- Morning coffee disaster

- Upside down world/life obliterated in a moment

- Finding support

- Boundaries/the real people will stick by you

- Pursuing justice/dad in prison

- The importance of ending the "Toxic cycle"

- Becoming a PATH Intl. certificed Therapeutic Riding Instructor

- Moving to MO.

- Horrific news of trauma to one of my children

- Reality of our life hits us for the first time

- Back tracking to tell some very painful stories

- Horrific news about my dad that I was told when we lived in the village

- Trying to cope when my body was screaming against it

- Horrible trauma done to my family by Nate's family

- Regrets/Pain/Resolving to never hide or protect perpetrators/Giving voice to the victims

- Nate's "epiphany" about moving

- Disappointed response from the village

- Taking the crazy leap to move to Colorado

- Joining a church

- Quitting the church

- Poem in honor of my friend Jeremiah

- Living with multiple families as a young couple

- Unprepared and inadequate to deal with traumatic/toxic/unhealthy situations

- Losing best friends/Cutting off those who left

- Could never get it right no matter how hard I tried

- Finally deciding to move into a place with just our family and how everyone saw it as selfish

- Surviving teen years

- Worldy, attention seeking, school teacher story

- Having crushes on guys and women but never acknowledging the "bad" part of me

- Getting married and rushed into community living as newly weds and our first baby

- The "Outside View" of our cult verses the "Inside Truth"

- Cult leader painting his bus in the barn and how everything was my selfishness

- The toxic environment and behaviors behind it all

- Moving to West Tn

- Living in Mash'Em Inn

- Saving for a horse

- Shiloh entering my life (One of the best gifts I could have ever asked for)

- Getting kicked off the property

- Life starting over on an abandoned cow pasture

- Living with multiple families in one home

- Conflicting emotions about my dad

- Going to visit my grandma

- My dad's repentance

- My parent's "real" wedding

- Moving to a new home

- Quote from Dr Edith Eva Eger about re-framing our trauma

- Meeting "The Group"

- My family dynamics

- My view of God

- My scary experience of my parents separation when I was 12