Creatives Making Money with Jamie Jensen

What would a storytelling podcast be without me sharing MY story?

My money story is a funny one, because it comes all jammed up in loads of other details.

I don’t think we can look at our attitude or beliefs or patterns towards money and NOT get into some deep, deep work. Personally, I don’t think it’s possible. Because where did we learn all of our money stuff from? Our parents. Our caretakers. Our loved ones. Our own struggles and strife. Other people who wanted to protect us, or help us succeed in the world. And some of that may have served you up until now. Some of that may be time to examine and release.

Either way, you’re here and listening because you’re ready to expose yourself to stories and beliefs that could shift things for you.

So let’s get into it… This episode is the one where I bare it all.

Now to give you a little backstory, I am from Queens, New York. Like SPIDERMAN.

But in my Origin story, I do not get bit by a spider and gain superpowers.

Instead, I get bit by the desire to create, expand, succeed, and be authentic --- and both discover and cultivate superpowers.

Born technically in the Bronx, raised in Queens, educated in Queens and Manhattan and always feeling relatively “safe” with money.

My father was an entrepreneur. My parents were homeowners. What money problems they faced I was generally “shielded” from. And there were issues. My father loved to take risks. Entrepreneurship-style risks, day-trading style risks, quit-your-job-and-start-a-business type of risks. All of that. Do-what-you-love and create your own success type of risks.

Everything I stand for is a result of being raised to believe, for better or for worse, that I can create money out of thin air.

It still took (and continues to take) a lot of terrifying trial-and-error to find the evidence that this is true. After all, for every belief, there are stories that support it, and those that rip it to to shreds, after all. Want to believe you can do anything. Great, look for proof of that. Want to believe the Universe, God or whomever you believe in completely and fully supports you, Great. Look for proof of that. Want to believe life is meaningless and nothing is worth suffering or sacrificing for? Great, You can find proof to back that up too.

But this show isn’t just about belief. It’s about belief in creating and belief in creating, specifically, MONEY.

At a very young age, I was taught “you should never be upset about money because you can always, always, always make more.”

Some people were raised to scrimp and save, I was raised with YOLO - order extra food just to taste it. The abundance mindset was STRONG in my household.

And while it was, there was also a lingering unmet desire.

One for greater wealth, acceptance, belonging, and love.

The fact is, I don’t believe my father achieved the success of his dreams before he died.

I was 20, and I’d say he was ‘mid-uplevel’ when he passed away.

I realized much later on (like a decade PLUS later) that this made me believe I couldn’t succeed past a certain point because he didn’t. It was only immediately prior to my own quote unquote uplevel, that I was facing massive anxiety and fear of death because what else did I know?

One of the big things that gets in our way when it comes to receiving is the possibility of surpassing your parents in lifestyle or financial gain.

Some of us carry this belief that we’ll repeat their patterns over and over and over, for better or for worse.

4 years into being an agency owner, and it hit me that I had completely left a piece of myself behind.

This had happened once before in life. In high school.

See, I went to the Fame School for visual art. At the time I was accepted I was doing it all -- writing, acting, painting, drawing, fashion design. Winning awards and loving it.

I was completely and fully expressed and blessed to be in a NYC public school in Queens that had a great arts program.

But once I got into a high school for studio art, I was forced to focus on ONE discipline.

I couldn’t play in theater because theater was for the theater kids. I couldn’t dance because dance was for the dance kids.

I was in a singular focus: everything that constituted as studio art: painting, drawing, pen and ink, photography, ceramics, watercolor, design, still life, acrylic, oils, art history, digital art, etc.

These were some of the most difficult years of my life. Years I descended into an eating disorder, self-isolated, and completely shut myself off. Yet I was creating… and it was beautiful. But I wasn’t fully expressed.

You can bet I then went to the most interdisciplinary program possible for college.

But what I learned in those years wasn’t just about combining disciplines -- which is what I do now with my work with clients.

I learned that sometimes you can find yourself unexpressed because your focus is accidentally singular.

Maybe from obsession, maybe from need, maybe from love.

There’s a quote from the movie Adaptation that I come back to again and again about obsession and how it ‘whittles the world down to a more manageable size.’

I think about that. How it serves us in making the world seem less overwhelming. In making our options less broad. I think about how zero’ing in with an eating disorder made it easier to make choices about food because I gave myself a constant set of rules to live by.

I think about how hard we resist freedom because it’s terrifying to face both our own power -- and the uncertainty of it all. We love being led because of this. Someone else decides, and you’re out of the hot seat.

But when we’re talking about YOU -- and your life, what you’re capable of -- how can we ever be willing to sacrifice your truest expression of self in your one, single life in exchange for comfort, peace of mind, certainty.

When you’re not being completely 100% YOU, your soul will always work to bring you back to a state of homeostasis and balance.

And it will do so by figuring out precisely what’s missing (usually with pain) and adding it back in (usually with radical change).

For me, at the 4 year mark in business, I found I had to shed the identity of entrepreneur for a little while -- I decided to shut down my agency business and start over a new way.

WHY?

I felt, at the time, that I wasn’t living my own dream. I was living my father’s dream.

Sometimes we carry obsessions that aren’t our own and we have to separate the wounded, unhealthy parts with the true legacy work.

The obsession with being a “boss” or hitting a certain revenue goal wasn’t in my highest good. It served me until it didn’t anymore. And that’s OK.

I had to let go of a business structure that I had built in many ways, in honor of my father. And then I had to do it over again, my way. I had to grieve losing him all over again. Sometimes weird shit like that is part of the process.

I don’t know if this podcast would exist were it not for my father’s work in non-profits and building art centers in underprivileged communities, which he did with the red cross for a short period of time.

This desire to serve a community of creatives is legacy work for me, but it’s also a piece of me.

That said, it must exist in balance with all the other pieces, or else it’s not breaking the pattern that you’re here to break.

The process of allowing the various pieces of you to have a voice and participate in your life’s decisions is an ongoing process.

What I learned is that at any given time we are not ever COMPLETELY expressed but that we are all working to be so. And doing our best with what we’ve got. But there is still room for us to gain the wisdom and insights we need to do it better, to push us in the right direction -- whatever that may be for us -- and to embrace the messy process of BEING a creative.

The reason I started this podcast is because I want more creatives to tell their story, and I want more people to talk about the money piece.

Money and creativity are not mutually exclusive -- they go hand in hand.

We need money to create and we need to create (for) money.

The way that looks is different for everyone, and your version will always be unique to you too.

Whatever you want to create -- whether that’s a project that’s on your heart, or 1 million dollars, or both -- you can. All you have to do is commit, and create like you mean it.

Hello and welcome to Creatives Making Money.

First of all, thank you so much for taking the time to listen today.

If you’re here, you’re obviously creative. Whatever that means for you. Artist, healer, entrepreneur, innovator, engineer, inventor, idea-machine… etc.

You’re maybe making money.

And chances are, you want a little bit more of BOTH.

I hear from entrepreneurs all the time about how they want MORE revenue in their business, to climb to the ‘next level,’ to get out of the constant ‘feast and famine’ mode.

But what I hear almost entirely just as frequently is -- I JUST WISH I HAD MORE SPACE/TIME to CREATE.

If I had a dollar for every single business badass I knew who was like, “ugh if I just had an extra day in the week, or a month off each year, or (insert length of free time here), I’d have written my book/screenplay/video series -- started my YouTube channel -- painted more often -- started crochet’ing --- etc. etc. etc.”

AND, if you did have that quote unquote free time, my question is… would you?

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It was nearly two years ago, on my way home from a kick-ass live event -- mid-flight -- that I had the clear and obvious “calling” to create this podcast.

But there were costs involved, not the least of which was TIME, so you can bet your ass I didn’t land on the ground and decide O M G yassss, this was the year/time/opportunity to start right now.

In fact, it took a good year for me to even commit to doing this podcast, and another year to make it actually happen.

WHY?

Because creating requires resources. And where I was in my life and business then wouldn’t have made it possible for me to start and commit to consistent content creation.

So I waited and worked and waited and worked.

But could I have started this podcast sooner?

Sure. It would have required other items on my agenda to hit the backburner.

But now, here we are and it’s all happening.

The point is this -- if you want something badly enough, you’ll do it -- no matter what resource constraints “seem” to be in the way. 

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My hope is that this podcast sparks the conversation in your mind for you on what YOU need to step up and create.

Those who know me well know that I am a story junkie.

I believe that it is only through hearing stories of other inspired and inspiring individuals who are on a mission to express all of their brilliance, gifts, and ideas before they kiss this planet and lifetime goodbye that you can remember your own power.

That ultimately YOU can create anything.

You simply have to create like you mean it.

So I hope you stick around for these 100 conversations.

It’s bound to be a wild ride.