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Episode 120 (02/24/21): The Summer of 2014 found my head leaned up against a trash can, completely at a lost for words. In the moments where the plans that we once held so tightly blows away with the wind… when we find ourselves exhausted & numb… in the moments where confusion & brokenness overwhelms our heart & mind and we don’t know where to go… where is God?

Heavy heart, there is a kindness present in our confusion & brokenness.

Music referenced in this episode:

Jason Gray, “Jesus, Use Me, I’m Yours”

(From the album: Everything Sad Is Coming Untrue)

Episode 119 (02/17/2021): Have you ever felt as if you were in a funk? In the moments and seasons where we find ourselves overwhelmed and overcome; our loneliness, longings, and lies can begin to become the loudest voices in the private chamber of our heart and mind. Where do we go when we don’t know where to go? Where can we go to find the rest that our souls long for? In today’s episode, join us as we address the desire for more than our loneliness, longings, and lies.

Heavy heart, there is a rest… and it is not found where we lay our heads.

Music referenced in this episode:

Jon Foreman, “Red And Gold”

(From the album: Departures)

Episode 118 (02/10/2021): All of us have had times in our lives where we have felt lost reading the Bible, times where we felt lost sitting in church, and moments where we question the relevancy of Jesus concerning our lives today. We all have times where we feel as if we going through the motions of religion and discipline while others seem to have a passion and a zeal... yet through all of the confusion, through all of the questions, how can we overcome the mundane that we often may feel? Join us as we look at the question that all of us at times will ask:

"Why can't I see what others see?"

Music referenced in this episode:

Bebo Norman, “Ruins”

(From the album: Bebo Norman)

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Episode 117 (02/03/21): Have you ever felt as if there was a dark cloud of hurt, doubt, questions, and confusion that hangs over your heart and mind? In the moments where it’s difficult to “snap out of it”, can we be honest to the Lord with the overwhelming pain that feels like it can swallow us whole? When we feel like senseless animals… there is a beautiful, sobering, truth that shines through even the darkest of nights. Join us as we look at the sobering honesty found in Psalms 73.

Heavy hearts… despite what the dark clouds of thoughts and emotions may be whispering to you, there is freedom, a sobriety, to be found. You are not alone.

Episode 116 (01/27/21): Church. This one word can bring so many thoughts, emotions, and memories to our mind; however, what is the church and why does it matter? In today’s episode, join us as we look at the unity that can be found despite our age, flag, background, job, social class, baggage, and gender. In these times of division, we have an opportunity to rally around more than what we so can so often settle for…

Heavy heart, we are truly in this together.

Episode 115 (01/20/21): Heavy heart, there is a strength to be found in weakness.

There is a strength to be found in weakness.

Music referenced in this episode:

Blue October, “Only Lost Is Found”

(From the album: This Is What I Live For)

Episode 114 (01/13/21): No matter who we are, all of us will have moments in our lives where we feel abandoned... when the beautiful sunsets of life give way to harshest of nights.

When our world crashes down around our feet, and our dreams & hopes feel distant, have we been abandoned? Whether we keep our questions close to our hearts, or we shout our doubts from the rooftops, the cruelty of life can sometimes cast a shadow on what we once felt so confident of. Is there a light to be found in the dark?

… Heavy heart, our emotions do not tell us the truth.

Music referenced in this episode:

Hillsong United, “All I Need Is You”

(From the album: Look To You)

Episode 113 (12/28/20): In Psalm 18, David writes of how the Lord has made his feet “as surefooted as a deer”, yet if I’m being honest, I know that I often do not feel as surefooted as a deer on this mountain of life… and I’m sure I’m not the only one.

As we stand together at the end of a year that has been one for the history books of our hearts, join us as we reflect on that which we’ve attempted to climb, are climbing, and the mountains that we are being prepared for. Heavy heart, no matter where today finds you, you are NOT alone.

(Music In Today's Episode: Arrows To Athens, "Dust and Gold")

Episode 112 (12/16/20): There are certain individuals in our lives whose presence brings peace and perspective, and to me, Jason Fullum is one of those rare gifts. Growing up in Detroit as a kid, all that Jason ever wanted was a true friend and the certainty that everything would be okay. Today, Jason has devoted his life to be that friend to the young and old, while sharing the hope that he once thought was only found in comic books. In today’s conversation, join us as we talk about the unpredictable journey of finding hope, purpose, and patience through the many afflictions and affections that this journey of life may bring.

Regardless of where today finds you… regardless of the disappointments & wounds that yesterday has brought… through every high and low of life… you are not alone.

Rest Easy My Child... You're Going To Be Okay.

Episode 111 (12/09/20): In each and every breath, we all hold longings near to our heart. From the longings for restoration, longings for fulfillment, and longings to escape the frailty & insecurities of life, in every heartbeat… in every sigh that life brings… our hearts cry out for more. In today’s episode, join us as we discuss examples of redemption, deceptions, and the frailty of life. Through beauty and weakness, there is more to life than longings & rust.

Heavy heart, regardless of where today may find you, you are not alone.

Music Featured in Today's Episode:

"Concrete (Acoustic)", Fresh Life Worship