Cocoa Butter Junkie

I need a mental health break guys....and I'm taking it. So this will be the final episode of this season. But worry not, I will be back with more episodes in a few weeks. I'm taking this time to work on them. In the mean time, you can learn what it takes to work on this podcast.

Lemme know if you're interested in an IG live and what topics you'd like covered in Season 2.

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Peyton Sawyer's Podcast

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/peytons-podcast/id292591486

Serial Podcast

https://serialpodcast.org

List of Kenyan Podcasts I'm currently listening to 

This week's recommendations

Jesus & Jollof Podcast

https://jesusandjollof.simplecast.com/

Twilight App

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.urbandroid.lux&hl=en

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Music

Happy African Village by John Bartman

On this episode , another phone call with a friend. We just got right into it, talking about identity crisis, toxic work environments, giving on empty, friendships ,first born manenos ,boundaries,COVID-19 and I basically pressure Mary into therapy :-)

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This week's podcast recommendations

@rangipop

@ginodrawsit

@homewithrue

@islandboiphotography

All in Instagram

Psych2go : https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCkJEpR7JmS36tajD34Gp4VA

Wahura Kabutha : https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuCsv_d1SHgOk9wV_tZugdQ

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Music

Happy African Village by John Bartman

Not Remembering her by Esther Abrami

On this episode I explore sexual assault, sexual harassment, women and their work, catcalling, the importance of having a thick skin and a few other gems on what it means to be a woman in Kenya in 2020 A huge thanks to all the ladies who submitted their stories for this episode. If you would like to submit your experiences, please contact me via email on cocoabutterjunkie[at]gmail.com or social media  

Please have a look at this video in IG 

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CBIvDepDFvk/?igshid=qjhk2f5rxzb0 

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CBC61PjATCc/ 

I Know This Much Is True TV Series 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U4KBGydqlVk 

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The podcast is available on your favourite podcast app 

https://www.linktr.ee/cocoabutterjunkie 

Follow me on the socials  @cocoabutterjunkie on Instagram, Twitter and Facebook. 

Please share, rate and review! 

Thank you for listening and please consider supporting the podcast 

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Music 

Happy African Village by John Bartman 

Not Remembering her by Esther Abrami

This week I talk to another high school friend about losing a brother, her mental health journey, how her family has adjusted to her condition, experiencing work as a woman and of course how 2020 and COVID have affected her life.  

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This weeks podcast recommendations

The Infinite Game by Simon Sinek

https://simonsinek.com/the-infinite-game

The Subtle Art of not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson

https://markmanson.net/not-giving-a-fuck

Kina

https://stories.showmax.com/kina-series/

The podcast on Youtube

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1LcY5LYBt24l43nL_SrnkKAv2RK4KOry

The podcast is available on your favourite podcast app

https://www.linktr.ee/cocoabutterjunkie

Follow me on the socials  @cocoabutterjunkie on Instagram, Twitter and Facebook.

Please share, rate and review!

Thank you for listening

Consider supporting the podcast

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Music

Happy African Village by John Bartman

Not Remembering her by Esther Abrami

It’s a  long episode guys so get your favourite drink and snack and settle in. I have a guest! 

We talk about one woman’s journey into adulthood, newly found freedoms as an 18 year old. family ties , the importance of relationships and community outside of family, racism, sexism, mental health, the patriarchy, misogyny, resilience, workplace harassment, making it, OCD and therapy, growing up outside of Kenya, respect or the lack thereof for women and why no one is listening,  and of course 2020 and COVID…

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This weeks podcast recommendations

Impact Theory by Tom Bilyeu

In therapy 

The podcast on Youtube

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The podcast is available on your favourite podcast app

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Follow me on the socials  @cocoabutterjunkie on Instagram, Twitter and Facebook

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Music

Happy African Village by John Bartman

Not Remembering her by Esther Abrami

The anxiety was high this week, so I may sound like I’m hyperventilating :-)

In the episode today , I give quick update on the state of my mental health , talk about toxic positivity and let you in on some IG accounts I am loving this week.

Mentioned in the episode

Cocoa Butter Junkie on Youtube

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1LcY5LYBt24l43nL_SrnkKAv2RK4KOry

The Psychology group video

https://thepsychologygroup.com/toxic-positivity/

Teachers seek mental health support 

https://parentsafrica.com/2020/06/29/report-shows-that-400-teachers-sought-mental-health-support-in-april/

https://citizentv.co.ke/news/400-teachers-sought-mental-health-support-over-depression-in-april-report-337021/

IG accounts mentioned in the episode

@africacovidexhibition @pichaimages @melaninjourney @dopeblackart and  @notesfromyourtherapist.

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Music: Happy African Village by John Bartmann

Today I will read some stories, poems and thoughts I wrote the year after my brother died. 

As I said, COVID-19 has forced me to think about my brother’s death more these last few months. The first year, to deal with the shock of losing him, I would write.

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Links  mentioned in the episode

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/that-first-walk-5215dde29e06

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/i-want-to-be-normal-f10461979f1e

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/hopes-and-dreams-i-had-for-my-brother-29e7c719995

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/be-strong-f436c4b550f1

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/lessons-from-my-brothers-death-2d8ee6d2abc6

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Music: Happy African Village by John Bartmann

Today I tell you about my brother, the journey to finding out he’d died, the first time I saw him in a casket, his burial and the journey since

For those not from Kenya, 

* Matatu = public transport bus , 

* Matatu stage = bus stop, 

* Maragoli = one of the ethnic communities/languages spoken in Kenya, 

* Safaricom  = most popular Telcom in Kenya

* Town = the city

* Fundi = Tailor

Doing this episode was really hard for me. Recording and editing the audio took a lot. Reliving the death of loved one is hard. I didn’t realize just how hard it would be...

The day that this episode goes live was supposed to be my brother’s birthday. June 28th. He would be turning thirty.

You will hear a lot of   “…at some point” “…aaaand…”, clicks, and awkward laughs  :-)

I wrote this  couple of months after my brother died…I mentioned it in the episode

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/that-first-walk-5215dde29e06

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/i-want-to-be-normal-f10461979f1e

https://medium.com/@thiskenyanwoman/hopes-and-dreams-i-had-for-my-brother-29e7c719995

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Music: Happy African Village by John Bartmann

In this episode I talk about the first time I realized that my mental health might not be at 100%. I talk about signs and symptoms of depression and anxiety, seeing a doctor for the first time, getting on medication and my experience on the meds.

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Apps I use (on Android) are Inuka, Youper, and Wysa.

I follow @nedratawwab on Instagram 

On Youtube I follow Psychology Demystified, Dr Tracey Marks, Live by Design with Grace Kariuki and Therapy in a nutshell  

I have also done a Pinterest Board on Mental health. Have a look and see if you feel any of the same symptoms.

https://www.pinterest.com/msmiira/selfcare/mental-health/ 

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Music: Happy African Village by John Bartmann

Welcome to the Cocoa Butter Junkie podcast. I’m Michelle and this is my podcast. 

This is a podcast on the everyday reflections and experiences of a Kenyan woman. An examination of life living through mental health issues, grief, growing up a.k.a kicking and screaming into adulthood, the experiences of being a woman in Kenya, making friends as an adult, struggles with faith and bunch of other topics.

Today I talk about my vision board versus everything 2020 has brought with it.

Follow me on @thiskenyanwoman on Twitter and Instagram.

Let me know how COVID has affected your plans for this year by leaving a voice note on anchor.fm/cocoabutterjunkie

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Thanks for listening!

Music: Happy African Village by John Bartmann