To be in the midst of Him, it means to be so fully in Him, that He fills every aspect of your life that is empty. In the midst of Jesus is all fullness. The appearance of positive attributes of one that is saved, does not necessarily mean you are saved. We need to ask for forgiveness of our sins and believe on the Lord. If you owe a person an apology, just apologize. Don't say, "If or but" in your apology. Same with salvation. IF you want to be saved, don't say, "If I am not saved ...", ask for forgiveness and ask for salvation. Be clear in this manner. God's will and His word cannot be separated.