Living through remembrance and the unknown. Community and sharing. Reminders of those who you loved and who have passed away or who are no longer in our lives. I talk about all of that stuff tonight. I talk about how the deep remembering amidst loss is a tool to tap into our love and how far it can extend. Also, how we also have a huge responsibility for our own gifts of having experience in life. And how being supported by others amidst painful times in our lives is crucial to healing and claiming space to continue loving ourselves in our full capacity.

Trust and confidence amidst living our lives and facing the known of the unknown. How do you live your life as best as you can knowing it's not always easy? When we can recognize our own inner nature, our true nature, our dharma, we can extend into what we are called to do in our own lives so that we can life fully. Also the beacons of love can be really subtle but potent when we remember those who have passed away. There are plenty of subtleties in our everyday habits that are echoes in time...I recognized one today and thought about my Dad, while simply wrapping up presents.

If this podcast was made to be a cozy blanket amidst all of the changes in our modern world, you'll see where I cross-stitch my awareness of intuition, relationships, and process of letting go. The fabric of this episode would be quilted pieces of how birth and death teach us how simple our power is. I talk about how I used to hitchhike and how I learned about Doulas, and how living in tune to the nature of lifecycle transitions and the mystery behind our own lifecycles are simply important to exalt in. (Day 30/40)

Parenting is not easy and especially as teenagers we can resent those people who parent us. But is there a word that can compliment the exchange and reciprocity between a parent and a child? I talk about how my dad was a pain in the but, and how parenting fails are crucial to who we are and become an opportunity for learning in our lives. I end on the note of how important the ecology of family life is embedded with mishaps and challenges and the fruits of love and the diversity of experience carry us forward in our diverse lives.

It's the New Moon. It's been 28 days since I experienced my personal largest loss of a loved one. I talk about the unknown that comes with life, death and birth. The concept of the void... And how we're inately curious about what's "hidden in the dark" even though we are taught to be afraid of the dark as children... but we're really afraid of what we can't see. I also share a written piece about Aditi the Hindu goddess of the empty form. The fact that this is the scratchiest audio that I've recorded, and I nearly cried at the beginning, I'm reminded that it's easier to welcome the imperfection that comes with everything.

Silence is key to me. Tonight I went on a thought stream to chat about alternatives to how we use our voice. Humming, toning, and singing can help to massage your power centers, your chakras and the pathway to your vagus nerve... As a part of and finding and using our voices sometimes we don't need to talk...or think too hard. Tonight I don't feel like talking or thinking too hard so I'll leave it at that. 💓 Thanks for listening. This is day 27/40 of my daily casting out of love using my voice alongside my love for silence 💕

Menstrual blood and death. Everyday experiences that we don't talk about but are universal...from loving candy to asking for a pad. The things I end up talking about everyday surprise me and what I find the most amazing maybe is how I can talk about anything under the sun at this point without feeling shy or embarrassed. Laying my Dad to rest 26 days ago has really helped me to cut through the everyday bs that prevents alot of us from being open and honest and living our full lives shamelessly. Thanks so much for living and casting out the freedom love alongside of me. 💓 🎧 💓

*SENSITIVE* (pregnancy loss) I touch briefly on how similar the birth and dying process are. I continue to reflect on how preparation and revelry for both are a part of what I "do" as I hold space for folks in their various lifecycle outcomes... I also share my written piece "Fertile Feelings" that I wrote last spring. Day 25/40 💓

Forgiveness and getting over victimhood. As I continue to take time and cast out love to share a bit of my dad and life anecdotes, this episode in particular has a self help vibe to it. I also talk about how we can tend to our kids like gardens and not own them which can lead to solid connections later in life. If you have any feedback or to share your own reflection on these topics you can email me at [email protected] 💓 Thanks for listening 🎧

Feeling good and solid are a part of our daily expectations. I shared a stream of consciousness about courage. If you're feeling confused or stressed out, or in the midst of an important choice, I talk about courage and how it can help us through the challenge. Courage can be used as a life raft. You can trust your own breath because you are a powerful being and ultimately... to tap into the potential for love and joy is about choosing how we choose to react to challenge. Our power lies in how we welcome and are ready for the unknown.