICK 8 minute episode ... you should be up to speed.

This is the deal here .... "H.O.P.E Hang On Pain Ends" captured the storm of my bipolar illness... the ups and downs.... the overwhelming waves, and the belly laughs. ALL recorded during a type of hypomanic episode that I had NO idea I was in ....

But Bipolar, Grief, & God begins AFTER the storm... because now I get to look back at everything that happened, pick up the pieces, and try to figure out what the hell it all meant.

Same story... but on the "other side" of it. And trust me, you're gonna want to hear what happens next.

TICKETS PLEASE! ALL ABOARD.