How many episodes do we think I am going to make about how I am back before I actually come back? In this episode, I give a brief update about where I have been & why I stayed away from #Cliteracy for so long. I have a lot of stories for you which I promise I will be sharing in the upcoming weeks. 

I do know this – there are going to be some changes to #Cliteracy and I am not sure how that is going to look in the future. What I do know is that the skeletal foundation will remain the same. The bones of #Cliteracy (I don't know why I am doing this comparison) will always been rooted in honor, love, healing, and laughter. 

You are wonderful! Even though I don't have any social media, please feel free to reach out if you ever need it <3 

** This episode is all over the place. I did not listen to it again afterwards, so you're going to have to bare with me. 

There is nothing more for me to say other than ~I fucked up~ and we are going to talk about it. In this episode, I talk about self sabotage + self doubt + insecurity (aka all my usual topics). The only difference is we're going to be talking about how I did the complete OPPOSITE of what I normally tell yalls to do and ~I am crying~ in this episode. Always a good time <3

Colette LaMuse is BACK for another fun episode. I know, I know... I have been talking about bringing a guest back on for quite some time. I finally did it though. In this episode, we talk about a lot - arrogance, competition, conflict, friendship, insecurity, amplifying your energy, UNICOCKS, ghosting, and SO much more. I hope you enjoy listening, it is always a pleasure to have such a wonderful and thoughtful guest on the podcast. 

*This is my first unedited episode so please be kind*

If a guy sent you videos of him fucking a stuffed penguin, would you still have sex with him? Asking for a friend... 

In this episode, I talk about the story of how I checked #91 off my bucket list. Let me tell you, this story that has been in the making for almost an entire year but I think it is time for me to retire putting people on my bucket list because it never seems to turn out very well (throwback to episode two). I also talk a little bit about hook up culture and letting go of the idea that you need to know the reason "why" (something I struggle with on the daily).

It sucks that my first episode back is all about how I found myself entangled in an emotionally abusive and manipulative relationship. As I listened through this episode, I realized there is so much more I wish I could have said/conveyed about how I was feeling, what went down, and how paranoid I became over the course of our relationship. To be completely honest, I am scared about the content of this podcast going live and getting back to him. However, the entire point of this episode is to remind you to NEVER fight fear on fear. The only person who has the ability to lay anything you are going through down on their own accord is YOU. This is a reminder to myself as well - I will not walk through this life immobilized by fear. There is nothing this person can do that will shake more or push me from going after my desires. I have taken the steps to make sure he does not have direct contact with me anymore, but I know in my heart that this story is important for people to hear. If you have been in a similar situation/are in a situation, I hope this episode can bring some form for connection and peace for you. Even if you haven’t been through something like this before, I always come from a place of openness and love - I do not share my experiences to “ruin” other peoples lives. I share MY experiences because this is something I LIVED THROUGH. Women have always been told that we should “keep quiet” and make sure not to ruin the lives of men. I will NOT stay quiet about my experiences, things that I lived through for the past 5ish months. You should not either - your voice has power and you have no idea the change that can come about from you sharing your experiences.

As for the actual content of this episode, I talked about how we came to be a couple, the first time he accused me of cheating on him, the Mexico story, the second time he accused me of cheating on him, our breakup, and then his attempts to ruin our mutual friends’ professional and personal lives.

In this episode, we talk about a variety of different things that are TOTALLY different and nOT AT ALL the same as my other episodes - knowing your worth and your power. Just kidding, we also talk about objectification, hostile and benevolent sexism, being catcalled (hence the title of this episode), and more... 

In this episode, we talk a lot about voting and the recent confirmation of Amy Coney Barrett. I run through what that means for access to equitable reproductive healthcare like birth control, abortion care, and IVF. At one point though, I get so fired up and it turns into a rant about how powerful and amazing you are. Is that different than any of my other episodes? No, not really. 

“Don’t let anyone ever make you feel like you don’t deserve what you want.” - Heath Ledger. In this episode we go through all of my tips and tricks for communication in the bedroom and how to successfully get what you want in the bedroom. I tell some of my past experiences and the moment I realized how communication can actually make a difference when having sex with a person. 

Title is self-explanatory, but I almost quit Cliteracy among other things. In this episode, I give a brief life update and take the time to talk about jealousy and "haters". Am I cool enough to have haters? I don't even know, but I can tell you that we are going to be focusing on confidence in this episode (shocker).