A week and a bunch of reflection later I realize what a sniveling idiot I was. Granted things are never Perfect anywhere and what I was whining about was legit; however it was somewhat uncalled for and didn't really reflect well on the progress I've made.. C'est la vie. So this show is a true hodge podge of the past week and a huge epiphany I had today about how absolutely blessed I am.

You know sometimes it really is the people around you that are the defining factor in choices we make. Right now I'm debating on staying in this program or doing my thing without this overbearing and inconsistent structure... People seem to forget I'm still new in this situation and haven't got it all figured out like they do after having years in the program. Oh I understand discipleship.. I can do that Anywhere and without all the BS I'm being drown in right now. Jesus himself would have exited out of here and been like Later Haters!!! STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER Dancingwithbipolar.com

Hey. It's the eve of Bris's birthday. I'm not going to lie I've been grieving, his death and the loss of the perceived future I hoped for us. I've also been compounding the grief with a whole lot of nothing. But seeking anything to take away the pain of his suicide. Just believe me when I tell you it ends on an upbeat.🌞😇😎. Love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone. Just one of those weeks that the downward slide hit hard. I think I got it figured out and nothing that a trip to Sedona AZ can't heal. 🌞. Season 4: The Year of Discipleship. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone.. I'm in a bit of a reflective mood about how I got to Flagstaff and how there was absolute divine intervention to get me out of Running Bear alive. Though I'm not dwelling on the past I am still processing the events that happened.. as always there is a life message here (I think) 😇. Seekjesus.co use code Dancingwithbipolar for 15% off your total order. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. Not a whole lot going on. Holding steady right now which is really uncomfortable to me as I'm used to total chaos. Lol right? Seriously though this is just a quick check in to tell you guys I love you and all that jazz. Season 4 The year of Discipleship. Check out seekjesus.co use discount code dancingwithbipolar for 15% off your total order. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone.. this is kind of a mashup of all kinds of thoughts and reflections of my past week. Of course there is a bigger message involved among the chatter and laughter which I'm not going to tell you 😄🌝🌞. It was a good week though I'll give that info up. I love each of you. Season 4 is the year of discipleship btw. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone.. I might be a tiny bit manic so there's some jumping around from topic to topic but I do pull it together and have an epiphany towards the end.. This is a truly block buster moment. Hi to the Czech republic and thank you for listening. I love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey.. kind of blah and just not feeling like anything is moving forward. I hate the hurry up and wait aspect of life and really hate when I feel like my life is suspended due to consequences way beyond my control. Guess that's life. Ugh.😞. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey there. So I'm not really sure what this show was really supposed to be about. Seriously.. I honestly just wanted to talk to all of you and in the process answered a question I didn't even know I had.. Love Each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!