can’t shut the fem up

September is Suicide Awareness Month, which means it’s time for us to talk about it. ♡

This is the first episode of the September CSTFU suicide awareness segment. 

Let’s get started with finding out where Faith and Rachel’s passion for suicide awareness advocacy stemmed from?

The ladies choose to share their personal experience with suicidal ideation, self harm, attempts, mental disorders and loss.

Faith tells the Femmes about her secret hockey player love affair at 17 that ended in her first real heartbreak. Which left her spiraling deep into alcohol addiction and suicidal ideation which ended in a car crash that saved her life.

When you are young and feel that a breakup is the end of the world, it could end tragically.

Rachel then shares her deeply personal story of losing the boy she loved to suicide, a loss that will forever haunt her.

She explains how the agony of his suicide engulfed her life, leaving her at her most reckless state of life. 

This is the powerful personal testimony of how God saved Rachel from taking her life.

We urge you to join us to bring light to the darkness.

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Trigger warning that this episode contains the topic of suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, gun violence, addiction and evil energy.

Following last weeks episode “embracing rage” we have a SPINOFF episode “why I left the church” with a very special guest, Zac Rodarmel. In previous episodes, Rachel has shared part of her story with church hurt, but now we have her older brother here sharing his perspective on an immense church fallout 6 years ago. Faith is interviewing her fiancé about Zac’s life of following his calling to serve God in leading the church, then the unexpected experience of a very public divorce (2019) which led to the community he built to turn on him.

They talk about getting married at a young age for God, the expectations placed on a leader in the church, religious rules, inauthentic friendships, “christian” judgement, secret affairs, studying theology, living in “sin”, WWJD and finding your soulmate after a heartbreaking divorce. 

You won’t want to miss this deeply expressed episode of CTSFU about love, loss, betrayal, religion, family, community and finding your own personal relationship with God. 

Listen to ZAC SLAPS EP "Oh Baby" on iTunes, Spotify and SoundCloud ♡

https://open.spotify.com/artist/3TWOCnV40C1VMTeuecmTy6?si=ShIe4qq4TiWZhbCkHKB3aA

https://soundcloud.com/zacslaps/sets/oh-baby-ep?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

https://music.apple.com/us/album/oh-baby-ep/1489373055 

You’ll start the episode by audio transporting to Nashville,Tennessee to hear the ASMR sounds of the countryside summer. After entering the room, the ladies share the full story of how it was decided to pick up their whole lives and moved across the United States on a whim. How manifesting is real sh*t and spontaneously leaving your hometown and moving to a new place really works out in the long run. Faith and Rachel explain the seasons of Tennessee, how to get through the humid summers and tips for the transition moving from Southern California to the south. As well as what it was like to buy a property with 14 chickens and a rooster, growing kids in the country, navigating the bugs, wildlife and the big, yet small, city. Which opens up the story time of their wildest night in Nashville, the CALL HER DADDY Unwell 2023 tour! They reminisce the hilarious memories of meeting DADDY GANG, sneaking to the front row, getting the nickname “COW JACKET GIRL”, getting yelled at by Chelsea Handler and much more. Following the show, the girls figure out how to sneak into the private after party where they got to party with Alex Cooper and the UNWELL team.

CALL HER DADDY STORY TIME @ 35:05 minutes

This lightly opens up the discussion of drinking culture, grieving a suicide, substance abuse while grieving and how dangerous alcohol consumption can be for you at the lowest points of life.

Thank you for tuning into a 5th week of CSTFU! <3

Please drink responsibly.

Tune in this week for a hilarious episode of CSTFU where the ladies answer your personal, deep, wild questions sent in from the Femmes! 

On this more serious episode of CSTFU, Rachel and Faith sit down and figure out what exactly started their body dysmorphia. They share their very personal eating disorder journeys; how they developed, why it was so common, the raw experiences of the illness. Why comparison is so dangerous while you are developing into your own unique body, especially growing up in Southern California, where a huge epidemic of body dysmorphia is created socially. The ladies talk about their asshole ex’s that were horrible for their self esteem and why they put up with it for so long. Entering the topic of SELF LOVE into the show, “loving yourself is the only way to true freedom.”

Thoughts on hairy armpits? Weight gain? Did they ever overcome their eating disorder? Find out the girls answers now on episode 3 of Can’t Shut the Femme Up!

Our Dm's are always open for you @cantshutthefemmeup <3

eatingdisorderhope.com

https://bulimia.com/

nationaleatingdisorders.org/get-help/

https://renfrewcenter.com/learning-resources-for-eating-disorders-and-recovery/

At the height of their luteal phase, the girls share their hearts as to why they are starting this show. Each one gives the listeners a brief view into their lives and who they are. They go back to middle school and talk about how common SA is at school after puberty. Discussions of the patriarchy in the church and how different women are treated in religion. They open up conversation about mental health and how important it is to the podcast. Plus a story time about saving stray cats from being killed by a dog. Thank you for tuning into the first episode of Can't Shut the Femme up, we'll see you next Monday! 

Faith & Rachel