Blessed But Messy Mama

Have you ever considered "BUSY " as being a distraction or a means for Satan to do his job? 

We live in a world of constant distraction. Streams of social media, to-do lists, busy schedules, phone calls... All. Day. Long. 

These interruptions make it so easy for our brains to get off track and we then perform less than our best. Can I get an AMEN? 

I don't know about you, but I want so desperately want to be kingdom driven in life and I am finding day by day as God has me in the quiet that the "BUSY" that so many of us strive to achieve is not all it's cracked up to be. 

God made us all for a very specific purpose, but we won't ever get to that purpose if we can't let go of "BUSY" and the badge that it gives and realize that the Supernatural power of God is all we need and that He has us right where he wants us. Are you willing to see it? Are you willing to let go of the "BUSY' to get MORE? MORE of what God has for you? 

Right around the corner of the struggle we are facing, there is a better and greater version of ourselves. In order to find that version we must first identify what type of person is in the driver seat of our life. Are we the.... Watcher? The Wisher? The Worker? Once we identify who or what is driving us, we then have to dig deep in to our Savior, seek Him, turn the blinker & make the right move.

It will be uncomfortable. It will be hard. It will be messy. BUT it will also be beautiful! 

Today as I sat reading my Bible, God spoke to me differently through a very familiar verse. A verse I have read many times before. 

Psalm 139:16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day passed. 

WOW! Take a deep breath right there and say "Thank you JESUS!" I just recently got back from a trip and God has reminded me that there is nothing going on in this season of life that He hasn't already planned or seen. God knew I'd be right where I am today. Nothing happening is a surprise to Him. 

Through my time with Him this morning God spoke lots of encouragement over me & I want to share that same encouragement with you today. 

Your yesterday... Your today... Your tomorrow is already penned in the loving hands of our Father. You are not just a number in His eyes, but one that is incredibly unique & designed with a special purpose. Walk boldly today knowing that is is HIM that holds it all. 

Worthiness is in our DNA!!! Praise God! 

Jesus died for us

Jesus loves us unconditionally 

Jesus has plans for us to prosper 

The only thing that hold us back from believing and stepping in to what God says about us is our own selves. Now is the time to take ACTION!!

Becoming a person who sees yourself as worthy is not easy. It takes practice. It takes hard work. It takes daily intentionality. 

Depression, anxiety, patterns of negative self talk, becoming overweight, etc. does not happen over night. Extend yourself grace because re-wiring your brain and changing these patterns in to positivity will not happen overnight either. 

2 practical techniques I have practiced over and over this week are:

1. PRAYER

2.PHONE A FRIEND

Take a quick listen to today's episode as I explain how and why I used these 2 techniques. 

This is the question my therapist asked me this week... "Do you believe you are worthy?" As a Christian I feel this is a hard question for many reasons. Yes, I know that I am because of the blood of Jesus Christ, but due past moments of trauma the voice of "worthlessness" has crippled me. It is a daily battle I work to understand and overcome. 

I want you to know today that if you too struggle with these feelings it is okay to sit in these feelings. In fact, we have to in order to move forward. We have to learn to trust ourselves enough to give ourselves credit, where credit is due and to recognize the lies "worthlessness" feeds us. 

I am officially on a journey of working to overcome this awful feeling. I pray that if this is something you too battle with that you will know that not only are you not alone, but that I see you. I commit to sharing over the next few weeks what all God is revealing to me during this season and I pray that He will use me to speak to you as well. 

Stepping out in to something that is not the "norm" is uncomfortable, it is hard. I lived "norm" for years & it was not working for me. In fact, I just continued to spiral deeper and deeper in to darkness. I was scared of what others would think if I admitted that I needed help, that I couldn't handle the busy, that I didn't have it together. I hit complete rock bottom before I ever truly saw not only the depths of my pain, but help & a change were needed & that I indeed was worth taking action for and fighting for. 

Friend, I get the "busy." I get the pain of being hostage to the scale, calories, hours of exercise. I get the desire of feeling there is more, but not knowing what step to take and I also know the feeling of true darkness. 

This morning I had an eye opening moment. A flash back of who I was 5 years ago and who I am not becoming because I was finally willing to stop out of the "norm" for myself, for my health and for my family. Stop holding yourself hostage out of fear of what others will say. Step out in the messy, the unknown & fight for your life! 

I am entering a monumental year 4-0, 40 the older I am becoming the more I find myself reflecting back on things I "wish" I could have or even would have grasped on to at a younger age. Yes, I am sure I had plenty of people who warned me or even tried to do the same thing I am hoping to do here, but I didn't grasp on it. Some things caused a lot of heartache, while other things I found joy in! 

I know that our past does not define who we are. In fact, I am learning that our past is what molds us, shapes us & grows us. Our past is part of the story God has given us to share! Enjoy this series! 

Believe it or not we are our biggest barrier to finding success in life. Quitting typically feels easier, but I will tell you that it is always too soon to quit. God gives us the opportunity to have a fresh start in Him, daily. This Fresh start is also for other areas in life... Relationships. Health. Finances. We will never start though until we can move past our excuses and see God for who He is and What He can do. Trust me, I am speaking to myself as well and know I will be needing to hear this episode over and over. 

40+ million people suffer with some form of anxiety, panic or anxious thoughts. 40 million, which means although we feel alone in those moments of struggle we indeed are NOT alone. I am not an expert in any field of mental health, but I have lived a life of mental health struggles so I know just how you feel in those moments of weakness. Today I will be sharing a few of my practical tips and tricks that are currently helping me manage my anxiety. If this episodes touches your heart in any way please share it! 

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Ps. I discuss my first encounter with anxiety in this episode and I want to make a correction. My first encounter occurred at the City Museum in St. Louis, MO not the Children's Museum.