(TW Car accident, minor mention of injury) We talk about a car accident that I was in at 18 years old and the destruction that was necessary to break me out of the patterns that were keeping me disconnected from myself. We talk about the path to reconnecting with ourselves, is the path to reconnecting to God through the part of us that is God, The Soul. We talk about how vital and necessary this process is and how common it is but we need to be listening inside ourselves to the voice of our Soul to participate fully.

We discuss the role of "betrayer" of the abusive family system/institution as a black sheep who has been empowered from scapegoat role by their choice to turn away from the system that feeds off them and turn towards themselves. In order to no longer betray ourselves, we must betray what benefits from our denying ourselves and that can be very difficult for our conditioning, thus we sense it as a betrayal when in actuality, betrayal is pervasive energy through out. We do not create it, nor pass it on, we hand it back by stepping away from it.

We speak about how the quiet revolution, the only act of transformation necessary, is to turn toward yourself, turn toward the Truth resonating within the body. This act can trigger our nervous system to fear because it stands as Death to all that came before. This very Death is an initiatory rite that allows us to realign with our Soul's path, begin moving our lifeforce forward again, and reverberate our freedom out through all time and space.

This episode speaks about reconnecting with the Lifeforce within us through inner listening and listening to our Deepest Desires. Trigger Warning: there is mention of suicidal ideation in that the root of some suicidal experiences is suppression of this lifeforce due to societal pressure. Details or dangerous situations are not discussed, it is philosophical and a small part of the episode. This is here if you need it.

I discuss the experiences I've had in my inner world with going inside, experiencing the pain of self suppression, and trading it for the intrinsic pain of experiencing life. To suppress the Self is a slow march toward Death, to listen and activate the Self through life experience is to feed your Aliveness which in turn feeds you. Pain and Pleasure are a guarantee, and are inseparable, only one option leaves you more Alive and strings your Aliveness along within you one bead of experience at a time.

Discussing the way our society pathologize our natural emotional sense for the benefit of a structured capitalistic society. Reclaiming emotion is the first psychic sense speaking to us about who we’re meant to be.

A quick explanation and instruction on how spending ten minutes a day with yourself can open you up to deeper self connection and hearing your inner voice. This is a free form practice that requires no rules of meditation besides that you are with yourself and committed to hearing yourself. This introduction is a key practice of reclaiming the self and building intuition.