Once again grasping for control and separation. My focus is on the leg (action) of the turtle and where it's going (expectation). In this limited view, I'm missing the whole picture (available through senses). I'm being asked to be present, immersed in every sensation, listening as the universe unfolds infinity in a moment. The action and expectation are not the boundaries of the lived experience.

I hate the whining of my character. I've been bitching and moaning all week. Website design, NFTs and taxes have me questioning what I'm doing and crying 😢 in self doubt. I want to shut that noise down. Yet, I'm being asked to respect the resistance and listen. Where else can I listen and learn from the complaining?

So maybe I'm not the one controlling this process. Having faith and surrendering makes space for something beyond me. Separation to feel powerful is nothing but my mind game and it slows down creation.

I have struggled so very much with the lesson between BEing and DOing. I felt that by not doing, I lose control. Yet, it is the system that I'm refining and once the system is aligned, the doing will be in flow.

What is between the desperate energy for more and the apathy of simply surviving? What benefit does being present in observation bring? Is the play found in the balance? My answers are not yet clear but I'm willing to experiment going deeper into the now.

We know how to be human doers. But how do we just BE human? As part of nature there is life that flows through us. By listening to, and riding that flow we receive an expression of ease and even play. We are in collaboration with the divinity of life

Today, I am finding it very challenging to surrender. Once again I am struggling with faith that I will be taken care of if I stop trying to control. My heart centered inner child is fearful and my head dominant adult does not want to slow down to console and connect with that vulnerability. We are not aligned today. This is the work.

The separation between the parent and the offspring is because they are resisting the expression of the other. This is a natural process of evolution. They are making space for both expressions to exist. It is only when the two generations reunite in collaboration that life realizes its full potential. Alignment, balance and removing the desire to control that which is not you.

I still struggle with faith in the unfolding. I keep my control always seeking and thinking there must be something more. It can't be this easy. What else do I need to do because being is not anough? I know where I am going. I know how I'm going, yet I still fear going. Surrendering is my work

I've always wanted to be the winner because I was taught that one does not succeed unless others fail. Living my life in service of others must mean that I will be miserable. Only I take care of me and if I'm taking care of we then who will take care of me? Community is impossible with fear of survival and the necessity of separation for personal value. This path is a challenge