Clouds, Rain, Aya

[3 year special] Hmm...The clouds are crying today. In this episode, Aya took a trip down memory lane on her 3 years of experiences amidst her college journey—from (1) first year where she struggled to join orgs and find/establish her 'identity', (2) second year where she struggled to juggle both academics and org works alongside new duties and responsibilities which forcefully made her take one year of hiatus in updating her podcast, and lastly (3) third year where she struggled the most in maintaining her social life in place. This episode signifies the hardships she already conquered and some of which that she's yet to overcome.

NOTE: Level 2 was skipped, but we'll make bawi in the next years to come ^^

I am so proud of you, past Aya. :>

Hmm...The clouds are crying today. In this episode, Aya attempts to catch up from her 3-month hiatus away from her podcast.  Honestly, it wasn't like a hiatus; instead, it's more like: (1) her not finding the time to squeeze in editing her raw recordings, (2) she cannot figure out the right timing and intentionally delaying her uploads because some are TMI which means too-much-information, and (3) she thinks it's inappropriate to publish her irrational thoughts as it may add fuel to the flames. This episode is also inspired by the famous combination of 'ketchup and fries'—only this time around, it's about Aya's unfiltered emotions, hence, catsup and cries. 2022 became the year of her traumas, overwhelming opportunities, and dreadful initiatives. Watch how Aya claims 2023 as the year where she takes a step further towards self-growth: improving her mindset more, not constantly 'perfecting' her progress and instead save a room for mistakes, and last but not the least, maintaining consistency in an unpredictable world.

Happy New Year!

Hmm...The clouds are crying today. In this episode, Aya proceeds to flip another page from Chapter 18 to Chapter 19. Over the past year of being a pre-adult, she discovers a game-changer about life: adulting doesn't actually begin at 18th, it begins at 20th. With this, she starts her journey towards the "ghost age"—a commonly-used term for when you're not a minor anymore but you're not really an adult either. Watch how Aya introduces her new and improved mindset about BIRTHDAYS + character development from her 18 years of existence.

Hmm...The clouds are crying today. In this episode, Aya uploads a long overdue episode about her regrets as a daughter, as a student, and ultimately—as a human. We all go through regrets, right? It just so happens that Aya undergoes a path that she did NOT expect to pursue. Something that she didn't plan and instead threatened her consistent and comfortable routine towards life as a 'normal' college student.  Watch how Aya narrates her life of regrets from her early childhood up until the chaos of today. 

[Listen at your own risk...] Hmm...The clouds are crying today. In this episode, things get a little personal between Aya and her anxiety. Throughout her personal hardships and for the last 3 months, she recorded raw audios of her and her emotions. Trigger warning for those who are not comfortable with someone crying or someone ranting about his/her problems that may inflict bad memories. As this episode progresses, you can tell how Aya went from shambles to enlightenment to shambles again, and vice versa. Let's be very honest here, growth is never linear, sometimes it's ups, sometimes it's downs, and even worse..... if it's both up and down. Aya named this episode a "venting-machine" because she felt like all these rants, challenges, and mental breakdowns were all cooped up like Pepsi-cans inside her mind, and each time she vents out and lets off some steam, she also dispenses a part of her psyche.

Hemlo, it's me, Aya. A gentle reminder that this podcast is my safe space, it took me a lot of strength and bravery to upload an episode like this. However, I wouldn't want to keep it to myself alone, because maybe.... someday someone would need my words.

Hmm...The clouds are crying today. In this episode, Aya, at last, manages to squeeze into her schedule this long overdue episode for the month of April. She's been having very little time for herself lately that the only time for her rest is either for sleep or for distracting her anxiety by watching K-dramas. Regardless, this episode talks about a specific trait of Aya—which is her, detaching from people once she enters her self-destructive mode AKA when her life hits rock bottom. Plus, she realized a seasonal anxiety that occurs whenever a situation is badly affecting her daily life e.g. every time she wake up—enough spoiling. Watch Aya spill more quick April rants and teas that happened in a span of a month. 

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